September 6, 2014 Obara Meji 159Comment

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Good day one and all, whenever it comes to the subject of religion and moving away from the church and its beliefs or even questioning them its like prodding an angry dog with a hot stick. As I have said many times before, I grew up in the church, I had no choice, I was born into christianity. I too was taught that to question God was blaspheme, and you dare not question Jesus. I as you all know, love to read and so I went on a book quest after coming to America of finding more about God and his only begotten son Jesus. I read the bible from front to back and back to front and again. I was on a hunt. One day while riding into a cab, the driver was an African and muslim and we began speaking about Islam. I really did not know much about Islam, only that their women seemed to me to be extremely submissive and their men extremely arrogant and rough. However I admired their discipline in praying five times per day.

I became fascinated with the story of Muhammad and all that he went through while seeking the divine Lord. The same taxi man later gifted me with the Koran, which I read, front to back and back to front. Upon reading it, I got a little offended that Jesus was “only” portrayed there as a prophet and not the son of God as taught to me. Back then as any good christian my back would arch and I would go into defensive mode if you came at Jesus wrong, if yuh nuh mine sharp mi cuss of fight yuh fi de Lord and den ask him pardon, I was that dedicated.

However that did not deter me from reading it and having deep discussions with muslims (all African people). Then I met a Rabbai a very nice Jewish man who had walked into my business place, by then I had an Real Estate Office, I was a Real Estate Broker, and he was buying a building at that time and we got to talking, he and I. He told me that when Muhammad went into the cave, (Muhammad would regularly go into caves to meditate, trying to become closer to God) and received his revelation from the angel Gabriel who took him on a journey and showed him many things, which was where the Koran was born. The Rabbai told me that the name Muhammad received for God was Ali not Allah, and that it was Ali who appeared to Muhammad and gave him the instructions to write the Koran. Apparently Ali was a feminine energy, and the way how the Rabbai explained it to me she was a water deity, it was rejected and the name altered to Allah, more masculine, (ah suh de Rabbai tell mi anuh mi mek it up).

Upon hearing this from the Rabbai, I realized a common theme among Christianity and Islam, the ousting and degradation of women, the putting down of the feminine energy, I became a little miffed at that, after all God made me and my mother and sisters also, and didn’t the Bible say that God made man in his own image?, or was I to take “Man” literally? It did not sit well with me, but I still hung on to Jesus, even though the same Rabbai told me that as a Jewish boy, Jesus in those times would have been married from the age of thirteen years old, he would have had a wife, again I began to think, “was my well cute up Jesus wid him pretty hair and ocean blue eyes a virgin? he surely wasn’t one ah “dem guys”, no way, of that I was sure, suh in my mind I am listening out for what this Rabbai was about to say about mi Jesus, caws him was certainly going to get a beat down if him try nutten wid Jesus and his 12 disciples and funny guy business.

The Rabbai said that Jesus existed, but his story was a lie to control the mass. In my mind I thought ‘Jesus married???, abomination!! but ah betta married odda dan what broadway wanted to portray him as, the crooked hand gully guys  community, and the bible did not tell me so. This I said to the Rabbai, (not gully guys, but de married ting) and he smiled and told me that shakespeare did a remarkable job at writing the New testament, at least some of it and then he told me,  In the King James Version, if you count down 46 words from the top (not counting the title) you read the word “shake,” then, if you omit the word “selah” and count 46 words from the bottom you find the word “spear.” Voilà! Shakespeare. I did and found it. Wow, I thought, but I had to hold Jesus dare to me, he was too nice and good, there was no way I could walk away from him, absolutely no way. I struggled and struggled. Then I met Buddha and heard his story, and by golly gee, I saw in him the same as I saw in christ!

http://www.biography.com/people/buddha-9230587#synopsis

I then began reading more and found Asaur, Auset and Heru, all Africans, the Story coming out of Egypt and also older then Christ and these were the trinity as described in the bible, except wrong names and not black. Then I found Mirtha;

http://www.knowbiblefactsfromfiction.com/did-christianity-copy-mirtha-as-a-religion.html,

then Krishna, and Apollonious of Tyana whose life mimicked that of Christ and his miracles. I read the book 16 crucified savior by Kersey Graves, and then I began to go to Harlem and speak to the sellers of books there on the side walk, these men who sat there in Harlem selling books became my friends, and through them I got even more books and I learned about Egypt (Kemet), Ethiopia (Cush) and Sudan (Nubia) the first three cataracts. I found a book called the The Golden Bough, by James Frazer and Conversation with Ogotemmeli about the Dogon tribe of Mali. I began to wake up, not only to religion and its falsity, but to my blackness and who I was, who my people were and how important we were, I found a book called we the Black Jews by Dr Ben Jochanan and christianity before Christ, by John. G. Jackson , What???. Still I held on to Jesus frock tail, it was hard to let him go, so very hard. One of my harlem friends told me one day as I sat on the sidewalk and spoke with them, they called me their conscious sister and told me that Jesus was not white, the picture of Jesus was of Michael Angelo’s cousin and his family, and then he pointed out to me the description of Jesus in the bible as a black man in Revelation 1: 14-15. He went on to explain the conspiracy read this:

http://www.finalcall.com/artman/publish/Perspectives_1/article_8847.shtml

I once told an African in Africa that Jesus was not a white man, I even showed her the bible description, and the woman began to cuss in Yoruba, abomination she shouted!!

Yet still if a white person was presented with a black image for them to worship, they certainly would not, nor would they accept the idea, Insolence!! But this argument is not about Black and white. It is about manipulation of the mind, and how people are so easily influenced with already prepared information. King James did not Lie, for on his book he made sure to absolve himself of any wrong doing, much like Pontius Pilot, when he washed his hands of Jesus death, on his book of lies, tales and Metaphors he made sure to put King James Version, emphasis on version.

Definition of version; an account or description from a particular point of view especially as contrasted with another account or  a form or variant of a type or original

King James made sure to declare this. Ah him sey Coward man keep sound bon.

 

It embarasses me to see my people still trapped, and as our Nunu has written her piece below, I still see her struggles to accept all this which is new to her, yet I commend her for sticking it out and trying, Nunu is here with us faithfully everyday, she never missing yet, never. Hidden within her words are the fear of upsetting family and the what if this really is not so and “if I continue to explore outside of christianity will God or Jesus be upset with me, and this is quite normal Nunu quite normal to wonder and worry.
Yet, I say, if you have found your way onto the site, then you were guided here, something wants you to wake up, something wants you to learn. It may seem as if I am against Christianity and all religions, and I would not agree on that score entirely. What upsets me is that people have been falsely misled and my friend Shawny Rob said to me last week, that people “just want to believe”, it is easier for them to just accept what they came into and that is it. I say, no matter your education or academic achievements, if you are still trapped in dogmas and doctrine, still living your life by what the Pastor or Imam says, then you are an educated fool, one with whom I would not even debate with. I do not mean to be harsh, because I am a loving person, but we have to look beyond what we believe is the norm, perhaps I should not have said that, I am rethinking now my speech, because no matter the education, it is the awakening through spirit that counts, after all God is a spirit, nuh suh? Sophia Stewart tried when she wrote the Matrix (the first one), even though I read somewhere that she was christian minded, how ironic. Then it must have been a message she received, from her higher self which made her write the story, and that we had to know, God is all powerful, of that I am sure.

THe book club must continue, and we all need to participate. Please help me make the school possible, pray for it and come with ideas on how we can plan events to make money to erect a property which will benefit us all. The other people dem support each other, meaning, if there is an idea or something which they believe in they put their heads together to make it happen, let us all put our heads together, come up with ideas and so we can get the school put forward, it must happen, YWand TY, you are certainly a professors there. Cami, mi ah peep pon yuh, lol.

Please remember to mention Nunu and Yazzy, 19 and Mth (de list grow everyday) in your prayers, Please, they need our strength, oh and AMH, she is such a sweet lady and she too needs our upliftment, I thank you!

And Now I present our Nunu!

 

Becoming Spiritually awake

When I was asked by Obara to write about my views on becoming spiritually awake or on becoming spiritually awake, I had some reservations about doing so because I am not one to share my true feelings about what I believe for fear of offending/insulting anyone’s sensibilities. I must also admit that I am daunted by the fact that the ES family are erudite and make the difficult seem so effortless and engaging. So please bare with me I am a nervous nelly writer. Spiritually for me was religion. It started with growing up in the church and following the precepts taught to me by my elders. I was the dutiful child who did as she was told and followed all the rules. I grew up Baptist and while I did not attend church and bible study every Sunday andWednesday respectively, the dogmas that our church and family held dear was a part of my everyday upbringing. First Sunday was extra special, that was when I got to wear my prettiest church dress( it did have bout 4 sista wut’ a frills), nice “paintent”church shoes and fancy socks with the lace trims and rosettes. My collection plate offering safe and sound in mi likkle purse ( Di same outfit wi sistren Cami fight fi nuh wear, lol, a it mi use to brandish an feel well nice tuh) I would sit through the sermon ingesting the pastors words and then the wafer and grape juice representing the flesh and blood of Christ, and  I would patiently wait for my grandma to come down from the choir box to give me ‘cheese chix’ and ice mint. After church I’d go to my grandma’s house for dinner where the adults would comment about how good the sermon was, etc. Ever so often we’d have fasting and prayers and weekly devotions. Baptism preparation classes, church functions, meetings etc. which I would dutifully attend. I was raised to believe in heaven and hell, God, Jesus and the Holy Spirit, Michael and Gabriel, “the Angels”and on the other end would be God’s arch nemesis the Devil and his demons and they have the task of snatching human souls from God’s warm embrace by any means necessary. There was wrong and right and nothing else in between.The name and the blood of Jesus is the remedy for all things. The Bible holds all that is sacred and dear and to think or say otherwise would be blasphemous and a sacrilege. If it wasn’t from the

good book it shouldn’t be trusted, and to call on or thank anything besided the name of God or Jesus would incur His wrath because He’s a jealous God and woe be unto you if God turns His back on you!!!! Then there is always the threat of seductive evil spirits coming in guise as an angel of light to seek control of human life and lead you straight to hell. Once the rules were followed there was no need to worry and yes there would be slips along the way but the grace of God and the blood of Jesus would be enough to redeem you from sin, alleviate your sufferings in life and secure your place in the afterlife. This was my bubble and I had settled comfortably into these beliefs. Stay in that ‘space’ and every other aspect of life would fall into place, yes that sounds naive but that’s what I got from it all.
Then life just happened along and everything went topsy turvy. This made me start to question certain things and I would ask those supposedly in ‘the know’ questions and these questions would be met by God is testing…God’s ways are mysterious…Don’t question God… maybe your faith isn’t strong enough…and simply I don’t know. All the ‘weird’ things happening to me was my ‘imagination’ and or ‘demonic’. I started to seek outside information, and I’d speak to people that were not of ‘the faith’ Of course I never lost faith in God’s existence but the things I knew  just didn’t paint a complete enough picture and there were too many questions left unanswered. I would like to think of myself as an open minded person and curiosity led me to this ES blog. The things that I am learning coupled with the fams open and easygoing nature keeps me coming back. Now I am faced with my perception of what is true and the truths that I am learning on this blog both spiritual and historical. While I can look at it from a logical standpoint with, no problems, from an emotional one there is an uneasiness. There is an internal struggle, a back and forth, which is shocking to me. I believe at the center of it all is fear, I haven’t really fully faced my fears. Then comes the real  questioning and with those questions, deep convictions, I would not only have to add to my beliefs but restructure them altogether. This is not caused by force but by an awareness.So now I am not only standing on the outside of my bubble/ that preserved mental box but I am taking a step forward, tentative as it may seem it’s still a step. On Yw’s ‘Curious Look’ post, he wrote something that stuck with me, and that is, “Perspective+Empathy= Experience” and for me, this equates to, not being afraid to look at the possibilities, it is what being truly open-minded is about and at the forefront of that is the ability to immerse oneself into experience. It is relaxing that feel of guilt which stems from fear. It is that level of understanding that begs you to see the deeper things.There is that possibility that there may be many definitions. Our beliefs are in things that our senses cannot readily observe so can we really give a definitive answer where this is concerned. The question might be asked, But isn’t that detrimental to one’s soul?It truly is a matter of perspective.

Agbọ́n tí géńdé rí tó ńsá, ni aláàmù ńṣà jẹ lẹ́ẹ̀gbẹ̀ ògiri /
The same wasps that humans run from, are snapped up and eaten by lizards…….Yoruba Proverb

[One man’s meat is another’s poison; what’s threatening to one, may well be an adventure to another.]

 

All religions are valid as long as it teaches peace and love…..Obara Meji!

 

There are no disappointments in life, only lessons learned…..Obara Meji

 

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C . BURNEY
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How this person feels is exactly how I feel and is currently going thru right now. Thank you for that.

MTH
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Morning AMH. Thanks for the prayers. I needed it.

AMH
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Good Morning wonderful people!

Darling Nunu, the girls and I are praying for you. Bredda says you worry too much, I say I do too and although its easier said that done, worrying really doesn’t get us anywhere does it? We fret and the fret frets and those frets fret too. You are wonderful and beautiful and smart and strong, no one and nothing can extinguish your light.

I have not slept past 4 am in about two weeks. While it is starting to get to me a little physically, I am so grateful for the quiet time to reflect on my dreams and pray. Every member of this family is there with me each morning (even the peepers who haven’t come forward yet) and I thank you all for being present.

MTH
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Teach morning. All ES fambily morning. Nunu, I enjoyed this. Lovely piece.

Yazzy
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Hey allllll my sweeties. Miss unuh very much. Thanks for the love and support. I’m praying for each and every soul here. All will be well with us! Obara big up mi hottaz.

Courtney
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Hey fam

Just got done reading, beautiful piece nunu.

NuNu
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Hey Toy! Evening fam just passing through hope y’all have a good evening/night

Toy
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afternoon everyone. Hope everyone is enjoying their sunday.

NuNu
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NuNu

It stir up mi emotions. Mi tiad mi gone sleep, good night Cami and anybody else awake.

Cami
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Night NuNu. Again, thanks for sharing your self with us today. Stay bless and embrace your innocence, for not many of us were able to retain that part of self. Night spiritual sis.

NuNu
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No sah! Mi deh yah deh bawl fi poor Patsy

Cami
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I’ll have to watch it from beginning.

Cami
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Couple gone a bed, gully princess cow a dropkick O, NuNu a watch movie, Kia…Toy…a do something, lol… me soon come back

NuNu
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Lol ES bulletin

Cami
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Yu show done?

NuNu
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Good night Ty & Yw

Cami
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Cami

Good Night Ty and Yw. Enjoy the rest of the weekend.

Yw
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Yes. I tink I gwen turn in to. Good Night mi family!!!

Ty
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Good night everyone…we had a long day and a buss…

Cami
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But Obara, when the Rabbai did a tell yu bout Islam mek him nu tell yu why mek the Ultra conservative/Hassidics have them women in the same subservient culture (?) as Islam?

NuNu
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Don’t they have to wear a wig to cover their hair too?

Cami
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Yes, NuNu (shaven for some).

Ty
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So true…dem a de rass strings …

Ty
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Yes he died…

Ty
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Here is a quote from George Carlin:

Religion has convinced people that there’s an invisible man…living in the sky, who watches everything you do every minute of every day. And the invisible man has a list of ten specific things he doesn’t want you to do. And if you do any of these things, he will send you to a special place, of burning and fire and smoke and torture and anguish for you to live forever, and suffer and burn and scream until the end of time. But he loves you. He loves you and he needs money.

Although he was an atheist, he did have some valid points….

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George Carlin makes perfect sense lol
Ty yu ques pastor n be4 him say he nuh kno him give yu rigmaroll dat nuh mek sense loool now yu xtra confused

NuNu
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Lol! I’ve never heard it put like that before Ty

NuNu
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Oh my goodness! I’m watching 12 years a slave right now. This is surreal

Yw
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Realize sey is just yesterday that. Civil rights movement (CRM) was in the 1960’s. Laws passed then took a while to go into effect. But even if we use the 60’s as a starting point, people in their 40’s would have grown up in that era.

NuNu
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Yes that’s why Pastor Wright had the reaction he did

Ty
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Nunu thAt movie will show how religion was used to subjugate the slaves…

NuNu
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Yep just saw the bible reading part

kiabubblez
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Still havent watched it…

kiabubblez
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Ive the bible front to back and yu know i was ashamed to see i dont get it. Bet is nuff christian wid di same thoughts. Cah God kno it nah mek nuh sense. Nuff discrepancies

NuNu
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Yes Kia yuh are write about that but nuff people fraid to really question it

Cami
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question mek fi ask…when me ask fi direction and a person say just down the road me ask how far down the road…cause just down the road could be miles pon miles down the road…you a walk and can’t reach, but if you ask for precise location then you shall reach.

Ty
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Nunu and if you question a pastor about it them give you the shady rig ma roll…

Yw
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I read some of it first in my early teens and did not get it but in this reread I have no fear of blasphemy or punishment or offense or anything. I am just reading it as a book and that shift in perspective changes everything.

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Mi read it fi di mix up. No Serious… Jesus as jacket or born out of wedlock, Abraham a pimp out im wife (2 time), bredda a kill bredda, bredda ah thief bredda blessing…Not a drama more dan in deh

Cami
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If me read any bible verse outside of Psalms I usually have to use geographic and world history data to make sense of the nonsense.

Yw
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Dem seh talk..If yu ask a question you are going to expect an answer. Then them rule out hearing voice as crazy. So, now you have to look for signs. When you take something as a sign they call that faith. However, it is only faith when it suits them. When it does not, it is blasphemy or heresy.

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Me have many “assings” to get cause I been asking long time…me pass blasphemy levels. Me a cry fi my little 50 cent piece and nah gi it to God cause me nu know how God did a go spend it when a inna de clouds “him” live. lolol

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Yw it probably better to read it now with a diff perspective. A diff mind frame…
Them say no ques God but im to talk to him bout everything…how that work?! idk rostah lol

Ty
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Kiang, Jesus on the telephone, tell him what you need…

NuNu
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Lol unoo si how Yw tek time a look Ty unda di quiet! Yw behave in di classroom!

Cami
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lol…dem deserving of each other- Brains & Humor. NuNu, I caught the movie 15 mins near the end.

Cami
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lol…my perception, Na Na Na Na Na! lolol

Yw
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Cami, mi nuh like how you ah seh Ty humorous yu know – cause ah mus’ me have di brains

Ty
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Hey Kiab, what comes to my mind is George Carlin…he is a wonderful comedian who questioned religion…he was definitely one of my teacher…Iba George Carlin…

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Good night all. Nunu thank u for sharing. I can relate to all yu wrote. Its not a easy road…song just come to me. Now that im awakening, I refuse to turn back pon the road tho

Yw
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Good Night Kia B! Sleep well!!

NuNu
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Yes Kia

Cami
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Night Kia. .

Yw
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They say everything is by God’s will but then say that the Devil responsible for bad things. I am confused by this…If EVERYTHING is by God’s will, then bad things can only happen by his will. That would leave no purpose for the “devil”

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I admonish people when they point things at Lucifer. According to the bible, he was God’s favorite, but because he wanted that one power God knew he had to keep him at a distance. No where will you find any proclamation that God hated Lucifer.

Instead he GAVE him a realm to preside over and his own like minded “groupies” to keep him company and do is bidding. So I don’t understand why HUMANS believe God dash whey Lucifer fi them, lol.

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Di whole story sticky. Wi cannot know good without bad… We have choice…To me everything in life is about choices. We get to decide what or who we want to be. Lion is lion, dog is dog; man/woman is . . .. ?

Ty
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The devil is a scapegoat …he is used as an excuse to do evil…

Ty
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I take comfort in knowing that God is real and loving…I have help on this journey from people, spirits, guides, ancestors, Orishas, nature etc…

I know there is no devil…

I know death is not final… And my favorite , there is no hell…no fiery place with an imp with a pitch fork ready fi jook me…

Cami
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De devil and the imp dem is we fellow mankind.

NuNu
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Yes I do realize that it is about security and being in that comfort zone. Ty’s book that we discussed, said in.part that “something must come along to disturb the present stability…” and when you are stuck in that mechanical, rote way of thinking, something is needed to jolt us out of that ‘reverie’ and that ‘something’for me were those ‘strange’ experiences

Ty
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Yes Nunu and the realization of the crap that was fed was done to manipulate you is even harder to swallow…

NuNu
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Yes Ty mi deh pree man mi seh pree.

NuNu
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Sorry folks was having technical difficulties. Thank you all for not being judgmental, cause sometimes I feel like I’m not progressing as quit as I should and it is frustrating

Yw
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One day mi si one likkle baby a creep. Den im git up and start walk. For a while all was good but den im try fi run…You know im body could not keep up wid im head an im drop….Im cry likkle, den guess wha im do? Git up again…It takes time and sometimes you are going to stumble. But what is important is that you get up and gwan again

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Very observant, bro. Notice when de likkle baby drop, he/she start to cry and look at you to see what went wrong? lol Then they go at it again with CAUTION until they adapt and off and running.

Ty
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Nunu all in you own time…never rush it…it comes at its own pace…I am still learning…

The peace and feeling of love I get when I meditate, honor my ancestors and stand by my altar is all worth it… Just today I redid my altar…I love my altar…

Ty
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Obara the Shakespeare ting have me a ways… I feel like a rass fool… Dem a real scammer…

Yw
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Den Ty, since is jus you an me on tonight….you have a man?

Yw
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OHHHH, TEACH….MI NEVA SI YUH, SARRY

Ty
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If it is a trinity, God, the father, Jesus the son, and the Holy Spirit…den how spirits bad?

Yw
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Furthermore, Holy Trinity is Mother, Father, and Child. Ah nuh nuh 3 man ting

Cami
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So me say to…especially the holy ghost one.

Ty
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Grung…

Ty
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This blog is such a therapeutic place…fi me and us all… I am also continually learning…you want see me a research one bag a name up top…the school must come…

Ty
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Hey Nunu…

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Good night Ty, Yw and Teach gonna read the comments and catch up

Yw
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Nuns, hail up!!

Ty
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Nothing against other religions but Islam which seems much more peaceful than portrayed on TV and news get me cross…this is because as soon as a girl see her first period she haffi wear a hijab…I was like hell no…that experience by itself is difficult then fi add dis rass hot head gear if mek everybody know…sick…sexist…

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Equality mi seh. Yin-Yang…Mi doan like oppression (or ideas of sueriority) of any kind

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“There is an internal struggle, a back and forth, which is shocking to me”. Nuns, this part stood out to me because familiarity gives us security. When we find ourselves overwhelmed, unsure, or uneasy we seek comfort or security in what we already know. I believe that that is human nature: past experiences lead to expectations in outcome. Your religious background (indoctrination from youth) is what you KNOW, so you will naturally fall back on that when you feel unsure or unsteady.

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Nunu, I loved it…I felt every emotion… Most of us can relate to you and your awakening…Christianity’s Fear, damnation mixed with an all knowing God and a tricky devil, scared the hell out of me …I could not understand it… I still do not…I still love my psalms and will belt out a glory be, Hail Mary, and our father at will…

What I miss about church is the songs… My church story stop desso…it has been a long and soul searching journey…

I am confident Nunu that you will find your truth, your way, and in your own time…

We love you here Nunu and know that your heart is placed first in all you do…

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Sorry again. Mi figat mi manners: Good night Teacher, fellow students, and observers – a.k.a. Mi ES fambo!!!

Yw
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Sorry all for not posting earlier, we were a bit tied up until now. NuNu nuff respect. I enjoyed your writing very much and love the sharing and caring on ES. Again, thank you, Obara Meji, for setting up this forum for us to explore and expand our thoughts.

Ty
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Night everyone, late but here, I am going to read and join in…

Obara Meji
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Hey Ty

Obara Meji
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Yw I loved it

Ty
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Hey obara…

Toy
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Hi Everyone! Nunu,I love the fact that you were so open,pure, and humble with your thoughts, and slowly but surely things will come full circle for you.

Cami
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Toy, hola! NuNu a werk it, yes.

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Thanks Toy it is indeed a journey

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Cami Cam, Ty and Yw I read each of yall posts and it was outstanding. I was so late to the interactive discussion and mi jus did feel a way star. Mi want when mi get likkkle time to miself. ..fi guh back guh read again and put eeeeen mi input the proper way as the thought that was places in all unuh post dem was deep and on some next level ish and I wanna go deep with my thoughts and responses as well.

Thanks fi unuh cooperation and patience with di I. Love unuh

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Yazzy! where were you? Coasting up and down 95, with the breeze whipping through yu hair? lol

See NuNu a lif her voice and a tek charge a har perceptions. Again, Big Up NuNu.

Around 9 pm me rally back.

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lol, me bredda! me 41 mins. late. Yazzy! dis is a “No judgement Zone”…yes a de so me go gym to! lollollll

Yw
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Is pass 9 now yu nuh, Sis but mi wi gi yu likkle more time. Nuh post mi doh…

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Lmaoooo Cami! Yuh a Crack mi up bout coasting up and down 95… a how yuh know seh a one a mi fav highway dat fi guh “coasting” a.k.a road raging aka releasing my frustration… (which is not always the typical “frustration”…lololol)

Don’t judge me! ‘Cami plz pardon mi mannaz pan yuh post yesterday… mi apology is below and I intend on rereading and throwing in mi two cents as soon as mi sekkle dung. Wuk a kill mi…a das why unuh cyah see mi. I’m sorry.

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Hey Yazzy!

Obara Meji
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Mi deh yah Yazzy

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Happy weekend Lady O. How art you? Lol

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Blessings my sweet Obara Meji. Thanks so much for the continued support and love. I always appreciate your rawness. It’s very refreshing! You always manage to nail it with a few dashes of humor! Well seasoned mi family. I certainly can not wait for your school plans to be underway…. it’s gonna be absolutely amazing! I will be racking my brain on creative ways we can accomplish our goals.

Very impressive piece Nunu Boo! I can understand the state of turmoil your mind is in while grasping all that is being taught and shared here. I love your honesty and vulnerability. I love it.

Fear – you can face it or you can choose to be crippled by it. I think it’s OK to be fearful if you’re fears awaken your inquisitive nature which should then urge you to ask many questions and seek many answers. I’m happy you were led here where you can freely ask… be expressive and open and not feel judged. We are all here at out own pace and no one is better than the other. We are our brothers keeper.

Bless you Nunu Boo. May you continue to find the truth to the questions you ask and the answers you seek.

Ps, I hope you’re doing much better and getting over your rough patch. I’m praying you thru it my fam!

Blessings alllll my sweeties here…

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Hey Yazzy! Mi hope yuh good tuh mi sistren I’ve been praying for you. Hope wi can link up again

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Lol Yazzy yuh tan deh!!! When mi neva si yuh last night mi deh seh inna the back a mi min’ “Lawd mek sure Yazz arite” suh deh worry fi mi an mi deh worry fi yuh,lol. No man that’s why mi rally back here suh! Mi draw from unoo supportive energy, tings go work out man,

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Nunu booooooooo!!!!! Mi nuh know why mi de fret fi yuh suh??? Hot gyal yuh beta mek sure yuh good eeenuh! Mi wi buss shot in ya.. (Obara pardon mi t’reat) lololol

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Good Day, Obara Meji. An excellent Intro. to NuNu’s article. Why yu have fi mek me laugh fuss wid the ‘hot stick’ pon de dog? lol

BTW, I was told and read somewhere that Mohammad was illiterate and it was his wife who dictated for him. We have use, but not for presentation.

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Good afternoon folks! If anyone drops in for the afternoon a soon come back my phone needs charging

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Good Afternoon NUNU! You did a magnificent piece! It was pure and it stirs, what I will safely assume, the same thoughts as many whom are seeking clarification to unanswered questions posed by the Christian religion.

You are so on point with the statement of “…not by force but by awareness”…absolutely! The religion that we know as Christianity was thrust upon Africans and people of Ireland and other regions and it is through awareness that we the descendants of these lands are now seeking answers, and unknowingly being lead by the ancestors to seek out our TRUTH.

No watch nu face NuNu…gwan seek and “ye shall find”. ASE.

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