Good day one and all. I hope when you all read this post today it will find you in the best of health, (lol, remember how we write letter in Jamaica, I suppose it is English teaching). Lately I have been going through something, but the problem is I am sure exactly what that something is.
In the beginning of the year I wrote a post titled Searching, read here. I was honest as I usually am in the post, on how I was feeling in that moment. Since the entrance of 2015 I see signs of a great shift happening in my life, I have been observing them trying to figure out what to make of them, but although I have sort of guessed the answer to some, the rest is still a puzzle to me. So as usual, I pray and wait to see what is the plan of my head and of my Osun and Ifa for me.
Obara Meji is an Odu which when it comes down for an initiate it tells them that Tradition (the practice) or spirituality is their path. In the verses of Obara Meji it says that the person with this sign cannot run away from it, this is their work.
I have accepted it even though in the beginning of becoming who I am now I went through hell. In those days, I was afraid of all that I was going through, in terms of my spiritual initiations (being taught by my non-physicals beings), which was very harsh on me physically and mentally. Having survived all of that and then some, finding my way to Africa and becoming initiated, studying about tradition and climbing the spiritual ladder of knowledge, I am still on the look out for the next chapter, as I know that there are many more to come.
I realized that the hardest part have passed, at least I hope so, and I know that there is a mission I have to fulfill. The blog, at first or should I say in the second round ( I had stopped blogging for a year and was urged to come back by people who missed my posts) gave me the feeling of doing a part of my work. Here I met lovely people who I somehow bonded with and loved, genuinely. I considered them family, and I looked forward to interact with them daily.
I am easy to love people, it is just my nature, yet if any of you ever saw me, there is a look of strength which sits upon my face (though pleasant to look at) which will perhaps make people wonder about my mood. This happens even if I am smiling, my aura or auric field, though truly lovable, may at times project me as formidable.
This carries over in my relationships with people in my personal life. My husband (never legally married, thank God, but here in Africa a man will refer to his woman as wife and she to him as husband) being an African, master of his own domain, Lord and King (to be for real, lol) and all other titles relating to him, once told me that I was controlling. He said it in anger, being vexed with me at the time, and I was hurt because I do not believe that I am controlling. He instead was jealous of me, my personality and my spirituality, I had no idea, yet he would say things like, “people see me ( him) as driver and you (me) as Madame”. I did not see myself as controlling, just confident and sure of who I am. I never thought to out shine anyone, I know who I am and why I am here on earth.
I just know how to build the house better than the contractor. If I see someone doing something and it is being done the incorrect way I will voice out and correct them, is that a bad thing?. He (the husband) is used to women (African women you know I speak the truth, Bfroy come talk up!) doing as he say and not having an opinion. Well I have been through too much in life and on my own, to begin at this stage in life being a puppet for anyone, so I have to say something. He cannot understand this and so we argue at times about that part of my character which I will not give up.
I know I am straying away from the post, but I always let my head lead me and I feel like writing about some of my business today as I often do anyway, and there is a point I want to make also from all that I am telling you, I have no skeletons in my closet. My husband says we are like two lions, and the two lions will want to rule the same jungle, but one have to step back in order for all to be well. I will update you all when he retreats.
Perhaps this shift will be the one where I finally will get to do all that I am here to do. Perhaps this shift will give me all the tools I need to begin my teaching, or my school, in the real way that I want to do it. Remember I want a school, and I do not know how to beg. I do not know how to ask for contributions. I was born a Queen (I am not showing off,but this is my truth, figure out your own, do not criticize me for owning who I am) and as such I am dignified in my whole being, yet I know that there is something great coming, and like a kid under the Christmas the night before Christmas, shaking all the presents, here I am wanting to know what is it? Something is shifting and I believe it is for good.
During my stay here in Nigeria, I have realized that my husband is not assured within his spirit, not confident in his abilities, perhaps even not fit for me. My mind is beginning to change from him, ah probably juju, naw, I think it’s him.
The truth is I do not want to love anyone, as in man/husband, in relationships I believe love, real love makes you weak, and that is not something I want, oh the thought of being weak for someone! I wondered at times if what I feel is really love or as we say in Jamaica “Spirit tek”. The wicked baby father, I know now I never loved, neither did I love Mr. High grade (I know, I know ten stories in one, but is so my head goes at times oonuh low mi, lol), when I met this current husband (mi shame ei si fi ah pint out de mount ah man dem ) I felt it is was real love, and I basked in it for a while, until our first argument and he shouted like a roaring lion. I was in Africa when this happened and I wanted to tell him a very decent (guh S*%k yuh madda, ah who yuh ah bawl offa) but I held my temper, respected that he is a Babalawo and answered him in a meek an mild way. I am still struggling with my feelings for him, but to be honest, it is waning, I do not love him, and I think I am glad.
I was surprised at my self at the time he shouted and I stayed quiet, wondering if I had somehow drank mad puss piss that morning, but eventually I came to terms that life had changed and so did I. Gone were the days when I reeled off cuss words to make a point. “Really?” I thought to myself, “they were really gone?” A great shift had occurred! Now, I conclude things in my mind instead of shouting them out like a raging bull. Wisdom.
I did not want that part of me to go. The warrior part, the part that would send him back up into his mother’s womb with words that I would shout, being angry at the nerve of him shouting at me, but I realize that a shift had happened, a spiritual shift, and I was in the next phase of my life, where those words were no longer necessary for me to express myself or for me to even get to that point of upset.
I had no idea that this new Obara resided in me, I thought the old one who could cuss like a sailor still lived, ( I like her, I can be very poetic with mi cussing),but we have to grow and improve, elevate and shifts has to occur. Often times they are so subtle that we do not realize when we have changed.
There is a major shift happening to the earth and it is affecting everyone, It is what even created the devastating earthquake in Nepal and many things that are happening now in the news and all over is due to this earths pull. It will take a hundred and fifty more earth years to complete,but during that time we will see and experience many signs and wonders. The Christians will say it is the coming of the Lord, lol.
People, observe the changes good or bad happening to your lives, expect good things, do not look out for the negative, be in positive mode all the times, meaning think positively.
Like me, look out for signs of change in your personality and note them. As for me the time has come to make a decision. Try not to go back or repeat what has been driven away from you that was bad or negative. Understand that if you have an argument with your significant other, it can be used to bring you closer or to make a decision that will greatly benefit you. It does not always have to be a bad thing, when the storm clears and you can reason then you will find that out of the bad came something good. remember to journal your experiences, and share them if you can.
I LOVE YOU ALL
Èyàn tó ńbínú orí, irú wọn kìí rí fìlà de. /
Those who are deriding the head seldom find the right size of cap to fit it…….Yoruba Proverb
[People find it inconvenient to deal with what they deride]
Everything comes when it must, and everything happens for a reason, do not hurry your life, what is destined for you, cannot escape you, just keep the faith, be patient and be prayerful, filled with compassion, kindness and respect for all, let these qualities be among your name, God will fill in the rest…..Obara Meji!
All religions are valid as long as it teaches peace and love….Obara Meji
There are no disappointments in life, only lessons learned!….Obara Meji
Obara Meji is a spiritualist, Ifa-Orisa practitioner, and teacher of metaphysics. Since 2011 she has used her online platform to share her personal experiences to those seeking answers about spirituality. Her teachings will expand into short stories, novels, and public speaking to continue her mission of bringing enlightenment to the world.