I woke up this morning thinking of my spiritual husband. I was told years ago by a spiritualist (more than one actually), about my spiritual husband with whom I have incarnated with many a life times, but NOT, in this current life, because my work here on earth was not complete I had to come back, but he could not. He has achieved Nirvana and will never come back to earth. I knew they were correct when they told me so because ever since I was a child I have felt his presence with me, watching over me, protecting me, teaching me, loving me. I have seen him in my visions and dreams, sometimes he is barely visible to me. When I was going through my experience with Astral Projection, he was there. There was a time when he kept men away from me, allowing them not to come anywhere near me. I want who so ever is reading to understand and believe me, but if you do not, it matters not to Obara Meji because I know what I am saying and it is all true, and even if I am insane then leave me to it!, because this insanity is BLISS!!!. I Love him and I feel him, and I know he is real. For me to have a companion, here on Earth, Padrino had to pray and appeal to him, letting him know that he is in heaven while I have a physical body and am on earth and he agreed, although he has not gone away, he has stepped aside!.
While I slept with my husband at nights he would come into my dreams and hug me close to him and I did not want to wake up, and when I did, my husband who slept beside me would have to comfort me because I cried and cried from missing him and I would tell my physical lover so, I didn’t care!. I do not know his name , he told it to me in a vision, but I have refused to use it, because to do so would bring pain to my heart, so I tell myself that the vision is false! something I imagined and I have convinced myself that I do not know his name. However I boldly go anywhere because I know HE is always with me. He Pampers my mind and soothes my thoughts and calms me down when I get a little crazy, but I Love him and I know that I will see him one day again when the mist have rolled away! I see his personality like a famed hero, protective and strong, charming and passionate, fiery and mysterious, commanding yet gentle, with me! with me!.,
Have you ever been attracted to someone you didn’t know or have never met?. How about the person you have met, that attractive neighbor who just moved in across the street, whose charm and good looks makes you feel warm and fuzzy, the Post man/woman depending on who you are, who is always jovial, courteous and nice, who delivers the mail at 1 pm everyday, and you make sure that you stand outside no matter the weather to receive the mail personally, just to get a glimpse of him/her. The Butcher who gives you that extra piece of meat every time you go to his shop, who makes that thing in the bottom of your belly jump when he winks at you slyly and says “Here you go darlin”, with a slight drawl. What of your High School Teacher, charming, smart, sexy with wise eyes and a winsome smile, who has you imagining yourself seducing him on a small island far away somewhere, while the sun shines but the breeze is cool, and the ocean plays music softly with its waves from a distance and there is nobody there to disturb you as you have your way with him,’…and it’s magical because it is so Forbidden, so taboo!.. coming back to myself, as I hear him calling my name and admonishing me gently for not paying attention, while I secretly smile (like the Mona Lisa), because only if he knew,……. and I think he does as his eyes locks with mine and gently reproves me telepathically, while I blush, but am defiant!. Remember the movie with the ever sexy Sidney Poitier, To Sir With Love.
I love watching African movies, especially the Traditional ones, and there is an actor who is one of my favorite, his name is Taiwo. Taiwos’s complexion is dark and cool like fine expensive chocolate, and through the screen he exudes sex appeal without even trying. He is Muslim in real life, very spiritual and most of his movies are about reality, he is a very fine actor and very intelligent. I think I have seen all his movies and I never get tired of seeing him or hearing about him. I even told my husband about my crush on him, and said there goes your competition, knowing that I would never meet him, but my husband is secure, so he smiles and pokes fun at me. Some of my African friends called me several months ago and told me that Taiwo was in town, attending some African party there, knowing that I have a huge crush on him they wanted me to go along with them to see him, but I declined. I want him to remain a fantasy to me, plus I knew I couldn’t bear it if I saw him with his wife or some other woman or women, that would just destroy the fantasy I have about him in my head I am very possessive by nature,……. why can’t women have harems? I wish I could. Taiwo is my Lover in my head, yes I know I have my husband and I am not a cheat except for in my head!….What??… I have been a good girl all my life, , allow me my fantasy and do not criticize. I am sure this is the same way for the men also, the same way men fantasize about women,…… but back to Taiwo. Sometimes at night while my husband sleeps and I lay awake, I see Taiwo come into the room and tells me to scoot over which I quickly do, he then lays there facing me and stares at me in the dark, our eyes connecting through the light of the moon that shines through the window and illuminates both our faces, he takes his long black arm and gently throws it over me and pulls me close and I breathe in his wonderful masculine scent, hmmmmmm, we say nothing to each other, we just stare and feel. There are no need for words, we are communicating through the mind. Our connection is love, we have been lovers for thousands of years, travelling together to this Earth plane, incarnating together as man and wife…..Always….he is a part of me as I am apart of him…My beautiful African, my chocolate candy, deserving of no one but me his natural wife, And so we lay and stare into each others face, there is no rush, no hurry, just us, the moonlight, the noise of the night which are oblivious to us. I feel cool them hot, and he takes his sensual fingers and brushes the hair from my forehead, gently placing it behind my ears, while he telepathically tells me he will soon go, my heart beat quickens at this and I start to protest, wanting to scream, “no please don’t go!!!, I need you!!”, but he calms me by placing his long fingers to my lips and tells me not to fear he will be back. He tells me he will never leave me, how could he,.. he reassures, I am his wife and he is my husband, Forever!. Then he uses his fingers to close my eyes and I feel his lips as it faintly touches against mine and I calm myself, because way down deep in the crevices of my mind I know I will see him again, and then he is gone. I hear my husband move next to me and suddenly wakes up asking me if I am alright, I pretend not to hear. Not wanting to break the moment, then I go off into the sleep world,where we meet up again and it’s magic!.
This was a fantasy I had for years of my spiritual husband and it was only until I met the physical husband that I have now that it stopped. For a moment. It came back for a while when I started watching Taiwo”s movies. I became smitten by him and still am. No I am not in any danger of cheating with him if we ever meet, because I am not like that, but I would never want to meet him, why tempt fate. The biblical David had declared somewhere in the bible that he would never sin against God, and did he not do the very same thing he declared never to do when he fornicated with Bathsheba? 2nd Samuel chapter 11. So till him did haffi run go write psalms 51 as to appease God for his actions, ‘Bout him born in sin and shape in iniquity!. His declaration was a challenge to God and God tempted him and he sinned. In the words of Renato Adams on Twin Of Twins parody of him “nutten nuh hard bout dat”!
Often times when you find your self attracted to someone regardless of their Ethnicity, Social Standing, Education or etc, even if you have never met or have no hope of meeting that person, but just by seeing them on the television or from afar, they might be married or totally out of your reach, still there is a spiritual connection there beyond you imagination. He might be the French President and I am the higgla from down town Jamaica, and I see him on the television and become fascinated with him or He may come to Jamaica on a visit and while driving through the streets of Jamaica in his limousine he sees the higgla selling her wares on the sidewalk through his darkened glass window, and he has to do a double take, something about her sparked something within him, and for the rest of the day her image stays with him. It is a very great possibility that they have met in another life, another time, but have both incarnated to live different lives here on earth. I have a spirit husband. He will never come back to Earth, he has been released from the Wheel of Existence, the birthing wheel. I feel him ever so often with me, and when I was single he was around me more, now he comes when there is danger or when I am very sad, He is allowing my Earthly husband to enjoy me, as I had to appeal to him to allow me to live on earth as a Human Being should, having a life partner, which he now has. But he is forever my husband and when the time comes and the mist has rolled away, we will be together again. In the interest of not making this post too long we will visit this topic further in another post. Look out for it, as it will be very interesting
When a ripe fruit sees an honest man, it drops…Yoruba Proverb