Is it erroneous to think that everyone deserves a chance at happiness? Why aren’t all people born to be happy? I ask because my experiences cause me to wonder if this is the type of life I chose to have when given my moment. I had done this when I got my moment in which I would choose what I would come to this earth to do? Is the Universe even aware that I exist, well someone must be, because I would say I’m blessed. Someone somewhere is looking out for me. Why is it though that some things are allowed to happen? Why is it that bad things happen to good people? Why are our chances to be happy easily trifled with by all and sundry?
Why was Marie rose allowed to come into my life, why did I have to pass through her? Why is it that I can’t remember my past lives, would that help me to live a better life as far as karma is concerned? Those who forget history are doomed to repeat it; I made the same mistakes in different ways with the same outcome each time, why? Am I not learning, when we are told that experience teaches wisdom? Why is it the only thing that really feels is your heart? Why am I not ashamed to say that with all of their evil doings; I loved all three people dearly? At this point I must say, after going through this dark passage, I am hoping to come out into the light?
What did bacas one mean when he told me to try and stop time, what did he mean when he was telling his spirit that they couldn’t afford to lose? Why did he come into my life, as my first major violator/teacher? Why is it that I am able to forgive him so easily, after a period of time? Why is it that he was not hard to like, and we seemed to be friends? Why do people go through things they can’t explain? Why is it that people don’t seem to believe in the spiritual realm, contributing to some of their continuing problems? Bacas one was at heart a good person. He was just caught up in the opposite of me. He did teach me things that I needed to know. How many people have passed through things like this? Why does it seem as if the Universe just sits aside and let the things happen? At what point does God step in, is it when all is almost gone or you have a heart that’s broken and torn? Yes, God answers prayers, what exactly do you think would be a good calculation of God’s timing?
How can someone just come into your home, your heart and then just violate you, and you let them? This is beyond crazy. With bacas two it was different; this is someone I really thought I knew. I had only spoken to bacas one over the phone, and I hardly ever went to Marie house and never to shoot the breeze in that manner. So, this was hard for me, to have to deal with this on so large a scale. Soon after, I started to wonder, where do people do this type of stuff?
Why is there misery, why is there pain? Why do innocent people have to suffer for other people’s gain? Wonder why both men just seem like the same person, but different? Sometimes I would think about bacas two in my mind, and I would be calling him by bacas one name, and the spirit was always telling me that’s not a good sign. I would brush it off deliberately, maybe that wasn’t even me. This would all happen in my head. Why did bacas two enter my life, I mean I believe the spirit brings people into your life, it’s the same way it may take them out. The spirit is capable of a great many things. Why is it hard to conceive that the soul can and will definitely fight for its life? That’s what it feels like to me. The part that is unbelievable for me, is this Florence, who do you think you are? Then I’m saying to you, in order not to be disrespectful among other things to this so called Baron energy, what can I do to remove them? You can see enough to know I have separated these things from the altar whether I spoke to you or not, do you think I was going to keep them in my home? Really, how, this would be impossible!!!!!! I do not have time to argue semantics about a spirit this and a spirit that, you will get what you deserve, because you are the link in the chain that is already broken, yes. Why do some spiritual people want to take advantage of you in more ways than one? Bacas two, I would like you to know the girl obeah man says you light a candle for her and one for me. The man says that you are to put out the candle. Why is it that I know I wouldn’t have been shown the light if It wasn’t for prayer, yet still have to wonder how this came to be?
Obara Meji is a spiritualist, Ifa-Orisa practitioner, and teacher of metaphysics. Since 2011 she has used her online platform to share her personal experiences to those seeking answers about spirituality. Her teachings will expand into short stories, novels, and public speaking to continue her mission of bringing enlightenment to the world.