SEARCHING……….

I greet you in the name of Orunmila/Ifa the wise man of all the ages Aboru Aboye! This morning I woke up very early in deep thought. I went to my bed last night with a happy clear mind, yet when I awoke I found myself thinking of many things. As I laid on my bed, my hands and fingers cupping my cheek, my thoughts were all over the place. Eventually they settled down to something which has plagued me all my life.

Which is, what next? What am I to do in this the next phase of my life. This is a new year 2015, and in my minds eyes I can see a great and clear year for me, but what exactly will I accomplish, this year? I am a spiritualist/traditionalist not by choice but bounded to this life by my spiritual contract which was made before I entered my mothers womb and made the rough journey to earth. I can tell you all and you have read the posts that I have written about my spiritual initiations, that my awakening was rough, but I would do it again because of all that I learned during that time and all that I know now because of it!

My mind, stop roaming for a bit and something in it spoke to me and said you have to make a plan. A plan? I thought, I am not good at making plans, I never have been. I am a very spontaneous person, always have been. I have no idea of how to plan anything, on top of it I like being spontaneous, it is my nature as an Aries woman, it makes me fun and adventurous according to all I know, so when this “voice” suggested that I plan out my year, I gave a careless shrug, knowing that the route suggested was not my way at all, or was it?.

While I grew up in Jamaica, I always heard people say “Time is the master”. Back then I had no idea what they meant by this, but I have come to realize that everything happens according to time. Everything has its season, and we cannot rush our lives, if we try we will not succeed in our endeavors. I pondered all of this and sighed to myself. This year makes me one year older, (mi still can jump hop scotch and hoola hoop and odda tings ei nuh), and other than having my wonderful children, my initiations and this wonderfully entertaining blog, I do not feel as If I  have accomplished anything in this life worthy to talk about as yet, bigger things are yet to come.

I remember once when I visited Jamaica and had given a certain well known person there a reading and the reading cautioned him about a family member who would die (they did). He had asked me if it could be diverted and I told him yes, he had me cancel my flight and begged me to stay in Jamaica and help him remove the problem, he promised that he would soon get in contact with me. I foolishly stayed, and he kept calling with “mi soon come” everyday. It was after a week that I went to sleep and woke up crying around 3 am in morning, because someone had come to me in my sleep and told me, that I must leave Jamaica, they told me that the man was not coming and I had a lot of things to do here on earth and time was going fast, they scolded me, they said “Leave!….. I left…… I have never forgotten that message.

It was years after that I met my Spiritual mother the woman who initiated me into Osun and who eventually became my enemy, to this day I have no idea why. I remember after she had done some wicked Juju against me things got really bad for me, I struggled to survive financially because of what this wicked woman did, yet when people would say to me Obara you have skills and qualifications, why don’t you get a job with government or otherwise (I worked for myself), I would respond that I could not because I will have to travel all over the world soon, so therefore I could not work for anyone. I should have felt silly saying this, being that I had not a dime to my name or the where to get it. Yet somewhere inside me I knew that what I was passing through by way of wicked Juju/Obeah this woman had thrown to me, I would be released from it and my work would begin. What work? I did not know,but my spirit knew, my head knew and I trusted it.

Ifa knows my purpose and it is written in my Odu, yet we know not the way or the time that what is to come, will. In my Odu’s there are taboos, which I must adhere to. Taboos in Ifa are things an initiate must not do in order for any encumbrances to be in their life path. If an initiate stick to the rules of their taboos, they will not see problems in their life, or if problems come some how, they will never see devastation, they will have the solution. While here on my path, my journey I am still pensive on where life will lead me to. I want my life to be about everything spiritual. I want to be involved in removing the negative stigma the world at large have of Obeah, spiritual and traditional practices. I want to raise the consciousness of people and let them see themselves as masters of their destinies, and relieve them of the slumber which most are in.

I want to assist all whom I come in contact, through whatever medium to view themselves as strong, brave and powerful in their physical bodies and their spiritual minds. I want to be a part of rising Africa and African spirituality again so that the world will see us as human beings and not barbarians. When I say Africans, I mean people of African descent as well as the ones in the motherland, (and anyone who wants to wake up to their truth). Although most of those (Africans at home) are the ones who have willingly turned away from their birthright, opting to serve and observe the religions and teachings of foreigners.

I pray that in my life time, I will be sought out by the mighty Orishas and be used for this purpose and even more greater ones. Am I ambitious?, yes I am,…. can this be done? I believe so, as long as my head is in agreement, and I believe it is, how else would I be so passionate about all this.

The pen is mightier than the sword, goes and old saying and this is true. Through writing, books, poems, literature, any type of meaningful correspondence. I believe that the written word have the greater influence than anything else, and it is through the relentless exposition of our tradition that will eventually and by God’s will, open the eyes of some who needs to be awake, awakened to the truth, so that healing can begin .

I looked at the time on my cell phone beside my bed and it reflected 5:30 am. I heaved a heavy sigh and looked up to the ceiling of my darkened room, placed my two hands beneath my head and began a silent prayer, begging God and my Orishas and my head for the wherewithal to do all that I wished to do. I know that life goes in phases and stages and each year I wonder what now? Remembering the Spirit who had come to me in Jamaica and told me that I had lots of things to do here on earth, and I must leave Jamaica because the man would not come. That was ten years ago. I know often times things are before our faces but we are yet to see them, the future often time is before us in codes, but we cannot see it. This blog has been a comfort for me in way of reaching people through the spiritual word and messages, yet I believe that there is far more yet for me to go.

I know that we human beings should not hurry our lives, because everything happens for a reason and everything comes when it must, but I cannot help but wonder what next?

With all that I know and with all that I am, I Obara Meji am still searching for how to achieve all that I aim to be.

Bí ọrùn àgbáǹréré ti gùn tó, kò lè rí ọjọ́ ọ̀la. /
Despite how long the neck of a giraffe is, it can’t see the future……Yoruba Proverb!

[No one knows tomorrow]

All religion are valid as long as it teaches peace and love…. Obara Meji!

There are no disappointments in life, only lessons learned!….Obara Meji