There are times when I may have something that perhaps disturbs (I use my enemy to deflect the negative words away from me) my enemy’s mind, when this happens, I look to my God for help. Life is like this at times for all of us it seems, no matter how happy you are, something comes in at odd times to challenge that happiness. A friend once told me that his Oluwo (the Babalawo who trained him into priesthood) told him that “It is not good for a person to be happy all the time and never experience problems, if this happens the person will not live long, people will and must encounter problems in their lives and on their journey, but they must always pray that they do not see devastation”. By not encountering devastation, he meant, no matter the problem, we must be able to rise and carry on, praying constantly and with faith, will help us through. I have never questioned the existence of God, the most High, being born into Christianity, he (God had a gender in most religions, but I do not accept that, God is energy, but for easier understanding I will refer to the divine source as such, masculine, in this post) was drilled into our minds along with the threat of hell and damnation as written inside the big black book called the Bible. All my life, my source of comfort has always been God, (and bawling out for my mother in times of need, even if she was not around). The force that created us was always the one to seek comfort from whenever times got rough. When I came into my own and realized who I was spiritually, I met my team of spirit guides and guardians (not all of them, some who are with me, allow me to be aware of their presence, but never who they really are). I began to look to them also in times of need, they were my problem solver, given to me by same God that I serve.
My altar, when I erected one, also was a source of comfort and I would look to it during the times when the children’s father aka the wicked baby father turned his back on us, It never failed me. My Guides never failed me, God never failed me. There were times when I worried (I have grown since, spiritually, and so I worry no more about anything, having realized that as long as I continue to embrace my spirituality then everything is in divine order, so no need to worry) and I looked to my spirits, my guides, guardians, ancestors, my head, all mediums on through which the divine speaks to me, and I heard nothing. Nothing! Times, when my enemy’s heart raced at the thought of a bill or the lights being cut off, or at the rent being paid or any other things that disturbs a single mother with no support from friends or family. One who was totally alone in the world but for her small children, who she was totally responsible for. I looked to God, and heard nothing, not even a dream a message would come. I would cry (back then) and wonder where was God. It took a while before I realized that when all was well (unbeknownst to me), meaning when I worried and cried and listened hard to hear from God, the so called problem was already solved spiritually.
When God and all my non physicals knew, way before me that I had nothing to worry about, there was nothing for me to hear, nothing to fear. When that realization came, I began to find comfort in silence. When the dreams and visions were not coming (to warn or give advice), or the house was not busy with the non-physicals, when all was quiet, regardless of the bill collectors, the landlord (back then) or the stress, God had already solved the problem, and went on to look after the rest of the world. Yesterday I came across this quote, and I smiled to myself, because for years I wondered where was God in times of need, although I must admit, when I heard nothing, all turned out to be well. Comfort in silence. Life is a test, and we must always remember this. Just continue to believe “problem solved”, there is nothing to fear.
Ọmọ tó gé ìyá rẹẹ̀ lẹ́hìn jẹ, ó ṣòro gbà pọ̀n. / It’s tough offering to back a child who’d bit his mother when backed. [Often actions are followed by unintended and somewhat undesirable consequences; think before you act.]