Good day one and all. I hope when you all read this post today it will find you in the best of health, (lol, remember how we write letter in Jamaica, I suppose it is English teaching). Lately I have been going through something, but the problem is I am not sure exactly what that something is. In the beginning of the year I wrote a post titled Searching, read here. I was honest as I usually am in the post, on how I was feeling in that moment. Since the entrance of 2015 I see signs of a great shift happening in my life, I have been observing them trying to figure out what to make of them, but although I have sort of guessed the answer to some, the rest is still a puzzle to me. So as usual, I pray and wait to see what is the plan of my head and of my Osun and Ifa for me. Obara Meji is an Odu which when it comes down for an initiate it tells them that Tradition (the practice) or spirituality is their path. In the verses of Obara Meji it says that the person with this sign cannot run away from it, this is their work. I have accepted it even though in the beginning of becoming who I am now I went through hell. In those days, I was afraid of all that I was going through, in terms of my spiritual initiations (being taught by my non-physicals beings), which was very harsh on me physically and mentally.
Having survived all of that and then some, finding my way to Africa and becoming initiated, studying about tradition and climbing the spiritual ladder of knowledge, I am still on the look out for the next chapter, as I know that there are many more to come. I realized that the hardest part have passed, at least I hope so, and I know that there is a mission I have to fulfill. The blog, at first or should I say in the second round ( I had stopped blogging for a year and was urged to come back by people who missed my posts) gave me the feeling of doing a part of my work. Here I met lovely people who I somehow bonded with and loved, genuinely. I considered them family, and I looked forward to interact with them daily. I am easy to love people, it is just my nature, yet if any of you ever saw me, there is a look of strength which sits upon my face (though pleasant to look at) which will perhaps make people wonder about my mood. This happens even if I am smiling, my aura or auric field, though truly lovable, may at times project me formidable. An African man is master of his own domain, Lord and King (to be for real, lol) and all other titles relating to him,. One of them who I knew once told me that I was controlling. He said it in anger, being vexed with me at the time ( tried to best me but could not) , a I was hurt because I do not believe that I am controlling. He instead was jealous of me, my personality and my spirituality, I had no idea, of his bad ways toward me, yet he would say things like, “people see me ( him) as driver (he was) and you (me) as Madame”. I did not see myself as controlling, just confident and sure of who I am. I never thought to out shine anyone, yet they seem to think that I do.
I know who I am and why I am here on earth. I just know how to build the house better than the contractor. If I see someone doing something and it is being done the incorrect way I will voice out and correct them, is that a bad thing?. He is used to women (African women you know I speak the truth, Bfroy come talk up!) doing as he say and not having an opinion. Well I have been through too much in life and on my own, to begin at this stage in life being a puppet for anyone, so I have to say something. He could understand this and so we argue at times about that part of my character which I will not give up. I know I am straying away from the post, but I always let my head lead me and I feel like writing about some of my business today as I often do anyway, and there is a point I want to make also from all that I am telling you, I have no skeletons in my closet.
Perhaps this shift will be the one where I finally will get to do all that I am here to do. Perhaps this shift will give me all the tools I need to begin my teaching, or my school, in the real way that I want to do it. Remember I want a school, and I do not know how to beg. I do not know how to ask for contributions. I was born a Queen (I am not showing off, but this is my truth, figure out your own, do not criticize me for owning who I am) and as such I am dignified in my whole being, yet I know that there is something great coming, and like a kid under the Christmas the night before Christmas, shaking all the presents, here I am wanting to know what is it? Something is shifting and I believe it is for good. During my stay here in Nigeria, I have realized that Some people are not assured within their spirit, not confident in their abilities, perhaps even not fit for to even be around me. He was a bad minded driver.
My mind is beginning to change from some people, ah probably juju, naw, I think it’s them. Nowadays most people turn me off, the unenlightened, truth is I do not want to love anyone, as in man/husband, in relationships I believe love, real love makes you weak, and that is not something I want, oh the thought of being weak for someone!
A great shift had occurred! Now, I conclude things in my mind instead of shouting them out like a raging bull. Wisdom. I realize that a shift had happened, a spiritual shift, and I was in the next phase of my life, where those words were no longer necessary for me to express myself or for me to even get to that point of upset. I had no idea that this new Obara resided in me, I thought the old one who could cuss like a sailor still lived, ( I like her, I can be very poetic with mi cussing),but we have to grow and improve, elevate and shifts has to occur. Often times they are so subtle that we do not realize when we have changed. There is a major shift happening to the earth and it is affecting everyone, It is what even created the devastating earthquake in Nepal and many things that are happening now in the news and all over is due to this earths pull. It will take a hundred and fifty more earth years to complete,but during that time we will see and experience many signs and wonders.
The Christians will say it is the coming of the Lord, lol. People, observe the changes good or bad happening to your lives, expect good things, do not look out for the negative, be in positive mode all the times, meaning think positively. Like me, look out for signs of change in your personality and note them. As for me the time has come to make a decision. Try not to go back or repeat what has been driven away from you that was bad or negative. Understand that if you have an argument with your significant other, it can be used to bring you closer or to make a decision that will greatly benefit you. It does not always have to be a bad thing, when the storm clears and you can reason then you will find that out of the bad came something good. remember to journal your experiences, and share them if you can.
I LOVE YOU ALL OBARA MEJI
Èyàn tó ńbínú orí, irú wọn kìí rí fìlà de. / Those who are deriding the head seldom find the right size of cap to fit it…….Yoruba Proverb [People find it inconvenient to deal with what they deride] Everything comes when it must, and everything happens for a reason, do not hurry your life, what is destined for you, cannot escape you, just keep the faith, be patient and be prayerful, filled with compassion, kindness and respect for all, let these qualities be among your name, God will fill in the rest…..Obara Meji! All religions are valid as long as it teaches peace and love….Obara Meji There are no disappointments in life, only lessons learned!….Obara Meji