January 12, 2015 Obara Meji 47Comment

I greet you in the name of Orunmila/Ifa the wise man of all the ages Aboru Aboye! This morning I woke up very early in deep thought. I went to my bed last night with a happy clear mind, yet when I awoke I found myself thinking of many things. As I laid on my bed, my hands and fingers cupping my cheek, my thoughts were all over the place. Eventually they settled down to something which has plagued me all my life.

Which is, what next? What am I to do in this the next phase of my life. This is a new year 2015, and in my minds eyes I can see a great and clear year for me, but what exactly will I accomplish, this year? I am a spiritualist/traditionalist not by choice but bounded to this life by my spiritual contract which was made before I entered my mothers womb and made the rough journey to earth. I can tell you all and you have read the posts that I have written about my spiritual initiations, that my awakening was rough, but I would do it again because of all that I learned during that time and all that I know now because of it!

My mind, stop roaming for a bit and something in it spoke to me and said you have to make a plan. A plan? I thought, I am not good at making plans, I never have been. I am a very spontaneous person, always have been. I have no idea of how to plan anything, on top of it I like being spontaneous, it is my nature as an Aries woman, it makes me fun and adventurous according to all I know, so when this “voice” suggested that I plan out my year, I gave a careless shrug, knowing that the route suggested was not my way at all, or was it?.

While I grew up in Jamaica, I always heard people say “Time is the master”. Back then I had no idea what they meant by this, but I have come to realize that everything happens according to time. Everything has its season, and we cannot rush our lives, if we try we will not succeed in our endeavors. I pondered all of this and sighed to myself. This year makes me one year older, (mi still can jump hop scotch and hoola hoop and odda tings ei nuh), and other than having my wonderful children, my initiations and this wonderfully entertaining blog, I do not feel as If I  have accomplished anything in this life worthy to talk about as yet, bigger things are yet to come.

I remember once when I visited Jamaica and had given a certain well known person there a reading and the reading cautioned him about a family member who would die (they did). He had asked me if it could be diverted and I told him yes, he had me cancel my flight and begged me to stay in Jamaica and help him remove the problem, he promised that he would soon get in contact with me. I foolishly stayed, and he kept calling with “mi soon come” everyday. It was after a week that I went to sleep and woke up crying around 3 am in morning, because someone had come to me in my sleep and told me, that I must leave Jamaica, they told me that the man was not coming and I had a lot of things to do here on earth and time was going fast, they scolded me, they said “Leave!….. I left…… I have never forgotten that message.

It was years after that I met my Spiritual mother the woman who initiated me into Osun and who eventually became my enemy, to this day I have no idea why. I remember after she had done some wicked Juju against me things got really bad for me, I struggled to survive financially because of what this wicked woman did, yet when people would say to me Obara you have skills and qualifications, why don’t you get a job with government or otherwise (I worked for myself), I would respond that I could not because I will have to travel all over the world soon, so therefore I could not work for anyone. I should have felt silly saying this, being that I had not a dime to my name or the where to get it. Yet somewhere inside me I knew that what I was passing through by way of wicked Juju/Obeah this woman had thrown to me, I would be released from it and my work would begin. What work? I did not know,but my spirit knew, my head knew and I trusted it.

Ifa knows my purpose and it is written in my Odu, yet we know not the way or the time that what is to come, will. In my Odu’s there are taboos, which I must adhere to. Taboos in Ifa are things an initiate must not do in order for any encumbrances to be in their life path. If an initiate stick to the rules of their taboos, they will not see problems in their life, or if problems come some how, they will never see devastation, they will have the solution. While here on my path, my journey I am still pensive on where life will lead me to. I want my life to be about everything spiritual. I want to be involved in removing the negative stigma the world at large have of Obeah, spiritual and traditional practices. I want to raise the consciousness of people and let them see themselves as masters of their destinies, and relieve them of the slumber which most are in.

I want to assist all whom I come in contact, through whatever medium to view themselves as strong, brave and powerful in their physical bodies and their spiritual minds. I want to be a part of rising Africa and African spirituality again so that the world will see us as human beings and not barbarians. When I say Africans, I mean people of African descent as well as the ones in the motherland, (and anyone who wants to wake up to their truth). Although most of those (Africans at home) are the ones who have willingly turned away from their birthright, opting to serve and observe the religions and teachings of foreigners.

I pray that in my life time, I will be sought out by the mighty Orishas and be used for this purpose and even more greater ones. Am I ambitious?, yes I am,…. can this be done? I believe so, as long as my head is in agreement, and I believe it is, how else would I be so passionate about all this.

The pen is mightier than the sword, goes and old saying and this is true. Through writing, books, poems, literature, any type of meaningful correspondence. I believe that the written word have the greater influence than anything else, and it is through the relentless exposition of our tradition that will eventually and by God’s will, open the eyes of some who needs to be awake, awakened to the truth, so that healing can begin .

I looked at the time on my cell phone beside my bed and it reflected 5:30 am. I heaved a heavy sigh and looked up to the ceiling of my darkened room, placed my two hands beneath my head and began a silent prayer, begging God and my Orishas and my head for the wherewithal to do all that I wished to do. I know that life goes in phases and stages and each year I wonder what now? Remembering the Spirit who had come to me in Jamaica and told me that I had lots of things to do here on earth, and I must leave Jamaica because the man would not come. That was ten years ago. I know often times things are before our faces but we are yet to see them, the future often time is before us in codes, but we cannot see it. This blog has been a comfort for me in way of reaching people through the spiritual word and messages, yet I believe that there is far more yet for me to go.

I know that we human beings should not hurry our lives, because everything happens for a reason and everything comes when it must, but I cannot help but wonder what next?

With all that I know and with all that I am, I Obara Meji am still searching for how to achieve all that I aim to be.

 

Bí ọrùn àgbáǹréré ti gùn tó, kò lè rí ọjọ́ ọ̀la. /
Despite how long the neck of a giraffe is, it can’t see the future……Yoruba Proverb!

[No one knows tomorrow]

 

All religion are valid as long as it teaches peace and love…. Obara Meji!

There are no disappointments in life, only lessons learned!….Obara Meji

 

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MTH
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Thanks so much Teach. Today, I apologise to my mother for hurting her feelings. She was shocked and didn’t know what to say. I am not the best person in the world, but I am trying to change.

MTH
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Good afternoon everyone. I glad I came back here and read the comments I didn’t see. Cami thank you for your comments.

I am comforted when I come here daily. I had an exam earlier today, thank God that is behind me. I don’t know this ties in, but I want to share it nonetheless.

I dropped a class and was refunded some money, (nothing much). I needed to have the cheque changed and I asked another Jamaican where is the bank. She directed me. I followed her directions, when I got there ‘nat a ban dey deh’. I went to the post office to send off my daughter’s birthday card. As I stepped outside looking perplexed as I managed my face to me. This elderly gentleman drove up, in the front seat was his wife. He asked me how he could help me as I seemed confused. I asked him to direct me to the bank. He said it was some way away and offered to take me. I felt safe accepting the lift.

As I entered the car, the wife was very welcoming. She told me she recently had an heart-attack, she has diabetics and has to give herself insulin 8 times a day and on top of that, she will be doing an eye surgery soon. She was in such high spirits, I asked her how she does it. She said, it cant go on forever and pretty soon she will run out of body parts that will need fixing. They were both fascinated with my accent and we chatted for sometime. When I got to the bank, I asked them if there was anything I could do for them. They said it was ok and wished me well and told me not to be so trusting of people even though it is by and large a safe country. When I got to the teller, she told me that there was a cost to en-cash the cheque there as I didn’t not have an account there. I thought the Jamaican didn’t even know this to tell me that I could cash it at the bank that I just opened an account.

The walk back was a killer. Temp. way below zero. Despite wearing my gloves, my fingers were freezing. I was about to complain and the very instant the thought came, I though about Bonnie, the lady I just met and her upbeat personally. I knew I had nothing to complain about. I met two wonderful people and secondly I learnt some things about the banking system here. I know more than other Jamaicans that have been here before me. I got to know another part of town.

Overall, I will look at the blessing in every situation that the obstacle.

toy7318
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Obara where do I donate to the school, because we need it

shana
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shana

Thank you for posting this. I am always wanting to know what’s next. I am still wonder what my life purpose is. As I wait the Ancestor slowly she me things. “Exercise Patients ” is my 2015 quote.

Cami
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Cami

A very good affirmation for 2015. Shana…nice having you on board.

shana
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shana

Thank you! 🙂

toy7318
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FLATLINE….LMAO Mister High grade walk and dip.

Cami
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Cami

lolol….O learn not to focus pan de walk nor smell of the great herb.

toy7318
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Cami, why am I picturing this man opening the door cussing. Obara, you need this school.

Cami
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Cami

O, I think we’ll know we reach the tip of the pyramid when we accept we life station or actually doing what it entails, an cannot reach there no other way but in due time…something like that can’t (lol)

toy7318
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Obara is always on time with her post.

MTH
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Later peeps.

Cami
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Cami

Cool, stay war. Think happy thoughts and don’t get home-sick.

Cami
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Cami

*WARM*

NuNu
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Bye M

MTH
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Nunu same thing I am thinking. I do not want to disappoint myself by not doing all that I am capable of doing.

toy7318
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Obara morning, Nunu,Cami,Mth,Yvonne,and Courtney Morning beautiful people.

NuNu
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Toy! Howdy honey bunch

MTH
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Hax parden. Obara, Courtney, Nunu, Cami and Yvonne howdy.

Cami is like Obara siddung inna mi brains an know mi thoughts. No bra, mi can tell how Obara always on point. Obara, thank you for everything.

NuNu
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Howdy M miss “hidden T” how yuh mumz. Just think that whatever is to come is for the better. A it mi deh yah deh try figure out what direction to take next. It can weigh heavily on yuh,cause one major decision can make or break yuh life

toy7318
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Exactly Nunu!

MTH
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Good afternoon everyone. Obara, I am half-way through reading but decided to write my comment. I marvel at how timely your posts are. Just last night heading into this morning this thought has been on my mind. Tomorrow is my birthday and I keep wondering what next? Have I achieved anything significantly (apart from my children?). I have a house and I put no value on that. In my mind, that house if for my elder daughter.

Last night, I cried so hard I think I was going to die. I missed my children so much and typically on a Sunday I cook an everlasting pot of food and we would eat and laugh and do whatever else that makes us happy. However, I said I am where I am for a reason, somewhere/sometime ago, I made an agreement to be where I am. Truthfully, I know had I not taken away myself from where I was, I would have been terribly unhappy and perhaps worst.

Mek a guh done read… My Thoughts are Hidden

Cami
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Cami

You far exceed many…so yah do good. Me nah no children nor am I a home owner. You doing just fine, remember that according to Maslow’s Theory, Self-actualization is the last/tip of the pyramid, not even billionaires reach that level.

Any WHO! lolol…me can’t wait to read your part tomorrow, lolol. Story is GREAT!

Toy and all who don’t read the birthday story…gwan before tomorrow or before any other member birthday come up.

Cami
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Cami

lolol…you do fi yu share a selling to! lolol

NuNu
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M’s birthday is tomorrow an shi sell out Bubblez an Yazz to di alien huzzy vybzy lol….what’ll happen next. The plot thickens!

Cami
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Cami

Hey Obara, NuNu and Courtney.

Obara! me ago ask you to stay out of me head. Read my daily prayer at 1:30 something dis morning, on top of that I was going to come over here and rant about loving Ifa, but wishing somethings could be hasten (I know, I know…”time IS the master of all things”).

NuNu
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Sup Cami lynn! Sometimes it feels as if there isn’t enough time to figure out what needs to be done plus actually doing it. That is frustrating to me.

yvonnejj68
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I wake you every morning a wonder whet next whats as God got planned for me

Cami
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Cami

Hello Yvonne, MTH, Mama Toy, Hola!

NuNu
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Hey Yvonnejj68 how yuh duh?

NuNu
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Good morning, no lie same here Courtney. I was saying my prayers and wondering/asking that question. How do I go about things now,what should I do? That’s life trying to figure out the journey we need to take. Well Obara at least you have an idea about what it is you need to do, you’re well on your way.

Courtney
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Good Morning everyone

Love and light,

Just a few minutes ago I was doing the exact same thing. Deep in thought…

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