June 18, 2014 Obara Meji 127Comment

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Jealousy according to Wikipedia is an emotion which typically refers to the negative thoughts of insecurity, fear, and anxiety over an anticipated loss, of something of great personal value, particularly in reference to human connection. Wikipedia further states that jealousy often consists of a combination of emotions such as anger, resentment, hopelessness, and disgust. Jealousy is a universal human experience and has been observed in children as young as five months old, it is known also as the Green Eyed Monster, and In Jamaican culture it is known as Bad mind! Words which describes jealousy are; resentment, mental uneasiness, suspicion, fear of rivalry, unfaithfulness. Jealousy is a feeling, a disposition, state or a mood. Jealousy is no God damn good!

Jealousy is sneaky and wicked, it has access to everyone and so it uses this access to destroy families, relationships, marriages, long standing friendships, and more, also it separates and divides and it enjoys doing so. Jealousy is a spirit, a malevolent force which unfortunately can never be destroyed. It is here in this realm with us and we just have to accept that. What is worrisome about jealousy is that it sneaks up into your minds, your thoughts, often times you are not even aware that this son of a b*&#h is around, and many people do harm without realizing that they have been taken over by this ugly wicked being. There are many ways jealousy attacks, and I believe if we were taught from early to recognize this entity when it creeps into our hearts and minds and thoughts, we would possibly be able to recognize it when it comes around and therefore manage or deal with it better, I don’t know, just a thought.

For years from ever since I can remember, my senior sister had been bitten by the jealousy bug. We do not have the same father and when I was born my mom sent her to live in the country with my grandmother. I have no recollection of that, because by the time I was out of baby stage and could recognize people in my family, she was there. I remember her always telling me that I was not my parents child, she told me that I was found in a basket on my parents door steps and my mother took me in and told everybody that I was her child. This did not affect me, because I always believed she was joking, so I would at first be upset but then my intelligence kicked in, as young as I was and I shrugged it off as a joke or a lie. I never thought however that she was telling me these things out of her deep resentment for me. She would tell me stories at nights when we had gone to bed, that my father had beat her and ran her down with a machete, and that my other sister who was not my fathers child either had her fingers crushed under my father’s boots while she was polishing the floors in our house with a coconut brush as how we do in Jamaica. I believed her, and although I loved my father, I could not help but feel hurt for her and the other one because  of the treatment she said they both received at the hands of my father.

There was a time long after our migration to America, that there was a discussion about the family, and I brought up to my parents the treatment of that sister. I had never liked it, after she told me and I use to ask my mother about the incidents, which she always denied. This was the first time bringing up the subject before my dad, but I suspect my mother had told him. This particular day, it was before I became pregnant with my first born, we had just had breakfast, the sister lived on he third floor of an apartment building in New York City with her family, husband and children, while we lived on the second floor, my parents, my junior sister and I. While talking around the table, we had just had our breakfast, I asked about the beatings in Jamaica by my father to my sister. I believed her, because my father use to beat my very badly after a while, and often for no reason at all. He smoked ganja, hard, who remember chilum pipe?, and people said it was when the ganja flew up into his head that he came after me. Story was about to come to bump (the story came to ahead), as we say in Jamaica, and when I brought the subject up that morning all hell broke lose.

I asked my parents what happened the day he ran after her with the machete, and my father looked at my mother and they both looked at me and told me that for years on and off they have heard me ask  about this very same thing and even when they denied it, I still asked about it, and so today they were going to show me how wicked and how much of a liar I was. They called the sister downstairs to our apartment, she came. They told her that they were tired of me always asking (I would sometimes ask my mother, never my father as the evil girl had begged me never to say anything for fear of retaliation) about the maltreatment of them,( the sisters), by my father and wondered why I would say such a thing. The sister looked at me and asked me where did I get that story from, she did not stop with the question she continued to berate me calling me wicked and evil for bringing her name into something she had nothing to do with. At first I believed she was saying these things to protect herself, but while she yelled at me some invisible spirit knocked me in the head with the wake up and be sensible stick, and right then and there I began to realize that this girl had set me up. She had set me up against my parents.

I shouted back at her that she did tell me these things, ever since I was little and she denied it flat out and all of them screamed and shouted at me that day. That day I was the enemy, the wicked evil creature in the room. I heard my sister tell my parents  that day, And this is who you love, this wicked bitch, everything she told you is a lie, she just use me to hurt you both“, and my parents believed her. This was not to be the first or the last time this woman did this to me, she made it her mission to fuel hate between my parents and I. The sad thing is her reason for doing it stemmed from our differences in complexion. I was of fair complexion while she was dark. This distinction is clear and apparent in our Jamaican culture, color complex, fueled in recent times by Entertainer Vybz Kartel and it is what has given birth to the bleaching generation which stretches all the way to Africa and it is so sad.

While I grew up, because I was as Jamaican people called it “A Browning”, I was told that I would become, a Doctor, a Lawyer, Indian, Chief, head cook and bottle washer! In other words because of my complexion, doors would open for me, I was to become somebody in life. My sister witnessed these things which people including my parents told me. I was a child, I had no control over what people said to me, and at nights she would pinch me in my sleep and pull my hair. The girl began to feel jealousy toward me and a kind of resentment for me that is still with her to this day. Her greatest accomplishment to date against me has been to aid in the removal of my parents love for me. One day I will write more about her, this story is just the tip of the Iceberg which sank the Titanic.

Jealousy has touched everyone and for many different reasons. It has certainly touched me, but jealousy comes to me with my men or even with friends, when I thought I had them.  When I am in a relationship, I always tell my men up front, (have not had many), that I am jealous and I should I ever know that they are flirting around or dating another or even just chatting up somebody, the relationship would be over. I am very possessive of whom I believe belong to me, and so I examined the feeling of jealousy when it came over me in relationships and realized that it was more than jealousy that I felt. Of course jealousy was apart of what I felt, but I also felt as if I was being violated. How dare someone cheat on me..! Me?.. I have always felt as if I was a Queen, in fact I am a Queen, (don’t criticize me, you be who you want to be, I Am A Queen!) and so, for someone to be with me and be with or even go after someone else was a violation to my Royal Spirit, and because I could not say “Off With Their Heads!”, I would end the relationship, if it were ever to be found that they cheated.

Of friends, when I had them, it was the same feeling, my friends were MY friends. If I came around my friends and they had other friends around, I didn’t feel right, I would leave (bad ways, mi know, but mi cudden help it, mi ah human being oonuh low mi). Again in my Royal mind (doan laugh), how dare I come around and have to compete my time with these other friends, is it weird to say these thoughts came to my head with an English accent? I do not have friends anymore, so with that there is no problem, and as for jealousy regarding a man or husband, that too has gone, perhaps,  but I have not been challenged with that problem ever since the “Oh So Ever Wicked One!”  (anyone new to the site, comment and ask who this is and either me or one of the bloggers will tell you and point you to his post, ole dranco). I can confidently tell you all that I have no feelings of jealousy what so ever, none! I have been released from that wretched emotion, I have!

Over all we should never subscribe to jealousy and we should recognize when it comes. We should pray against its manifestations, and never give in to its wiles. It is indeed a monster, one who has changed the lives of so many and have even caused death. It is the main character in almost every book or movie and even in the Bible it is stated that God says that He is a jealous God, lies! all lies, God has no human emotion, the bible lies right there. Don’t worry about me, I will gladly send up a light for your cigarette from my burning bed in hell which awaits me for calling the Bible a liar, but as I do not believe in hell or the Devil, I do not believe that your cigarette will ever be lit by me, as I do not condone smoking, unless its a little ganja,… what can I say…it is the Jamaican in me, and it haffi bun!

Jealousy is what created the monster Iago in Shakespeare’s play Othello, which destroyed so many peoples lives, including Othello. In Cinderella, jealousy raises its ugly head and beams it right off the wicked step sisters and the evil witch of a step mother, also in the Story Snow White among other fairy tales. We need to include when we pray that the spirit of jealousy  be far away from us. We need to pray it away or pray against it. It does not belong to the realm of benevolence but rather it belongs to the realm of malevolence, and although it is a part of our earthly existence, and a long standing professor in the world, who is very good at its job, regardless of the consequences it bring forth, it can be defeated individually, if only you strengthen your minds and pray against it, and also pray for the ability to recognize it when it comes about and not give in to its wily ways of uncertainty, discord, dis-content, selfishness, hatred, resentment, low self esteem, insecurity, lies, deceit, murder manipulation, slavery and then some. Please share your stories of Jealousy with me today, I am sure you all have some, do not omit yourself from these stories, we have all been touched by this demon at sometime in our lives, either, through family, relationship, of a sexual nature, friendship, materialism, titles, complement, big ups among other things. Bounty Killa come join in de discussion, as it seems to me like ah you put de J inna Jealousy (bad mind)…mi serious as ah judge, what ah man miserable!

Bí igi bá rorò, ó níláti bá igbó gbé. /
Even if a tree is fearsome, it must still cohabit with the others in the forest….Yoruba Proverb

“All religion are valid as long as it teaches peace and love”…Obara Meji!

“Bad mind wuss dan Obeah”!…Jamaican Patois!

When emerging from humble beginnings, those around you tend to underestimate your authenticity because they knew you before you were ‘somebody.’ – Criss Jami

Life is one big road with lots of signs. So when you riding through the ruts, don’t complicate your mind. Flee from hate, mischief and jealousy. Don’t bury your thoughts, put your vision to reality. Wake Up and Live!

Bob Marley

I think it’s important to get your surroundings as well as yourself into a positive state – meaning surround yourself with positive people, not the kind who are negative and jealous of everything you do.

Heidi Klum

The jealous are possessed by a mad devil and a dull spirit at the same time.

Johann Kaspar Lavater

 

 

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queenleelee1
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Boy my Obara.. you never seize to amaze the I and I star.. (yeah mi a Channel mi Rastanofarianism…) before mi give you a small example of jealousy that I endured from my own sister and mainly my dranco stinking cousins and aunt ..let me say…I will balze it up..the ganja mi mean no cigarette round here..dwl..

Ok when I was maye 3 or 4years old I remember how bad my sister and cousins use to treat me..my cousins were worst they use to subject me too unmentionable abuse..and I mean , the ultimate abuse…my sister who I am sure was not aware of it (or I dont think she was) use to give me her dosage of fresh hell every night, you see our mother use to work nights and back in the late 70s early 80s there was always political warfare going on in Kingston where I am from,
My sister who is 6 years my senoir would lock me in the room and turn out the lights and she and my cousins would jeer me while i bawl my eyes out in fear as the room was very dark.
They would mercilessly mock me and tell me my father was coming for me and the “Searching Lights ” ( that was the lights from the helicopters ) was my father looking for me…I would be crippled with fear and hide everytime I hear a helicopter or see the lights..until after awhile I realized that nothing happened, well except that when they locked me in the room at nights they could hurt me..so because of that I use to look forward to them doing it. And grew to love the dark..because it became my only refuge from them .
Oh I still pretended to be frighten of the dark and I was still convinced that my father was in the lights (remember I was a baby) ..
BUT now I know she and my dranco cousins were just possessed by the Jealousy monster..why?, well We all Lived in a big yard that my mother paid and feed all of them because she was the successful one , so my Aunti convinced my poor sister that my mother loved me not her because she was raised by our grandparents. . (my mother was raped at 16 and had my sister at 17 , my grandparents put her out of the house and kept my sister there so mommy could work and maintain her).
Unlike my cousins , I went to prep school and spoke perfect english, and was a very pretty child..they didn’t like me at all and convinced my sister to hate me too…
Well I am happy to say me and my sister are doing a lot better now…but I just keep my cousins and dranco Aunti at bay…
Jealousy and envy are one and the same…and people can be jealous of you just because you don’t think like them…
I have left out alot of the story because it is alot to deal with..
But is just one of thousands of stories O have about Jealousy. .sad but true

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[…] let me stay with her until I could find a way out but she said no. I asked the evil sister, (read Jealousy) if I could stay with her, she had lived with me for years, but she said no, she didn’t want […]

Cami
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Cami

I can’t wait to read about this sister. Hurry! dear queen writer, lol.

I know jealousy, but for me it comes in a short burst and goes away as fast as it came. I’ve tried being jealous but my spirit cannot handle it because it can be very destructive and maddening.

Mind you, I’ve had/have reasons to exhibit jealousy, but again, my little heart cannot handle the weight of it- so I rationalize it as a humf moment.

NuNu
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NuNu

Good night all! In the lights. Toy, Vanessa nice to see you guys!

Yazzy
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Yazzy

Nunu boo

Vanessa
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Vanessa

I miss y’all!! Im so happy im able to read the comments. Ms. Obara ive been in isolation for nearly a week. Any meditation posts?

Yazzy
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Yazzy

Hey ‘Nessa!. Good night my love. As a matter of fact, she did a meditation post just last thurs. Just go a few post back and you will hit the jackpot. I’ve never meditated before and I’m eager to begin the process which most have said takes a lil practice. Hope it helps sweetie. Hurry back with your results..

toy7318
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By the time I come on all of you run gone. Anyway night everyone, Yazzy you hurt my heart with your story. I you will heal soon,it will take time but you will get there. I am jealous of sister’s they have great relationships with their father’s.

Yazzy
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Yazzy

Good Night Toy boo! Hope ur feeling better sweetie. Last I was around you had a headache. Thanks for the love. Splash loads of love on ya sisters. I think it helps to recognize the feelings you are developing and do self reflecting. Then pour loads of love out and allow yourself to be loved by others. Love is the answer

Ty
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Thank Kia…feeling much better today…thank you all for the love ad well wishes

wanted o share this short video to cheer everyone up, can you say Bongo

http://t.living.msn.com/video?videoid=518e7c6e-15d1-4e6e-aa2c-b5ac5d1b219f

Yazzy
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Yazzy

Ty sweetie, missed ya. Thanks for the vid. A him seh “dance and do what you feel like… “

Obara meji
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Obara meji

Data right daddy!!

kiabubblez
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kiabubblez

Nite Ty my mind jus run pon u. Yu feel betta i hope.
ASE

kiabubblez
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kiabubblez

Yazzy (((Hugs)))love u mama sharing helps in the releasing. it is painful to grow without a dad. It bothers me at times also. I know these feelings. When ppl talk good bout them dad i can never say 1 thing good. Sometime even ask why my fathwr couldnt love me. I hope as he viewed the replay of his life after leaving earth that he saw the earn of him ways. Praying for u an all the fam

Yazzy
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Yazzy

Thanks Kia boo. I feel your pain. That’s why when Obama and the you guys talk about these wutlis baby fada… Mi stomach sick. They don’t know the trauma they cause. One thing for sure… a four letter word called LOVE!!!!!!!! it HEALS!!! it picks ya up, dust ya off, dry ya tears, fix yuh up, wuk pan yuh heart, heal yuh mind, dress yuh up nice nice, put a song inna yuh heart, put a smike pan yuh face, gi yuh a testimony…. and set the yuh free. Can mi family seh ASE!!

Yazzy
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Yazzy

Mommy O, I would love for you to speak more on God not being Jealous as you know this was drilled into us that he’s a very Jealous God.

Obara meji
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Obara meji

Yazzy when I say being emotional I meant because you are easy to cry whether happy or sad, there is nothing wrong with being emotional, but for some people it can be due to deep under laying issues they are not dealing with or are not ready to deal with, that is what I meant

Yazzy
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Yazzy

Mommy O, I took no offense. That’s exactly what I assumed you meant and you are correct. I cry for eeeeevrything, both happy and sad… and even for no reason. I’m gonna have to begin meditatating and other therapies mentioned here.

Yazzy
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Yazzy

Thanks for the love Mommy O. I’m working on myself. I don’t wanna walk around messed up forever and not turn di dutty tormenting thoughts into a testimony. IT HURT BAD!!!!! but just like you Obara Meji, I shall overcome. I wanna heal my mind and my body from this trauma. I remember you telling me that the traumas have caused me to be insecure and I was very much embarrassed…. like who, me???? Hot gal Yazzy??? Insecure???? But a true. If I’m gonna be honest with myself… I have to admit that I am. It’s not who I am eenuh and mi nuh want fi a walla walla inna mi own sh*t wid self pity but a true…mi really start to see the insecurities at times… and I don’t need that. Insecurities and Jealousy guh hand in hand… so I decided to take back my life. When mi feel it a creep up pan mi… mi start to LOVE even more…. sing louder… pray harder… give more… speak happiness more… it’s a process man. But I’m confident that I will overcome. I’m blessed to have my family here… a mommy figure here and the best spiritual ppl that money can’t buy. Cah if money can force sadly fi sh*t pan anoda. .. mi nuh wah know yuh.

Ty
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Yazzy mi sistren…we love you here more than words can say… Not only today but always…our love is so potent, to crosses water, goes many distances, and surrounds you when you are in need…

That piece of shit, will beg you for forgiveness…mark my words…

Your tears and prayers were not unheard…your true and mighty Father is just, true and sure…he loves you always…

Each day is step on your journey…May the love of the universe hold you up, May archangel Uriel light your way in your darkest hour…

Sorry but mi get bringle when I read you post…

Yazzy
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Yazzy

Lawd gash!! Ty, thanks so much for the love and support mami. My heart, mind, body and soul appreciates it. MI undastan if you bringle, as I would be if any of you sweeties had opened up about such filth but I love when you’re most cheerful and happy filled with love and light. Mi unuh bad. Love will pull me thru… the giving of my love and the receiving of genuine love such as yours and all my sweeties here. Mommy O knew what she was doing when she set up shop yasso. Chuss mi

Yazzy
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Yazzy

Correction… force **smaddy** fi sh*t pan anoda…

Obara meji
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Obara meji

Yazzy God is not a human being therefore God does not have human emotions, we attach human emotions to God because we cannot see beyond humanity therefore we are limited and cannot perceive that which is God, there are no pictorial image of God anywhere! There are images of Gods emissaries Jesus through Christianity and Mohammed in Islam Vishnu in Hinduism and Buddha among the Buddhist but theses are the so called emissaries no image of the ALL, why is that, it is too great for us to understand! God is not a human being God is energy and we are fragments of that energy

NuNu
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NuNu

That’s right girly!! Yuh deh pon track, stay yuh vibezy bubbly self that’s one of the reasons wi love yuh bad!

Yazzy
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Yazzy

Bwouy Obara, mi not even a laff but it seems as if a me and u both neva ave nuh ambition wid dem wutless cutlis de!!!!

I’ve harbored jealousy too. The guy my mom chose to sleep with to have me here is a ole crosses piece a sh*t and I robbed me of my youth and my essence and as such I never had any fatherly love so especially on Father’s day, like this past sunday, I’m always overcome with tears, mixed emotions, resentment, fear, just the worst emotions possible and I become jealous of people I know, whether friends, other family members or even strangers that have great or little relations with their dads! Even the mentioning this breaks me down in tears. I need your love and strength on this one guys. Pray for me!

I’ve also found myself jealous of people with good family structures…. mi feel red yeye like seh mi wah weh dem have… or just live inna dem shoes fi a min. Good mada, check. Good fada, check. Decent, loving siblings, check. House cuda a mash dung… a cuda ole zinc fence. It nuh affi be white picket fence mi chile. Just some decent loving household.

Obara meji
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Obara meji

It is a process but the more you face it, it gets easier, it took plenty tears for me to release these people who share my blood but were no good and I have released the, mi nuh waan know dem!!! Mi done!!!!

Yazzy
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Yazzy

Obara, mi allll over the place babez. I’m confused about this releasing them process… is it forgiveness?? What if we can’t forgive? If we speak of them and the emotions is so raw… how can we say we have released them? Also, I read your article on “the power of words” where you mentioned that if we speak negatively about our household that it will only manifest itself, right? So do you think we are doing ourselves an injustice by constantly mentioning these pieces of (sugar-honey-iced-tea) …I mean… I don’t know what to do. I found that for years while I kept the memories buried I was at my best… but any mention of such di cock roach dem mek mi crosssss. I wish it would stop.

NuNu
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NuNu

Nuh worry yuh self mumzy! Wi go pray yuh up!

Yazzy
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Yazzy

Tanks Nunu boo.

kiabubblez
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kiabubblez

Yazzy yaz nunu hail a watch cup

NuNu
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NuNu

Mistake mi mek send it twice. Mi a watch world cup same time

Obara meji
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Obara meji

Love and light I send to you Yazzy, wow he tried to sleep with his own child! What a piece ah germs bucket he is, release it Yazzy, do not allow him or them to hold you prisoner, you have your life so you have hope, some family fi gway, release dem!!!!!

NuNu
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NuNu

Cg deh a work deh deal wid some badmine gremlin! Same topic wi a talk bout. Mumzy right yasso,shi sen’ har howdy and love..

NuNu
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NuNu

Suh if shi did resent har cousin then dat would be considered from a place of jealousy?

kiabubblez
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kiabubblez

Nunu I think if M did guh wid a bad mind or bad intentions fi mash up cuz bizniz den a jealously. Its how ur heart stay ina di situation mi feel di banker had ill intents tho

Yazzy
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Yazzy

Nunu booooooo. Weh Cgoh and mama de??? Hailmentz fi dem

NuNu
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NuNu

Cg deh a work deh deal wid some badmine gremlin! Same topic wi a talk bout. Mumzy right yasso,shi sen’ har howdy and love..

MTH
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Teach is true. My pastor told this story in church before. One day you pass a jerk chicken man on a corner. By the next Friday you pass, there is another one and before long you have several…Everyone selling jerk chicken and not one has the initative to start selling juice. Everyone is competing…

I hear a lot of jealousy happens in the bank. You have your well documented business plan and go seek a loan. You leave your documents and brap, you get a call “I’m sorry, you loan has been denied”..Den two-twos a di sed smaddy inna di bank start run business wid your idea. (This is not fiction now, this happened to my friend when she went in for a loan to operate a Devon House Ice-Cream outlet and the ban k ppl told her it was not feasable..Only fi si di bitch wey process har loan, open a said Devon House outlet.

NuNu
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NuNu

A dat mi nuh like M, when people teef yuh idea, mek money from it an yuh cyaan duh nutten bout it

Yazzy
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Yazzy

‘Sass criiiisss. Dat a wicked!.

MTH
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Teach, I just wanted to see if any good could come from being jealous. Jealousy is a sin..It teaches us lessons…

kiabubblez
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kiabubblez

Yu kno i dont mind share my frens. Tru mi quiet n like observe its cool to lissen other ppl laugh n joke wid my frens. Mi neva jealous offa material things cah i walk inna life wid a mind dat feel that di same God who bless u will bless me in my time wid my owna tings. What is for me is for me!!! possive fimi man yessss. i dont like share man wid odda ooman. Smdh i hate dem sumn deh. I will cutt off quick fi dem violation

MTH
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Wad up Yazzy?

Teach, is jealousy always bad thou…Same for example, my cousin has a stall in Pearlnel Charles arcade and she is always saying how buiness is good. I save up a little money and I go overseas and buys the exact thing my cousin is selling and get a stall near hers. We are selling the same stuff. I am making money as is my cousin. My motive might have been wrong, but spiritually is there anything wrong? Jealousy has led to a new income stream for me and my family.

Yazzy
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Yazzy

Wad up badass MTH!!! Class mash up ya now!!! Lolollll mi de ya a read. A caah tek ee. It nuh right.

kiabubblez
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kiabubblez

Evening ppl M i dont take dat as jealously eno yu waa mek a income too. seh u waa go ina bizniz suh u side a her cah is fam n uno can send customer back n forth . did u cutt off her clients?

Yazzy
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Yazzy

Kia boo!!! Whats poppin? Weh yuh seh… yuh rrrrrr fi yuh man. Dead! A weak inna ya!

MTH
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Teach a suh mi like bruk it dun easy, easy…

Ty
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A grung mi deh, only Mth

MTH
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But a suh si story was told to mi. Bet yu Nunu understand now a doan mix it up again…Nunu dear, Bathsheba when have 2 man. Nunu, doan wi learn yu something today?

Whilst they are close in nature, lust is not jealosy..

NuNu
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NuNu

Yes prefect M! Mi tek out mi notebook an a mek adjustments to mi notes. LOL

Obara meji
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Obara meji

Yazzy yuh ah Hymie dis ooman yah? Ah straight ah grung mi ketch, Ty pleas to control M, she must behaving

Obara meji
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Obara meji

Agree Kia

MTH
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People might come down on mi but asuh..Careless Bathsheba knew that her outside bathroom was situated in a position where people from the castle could see. I feel she knew what time David went on the roof to walk around. She know sey shi have up har shape and fat an roun like a English pound. Just guh strip and David, shi har fluff and send guhpage har.

Har husband a fight war fi har bunna man andshe wid di young belly. David sen fi him matey an sey gwan home. Uriah neva tek di bait and him dead. Story in a nutshell, Jamaican style.

NuNu
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NuNu

LOL!!!!! Jamaican styleeeeee!!!!

Yazzy
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Yazzy

MTH, same suh muma!

Obara meji
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Obara meji

Dedments! Grung! Lmaooooooo! Yuh fi gwan betta enuh man!

Obara meji
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Obara meji

Smaddy talk to M nuh man cho! Lolol

MTH
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Nunu, I dont call that jealousy. I count that as lust, turning deadly. LOL HIm breed di man woman and had to get rid of the man. He tried to let the man hold a jacket, but Uriah neva guh home. David sey to himself, how dah man yah a move suh, him nuh waan di _______, suh mek mi control it fully.

NuNu
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NuNu

Lol, ahoo mi did think seh a si him si the man wife want har den juss send out di bredda fi dead suh

Obara meji
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Obara meji

Nunu she got pregnant and David could not take such a scandal especially since the man was a soldier in his army, so to save face he put the man in the front if the line and had him killed so that he could tek over de Wukliss ooman and everything solve or so him did tink, but dat was done choo lust and selfishness not jealousy also greed since he had five wives and twenty seven concubines ! Craven!

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Jealousy as mentioned in the bible:

1. Essau & Jacob (Jacob robbed Essau of his birthright)
2. Saul & David (Saul was jealousof David & tried to kill him on several occasions)
3. Peninnah & Hannah (1 Sam. 1-28)
4. Rachel & Rebecca (Rachel was jealous of her sister Rebecca because Isaac loved Rebecca. Rebecca was jealous of Rachel because Rachel coud bare children and she couldn’t)

5. Joseph & His brothers
6. Herod was jealous when he learnt that a new king was born
7. One ofthe two women who had a dispute about a child that had died and they went to Solomon to dispense justice.

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NuNu

What about David and Uriah?

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NuNu

Yazzy ooohhhhh!!!

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Obara meji

Grubg

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Yazzy

Mommmmmy Ooooooo!!! Nunuuuuuu booo!!!!! Mi de ya a peep in man. I’m like a chicken without head but mi de ya.

Fam’, mi de ya…. how unu stay… I soon come put eeen my imput… and reel out di file dem cah badmind is active!!! Lmfaooo. .. ****jokin’**** but mi soon come sweeties

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Yazzy

Mi de ya Mommy O! Mi de ya allll ma sweeties. I know I’ve been really busy but my spirit was forever present. Hope you all are in the best of health and great spirit.

Obara, thanks so much for this painful journey back into your past to share with us the actual lesson from the experience. Your test has become your testimony. We appreciate the openness… the raw emotions and the honesty.

Mommy O, Bwouy di people dem haat fi yuh is a shame! Tsk tsk tsk…

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NuNu

Unoo si wha Obara deh cause!!!

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Obara meji

Lolol, walk out Nuns caws yuh cute!!

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Obara meji

Yazzy!!!! Ya if I had not gone through these things could I have a blog like this one where I share from my life regardless the pain? They all played an important role in my life to push me upward the sister one and the baby father hurt the most though because it severed the relationship with me parents and my children knew no father

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NuNu

LOL!!! Unoo si teach a give trouble!! Somebody come talk to the headmistress!!!

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Oh my M! Mi sorry yuh miss out on that relationship blossoming cause him sound decent…. mi seh di jealousy spirit can feed yuh some lie yuh si!!!!

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Here is my story.

Children in London know that I had a child very early. I went to Women’s Centre who placed me back in a traditional High School. While at HIgh School I used to admire this guy, no big crush or anything.

Years later we met up on a social network site. We started flirting with each other and eventually we were in a relationship. For me this was the ultimate relationship for me. The guy was everything I wanted, he had done well in school, he had swag for days. He came to visit me in Jamaica and we connected well. For me, this was the high school relationship that I craved.

Our little relationship was going well. Ppl could tell we were together inspite of us not bringing it to the social network. This young miss would comment on every picture he was in. Pictures with me, got no response. I spoke to my guy about it and he didnt encourage he advances (or at least not in public). Things gotso bad with her commenting on all his pictures. I went in hard & fast and embarrassed her on the site. When he cameon the site and saw how I behaved he was mad at me…We were got in an argument and he told me that he could never date someone who behaved the way I did. He said ‘as my woman, you have to have something about you. You are my woman so you have to believe me when I speak’…He went on to say he told me they were not together and I should have taken his word. He was ashamed for me as I was the woman he had spoken highly of to his friends and famliy and here I was behaving like a hood-rat. I couldnt say I was provoked or lost it. He said ‘as much as I love you I have to end it’.

He left me (remember I had mentioned before that a guy had left me). We both actually cried. One of the things that made me gravitated to his was that he was a principled person. The worst part was a few years after, I put on my big girl panties and apologised to the girl. She said, she didnt even know that I was serious, she thought I was commenting in jest. She told me how much she liked my writing style and looked out for my post daily. he said she really liked me and she was never interested in the guy…Two big losses right there.

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Lol, hear di two people dem een yah wid di bad man talk!!!!

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Thank you Ty, I do everyday I do and it helps when it tries to sneak itself in.

Ty
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Lawd this evil monster lurks and has to be kept at bay…

Your sister sound like a cousin of mine…we are both born a month apart and are only children for our mothers…so they grew us as sisters…unfortunately, it was a one sided love…it took me years to realise who and what she is…it pains me to this day, because it could have been a wonderful thing…I have since released her and we have not spoken for over 6 years…I wish her well and have no ill feelings… she taught me alot about myself…

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Wow sounds like my cousin. That girl is a demon who I know prays against me.

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Thank you Obara, you are correct this post is spot on. I used to be a very insecure and self deprecating person. I would search and dig to find things to be jealous over to bring myself to the deepest depth of insecurity I could, because that is where I felt the most comfortable, as nothing. My jealousy would know no bound and I would stop at almost nothing to make it as overwhelming as possible. I would dig myself in and wallow there for days. It would cause often cause arguments and would bring the mood of my household way down.
I recently realized how terrible it was to do this to myself and my family and have been working very hard at knowing I am wonderful and have no need for jealous ways. Admittedly I struggle some days, but it gets easier and easier.

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I have had occassions where I have been jealous of people before. When I recognise the feeling, I quickly let it go. I have also been the victim of cruel jealous.

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A bwoy, I understand exactly what yuh saying Obara! Mi deh try learn fi deal wid my jealous issues as well mi nuh like so nobady roun’ my friends when wi having our time, it bringle mi. I have issues wid sharing time

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