December 31, 2014 Obara Meji 189Comment

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Good day one and all, Yazzy sent in this post with the title above. My dears, I have to say that I am proud of Yazzy and you all. I know for some of you there was a time when the word Obeah sparked some negative emotions in you upon hearing just the word. You all had no idea that Obeah is just a word, synonymous with other words such as Voodoo, Juju, and more, but that the words themselves, albeit associated with evil and wicked practices, really is not! Again it is the, heart,minds and hands of the wicked ones who grab a hold of the knowledge which comes with these practices that we ought to be mindful of! Of certain Human Beings, I smh!

As a little girl growing up in my beautiful paradise Jamaica, I always heard of people talking about Obeah and “Chatting” (gossiping) about who an who were involved in it, pointing fingers. I have seen my share of phenomena associated with Obeah, and I was fascinated, slightly frightened, but fascinated nevertheless.

Wrap head people (Spiritual people who wore head ties) were mystical to me, and the ones that I saw back home, always had a stern look on their faces, they had a certain discipline to them. I have now come to understand, that when the “spirit” is on them it gives them another look, one o called normal persons would not understand.

I loved to see Poco people (spiritual people drumming, and dancing to the spirits they invoked) jumping Poco, I never knew the day would come, when I got to jump poco mi self and dance to Kumina. I was  even appointed leadress in a spiritual church which I was directed to going by my spiritual elders (non – physicals), which led me to Africa.

As a child growing up, Jamaica was a very spiritual place, more so than it is now, because the hype and wanting to be like Americans, (plus de Vybz Kartel him and him shenanigans wid the immoral behavior, and demon bwoy, and Alka slime and others), many things are tossed aside and lost and pon top ah it Gully Queen dem tek ova de poco jumping and revial and de obeah working nung, and dem cyaan travel far spiritually, in de world of spirits they are known as DAMAGED GOODS, aldoe some ah dem can read very well, mi know what mi talking bout, but oonuh doan ask mi nutting!

But I digress, Look yah nung, Yazzy put the words Obeah and gardening together in a very positive post. If Christian people see the title of this post, (Obeah word among the title) de amount of tongues, and blood pleading, and condemnation ghe blog and post and poor Yazzy and Obeah wuking me oodda get, yuh hear dat big neck T. D Jakes or teefing T. B Joshua?

“Christians I like your Christ but I do not like YOU Christians” Ghandi coined a true phrase

Jamaica, my beloved country prepared me for my journey to Africa from I was a child. I thank my head, I have found my path, my destiny, I wish the same for all of you!

Yazzy’s post needs no intro, and mi tek de gal good, good post gone all ova de place to rat back, so I will stop here, mi love type and cyaan type, de wud obeah just send mi inna tail spin!

OBEAH Spiritual Gardening with Yazzy

Happy Holiday to alllll my sweeties!!

Obara Meji, you’ve simply been a blessing in my life. I love you and thank you for this medium.

I love my ESP family here, and I thank Olodumare and our Oris for aligning us as one body with our phenomenal sweetie, Obara Meji, as the head. I am positive all my sweeties here, our new bloggers, our silent bloggers (the ones that blog thru email with Obara) and all our peepers can say we have had an amazing year filled with loads of pricelessly uncontested knowledge and fun while perched here…

I wanted to get into a little interactive exercise we will (I wanna use the word elude since I think we are certainly escaping the chaotic life of every day hustle and bustle to further escape into our minds) elude to as our spiritual garden. With the year’s end at our heels, it may be a practicing norm for some to work on their New Years resolutions. However, before one can work on their New Years resolutions, they first have to find a place of peace where they can allow their minds to be in a self reflective state and an introspective mindset. I thought how befitting if we can do this practice, together, as we have already openly done and shared so much with each other and it’s another great way for us to strengthen our bonds moving into the new year and possibly a great HEALING process….

Ps, if you are weary and you need a place to just freakin’ lay ya burdens and ya cross down …. Now is the time!!! Here is the place!!!

LET’S GARDEN!

Firstly, lets gather our seeds…

A. Think about the positive seeds ya wanna sew for the years to come and the impacts you want it to have … and the lives that will be changed by these seeds.
B. Our seeds can be our affirmations for the years to come.

Secondly, lets gather our SH*T! Yup! You read it right. We ALLL have a lil of that… And guess what? It’s normal!

A. Now, here is where we can allow ourselves to be vulnerable. Nothing has to be perfect. We all have had  different experiences and that’s the intricacy of the universe…. But negatives are needed to develop the positives, enit?? We won’t be giving the negatives any energy but instead we will speak it outward to show it that it no longer has power over us. All our mistakes, all our secrets that have plagued us… All our fears… All our tears… All our struggles… Don’t you dare carry that cross anymore!
B. Here is where we will look at our fellow bloggers’ sh*t as LESSONS for ourselves or for someone we know and we look at it with non judgmental eyes…
C. Here is where we take alllll that negative SH*T and use it to manipulate our soil and CREATE a positive outcome! With this, we will use the analogy of the horse’s manure… It makes for a very fertile soil enit??? EXACTLY!

Thirdly, lets gather our water!!

A. Our water will be our positive thoughts, our energy, our light, our prayers, our words, our actions, our efforts, our gratitude, our compassion, our empathy, our patience, our kindness, our love, our hope, our courage.. even our tears! and AFFIRM IT!

Finally, lets join our forces thru the powers of our mind and will… and let us seal all we have planted with our ASE!

Ps, at the closing of this post, after all has completed their obeah gardening over the next couple of days….for all who has a spiritual altar, let us print a copy of this our Obeah Spiritual Garden post and leave it on our altars and whenever we fast or pray let us continuously reflect upon what was planted and continue to put our energy and light into it. United we stand and as iron sharpens iron, so does one man sharpen another.

So here is the layout bloggers…

Ist paragraph. My name is _________________ (blog name of course) and any introduction or anything else you wanna add here…

2nd  paragraph. I wanna sew seeds of ______________________ (as many as you like)

3rd paragraph. This paragraph is reserved for all your sh*t! I have made many mistakes but these in particular have plagued me______________. I have a secret I have always wanted to just get off my chest that __________________. I have struggled with ______________. ( just anything you think your fellow bloggers could learn from and anything you wanna get off ya chest. Cry it out if ya need to but this is where you are releasing what has imprisoned you mentally, emotionally, psychologically or in any fashion)
This portion is essential to the growth of us as well as we need to utilize it as a fertilizer for our soil!

4th  paragraph. We will be watering all that was planted. This is will require powerful mental energy and all that was said above but what we can water with in this paragraph are our prayers. Olodumare (or God or Jah… Whatever you refer to the universal energy as..we begin with that) ___________________ (and as you pray here please focus all your energy and faith into the words being written)

Finally, we seal our written prayers and our newly planted seed(s) with ASE!! or AMEN!! or whatever your religious preference are!!!

Thank you ALLL my sweeties!!!

Ps, Obara plz add your proverbs and an befitting blog pic to go with the post plz!!! Thank you and love you!

 

Ojú tó rí ibi tí ò fọ́, ire ló ńdúró dè. /

The eyes that saw evil and did not go blind, are waiting to see good…….Yoruba Proverb!

[The best is yet to come.]

All religion are valid as long as it teaches peace and love…. Obara Meji!

There no disappointments in life, only lessons learned!….Obara Meji

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SeaQueen
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Lawd Obara….10 page??? yuh mad! lol. I like my writings short and sweet, that’s why I stick to songs and poetry. Anything over 3 pages is a killer lol. When mi did inna college mi used to bawl when mi get thesis paper. After page 5 ah bare BS dwl

MTH
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EVERYONE nuff respect. Teach, a laugh yu piss when yu come in wid yu dj skills. Teach, way up and stay up (slang)…Yazzy Dazzy, please mek mi Beres Hammond wish come thru. Yes, chile mi live back a farrin…

That’s why mi did suh bruck last year.

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Happy new year Teach and all the ES CREWS. Im sorry for coimg to class this late. Its like a tradition from my part of the country to always visit the country home for celebration. Were we get to meet longtime friends and the rest of the family. Internet hasnt been good their. I’m been moved by Yazzy’s post. One i will have that courage to pure out my heart, like she did. I love you all!

Ty
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Sea queen, our queen, regal as usual, ever poised…we love you and we are here for you…I admire your courage and strength …

Cheers to new beginnings…cheers to 2015!!!

SeaQueen
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Ty, always with kind words. They are much appreciated and I have to thank you for your story that gave me the courage to speak my truth. Thank you for your support, it is a great comfort for me as I have held onto it for so long. Unnu fi see mi ah hop round di place this am lol

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Mawnin sweetie Ty!

Obara mi done over here now my love. I wanted to be able to respond too all and every comment. My job is thru mi a come ova pan di new post ya now suh meet mi there. 😀 kisses!!

To all my sweeties,

I thank you all for your seeds sewn here and as we journey on we do that with absolute love, light and courage. LOVE YOU ALL!! Thank you for being raw and open. It has helped and healed Obara.. It has helped and is Healing me and I am positive it will help and begin the healing process for you all! Why not help to heal each other. That’s what our OBEAH is allll about!

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Sigh…Here we go! (thinking out loud)

First, let me start by wishing my family (unnu mi ah talk) a Blessed and prosperous New Year. I have a feeling 2015 will be a great year for us all. I just want to put that out there before I start with the heartbreaking process. And I do mean heartbreaking in a positive way because what has been torn down has an opportunity to be rebuilt.

My name is SeaQueen, the newbie. I say this because I feel like the new girl in school. I am a Pisces, hence the name SeaQueen. It has always been easy for me to pick up on the emotions and feelings of the people and the things in my environment and reflect them in my daily life. One example is if I am in a loving environment I show love or if I am in hostile surroundings I am constantly angry or miserable. Because of this I have been labeled everything from moody to fake. But I never considered myself fake just very sensitive and very flexible with my feelings. (You guys will soon pick up my habit of spinning every negative into a positive). I am the wash belly in my family, which has given me a great opportunity to learn from the mistakes of those before me but has also crippled me in that I have lived my life in fear of making the same mistakes my family members have made. I feel I have been held back because I have been carrying the crosses (secrets) of others as well as my own.

The seeds I want to sow from this day forth are the seeds of Truth, Love, Respect, Compassion, Understanding, Courage, Laughter, and last but certainly not least Forgiveness. I have a lot more seeds but these are the ones that are prominent in my thoughts.

Yazzy, you say here is where I can allow my self to be vulnerable, but I will admit that is one of the hardest things for me to do. Reason being is I have built up an invisible wall resembling fort knox shielding my feelings. And I have been trying for a while now to figure out when did I start, how did I start, and most importantly Why? And it has not been an easy road because I have found myself to be extremely complex. I have made many mistakes but these in particular have plagued me: I have hurt the people that loved me most. I have been cold to them and at times have showed little to no emotion or feeling toward them. My heart and mind tell me I love them but it has always been difficult for me to express it. Often times I feel like some sort of robot. I have a secret I have always wanted to get off my chest. I have had two abortions. When I wrote this on paper I told my secret and went no further. Before I started writing I saw that two of the bloggers I look up to as a sort of mother figure and teacher and have great respect for their wisdom (Ty and Obara) have gone through the same experience. And I said “OMG, is God bring mi here!” For years I have lived with this guilt and shame by myself because I never told anyone. I denied the first one to those who found out and kept the 2nd one a secret from everyone, including the father. Thank you to Obara and Ty for being open because it has taught me to be. My struggle has been with communicating what was in my heart and living in my truth. It has been a struggle having thoughts come to mind but my mouth just stayed shut. Preferring to opt for an “I don’t know” (habit from when I was a child and my sisters got in trouble, and mi neva waan rat dem out) and hide the fact that I did know what was going on. The truth is I have always been more observant than vocal. Choosing to speak only when it was absolutely necessary. But I held a lot of thoughts in so long that when they were expressed it was in anger. That last sentence was a perfect segue into what I want my family to learn from me. I want you all to learn to not bottle things up until they come out in anger, because the message almost always gets lost in the maylay. Be open to listen and observe more of the people, places and the things you are surrounded by, as everything is a learning experience.

My Water (I love water by the way. Yazz this was a great title for this section)
It is my prayer that I and those I am surrounded by lives in absolute truth, no matter how mucky that truth is. Owning all their negatives and developing them into positives. A line from Garnett Silk’s “Lord Watch Over Our Shoulders” pops in my head, “Let only truth come from my lips!” For a forgiving spirit and for the courage to not have people up in my heart. For the courage to trust in myself, my intuition, my gut, my guides, my ancestors and in the God that is leading me. For great understanding and respect for the universe and all that reside here on this plane. For the ability to reach a higher understanding, whatever that may be. For a boldness that will allow nothing and no one to prevent me from living my dreams and my truth. That my light will shine through and touch all those that surround me starting with my beautiful children. Amen! Ase! and all that good stuff.

From the bottom of my heart I love all of you. Thank you for bearing with my lengthy essay, but I since I am the newbie I feel I have more introducing to do. From this day forward I live, love, forgive, laugh, understand, respect and have the ultimate courage. I have more that I have written in regards to what all of you mean to me but I will share it at another time because that is another page and a half lol.

Love,

Sea Queen

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Thank you SeaQueen for sharing. What an incredibly powerful thing to share our fears and hurts as we have and to observe our similarities…Powerful seeds of : “Truth, Love, Respect, Compassion, Understanding, Courage, Laughter, and last but certainly not least forgiveness”. I know that they will be nurtured to full potential on this site and that we will all see the fruition “for the elevation of mankind” (OM)

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Sea Queen, I love you! We love you! As Ty says… Our regal and poised Queenie!! I’m so happy Obara and Ty went before you and that you pulled from their courage and pulled thru. Everything you pulled out if you and placed in this Our Obeah Spiritual Garden is what you needed to get out of you. I was toxic and needed to be expelled and as it was being sewn I felt your spirit become lighter…
We cried with you to have this energy expelled from you and we related to you on many of your struggles and mistakes and fell in love with what you watered your seed with! You are beautiful and resilient and honest and we stand with you in and behind as your family and your friend and as we journey on in our truth… We are and forever will be your strength and support…

We love you and respect your seed and we know your fruition will be profound. ((Hugs)))

Please send Obara yuh 4 page letter!!! Lol!

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Hey Yazz! Honestly, I haven’t bawl so much in a long time. But going through these comments just brings tears through your eyes. Sad tears for the struggle and happy tears for the breakthrough. It is a beautiful thing. Jah know mi feel light like a feather. It feels good to get that off my chest and even better to know you are not judged. Thank you again for this post…Ms. Alchemist (btw the name is fitting…your named after one of my favorite books)

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You guys have been through so much, yet you continue tobe here with us daily, giving jokes, encouraging each other and teaching. I applaud you for being so brave and honest.

I am thinking about sharing my story but its something I have to think carefully about. I will try to type it later

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Maniac tek yuh time sis! Nuh rush it.. Mek it expel pan it own time and nuh worry bout nutin! A we eenuh! We have yuh back and as your sis Nunu has stated… E are in support mode! We stand with you!

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Happy New Year too Maniac! We’re in support mode sis. No worries!

Maniac
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Happy New year to you alllll. Mi know mi late, but mi log on yessideh wid di intention fi blog away, but den mi houseguest came in and started talking to mi. Wi wuz dere fa hours an den meed affi leave.

Yazzy, Nunu, Ty, Yw, Toy, I read your comments and it really touched me to the core.

Oonu hold tight

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Maniac mi sweetie and sister!! Mi have nuffffff respeck fi yuh cah yuh done know u and Our Safo deh ya from day 1!!!!

Maniac weh nuh ramp fi shell dung di place!! Mi wah see yuh moreeeeese!!! Mi miss yuh bad!

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Lawd gawd unno a mek di I cry n di lash a lift up. Oh my how i love u all ♥♥♥ mi jus waa hug di whole a unno. I want add my obeah garden but tru mi deh pon vacay mi a try nuh guh ina di daak corners a mi mind. I cyaa tek di bawling right yah now eno cho man

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Kia!!! How di vacay going sweetie???

Kia, nu bada bawl off di yeye lash… Yuh aguh need it fi assist yuh in baxxin off di mosquita dem. lolololol. Ok sorry Kia mi get carried away! When anuh laugh mi a LMFAO den a bawl mi a BMFAO! (Bawlin my f*ckin ass off) suh is wid mi cah it mek mi feel like a mawd ooman sometime! 😀

Kia hurry back! And be safe and bawl Kia …bawl it out! Afta yuh nuh owe De Laurence!!! 😀

NuNu
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Love you too Kia! Wi will exchange di hugs and wait lol

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I applaud you all for having the courage to share pieces of your life,and leaving your soul open and not being afraid. Yw I salute you and your beautiful wife. ..hugs and love and light. Nunu you are so sweet and beautiful, and I am so glad you are here and I really do hope you know you are special. I have told you before that I am grateful, and I thank you from the bottom of my heart for what you did for me. You very muched loved here. We all love you Nunu. Mth I am so happy you were able to forgive your mother, and so happy you have made it. I know will you get everything you want. Love you all!

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Love you sweet Toy!! So humble and kind and sweet!

MTH
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Ty tek care, mi naah abuse the ppl dem computer. Suh until such time. Mi a guh lay dung and think on this post. It has stirred something deep in me. I am crying all over, mi nuh know how mi can bwal suh…

Yazzy
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M, di year stawt wi ALLL off a bawl out wi yeye balls! It’s an amazingly indescribable feeling.

NuNu
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Good luck to you Mth, mi glad yuh reach safe. I really hope your dreams come true and you achieve each goal you set for yourself this year

Ty
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Ok…sending you love, light and healing….wounds form a nasty looking scar before they reform new skin…so you too will…it’s been a rough last few weeks for you…rest up my pardy…

MTH
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YW mek Obara tan dey, she caan leff the blog, look how much mi a grow an a heal. I am pleased that in Obara’s absence we hold the fort. Mi know she will be so proud of us, bet yu any money shi a guh bwal..

Yazzy
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She cyah guh nuh weh M!!! And mi sure she did bawl fi chute! Lol

Ty
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Obara will be very proud..

Yazzy is our superstar alchemist….

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Ty love you! Thanks so much… You and Yw mek mi blush and mi nuh do suh well wid compliments eenuh but I’m learning to just accept it. Lol

Love unuh and thank you. it’s really Obara’s strength and y’all that I have pulled from.

MTH
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On Dec. 29, mi juss drap a farrin inna -24 deg temp. Mi nuh have nutten pan mi mind but battling the cold. i went to bed and dreamt that Beres Hammond told me that I am pregnant. I was receptive. However in this dream I had a partner and we both were happy. That’s why earlier I bwalled my eyes out when I saw YW stood beside Ty.

I wrote it down and put it out there in the universe that I would love to meet Beres Hammond and learn from him. That is my greatest wish for 2015…I love Beres Hammond (not in a sexual way) but he is the father I wished I had. I saw him speak about his daughter before in an interview and my respect for him went up 1 million per cent.

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MTH, mi gallie yuh deh farrin??? Raaaaaeeee mi hottaz!! Damn your year is looking great already boo!!! M, I worked with one of Beres Hammonds bestfriend and can possibly get you dat link you need fi reach out to him. He’s a good man. He’s now helping out his sisters that are both Ill and has been the backbone of his family.

MTH
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Ty mi chargie, mi did a type a little piece of my story. How yu duh darling…

Ty
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Doing well Mth, here with you all and getting my mind, body and spirit for the new year…

MTH
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My story is this…

I am MTH. My mother has 5 children and I am the last. My first brother grew with my God-parents, my second brother grew with is dad and the 3 girls grew together (first girl not for my father). So I only have one sister which we have both mom and dad in common…

My big brother is very very handsome. I have never seen his dad and I do not even know if he knows his dad. Growing up my mother loved her first son and her first daughter. No matter what id was D (my brother) and S (my sister)….

My parents separated when I was just about to go to high school. We (my sister W, my dad & I) were living in the country and my mom came and got W and I and took us to Seaview Gardens the Sunday before school open the Monday. The Monday she took us to the bus stop and showed us the way. I was 10 and coming home the first evening I got missed. I should have taken a 90b bus but I took a 90a. I had to wait until the bus returned to Down Town and got helped to find the 90b bus. Again going into Seaview Gardens all the houses looked the same. Again I felt lost and just rang the bell and as i was getting off gun shots started to fire. Me at 10 years old, motion sickness was killing me as I was frighten. I do not know how I found my way but I found my way. I now know it was my guides. Today, it is amazing how I can find my way around quite easily…

I knew i was a child, but somehow something did nt feel right, how could a mother just left her child to the elements. Since then I have not loved or can love my mother. Everything for her was D & S. D grew up, sold drugs got locked up, deported and the whole 100, yet my mother’s love is steadfast.

I guess my anger towards my mother stem from she shutting me out and loving the other children and not. I was always obedient and very quite, yet I was never good enough for her. I was angry when I would hear people refer to my big sister, stating how good she looked, she had breast, hips and bottom. my sister W was ‘brown’ and shaped good. I too looked really nice but no one complimented me.

I didnt even have a relationship with the guy who got me pregnant. He thought I liked him and he was the brother of the bad man in the area, so I ‘talked’ to him out of fear. I migrated on Christmas Day. On Christmas Day, I called my mother to tell her and she cried like a baby and said why I shut her out of my life etc. She then said I dont know why yu hate mi suh, I dont know wey mi duh yu but please forgive me…I was shocked hearing my mother crying and secondly hearing her asking for forgiveness. What I learnt on this blog enabled me to forgive her…There is so much more to my story, but alas, I will end it here. One thing I am grateful for is that I found comfort in my own company. I went to the movie/club/drinking all by myself..

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Good morning MTH! Thank you so much for being very raw and open and honest with us here in our Obeah Spiritual Garden. I for one have always always admired your strength babygirl! You ooze it. And at times you do look around for reassurance and that is totally fine. We are human and I do it ALLL the time but your resiliency has always been your core.

I love you ever since I got here. Hilarious, smart and just being you. You are our prefect and you know why! You are our best friend and sister. You have now inspired us here to look at forgiveness more and try to ease it into our lifestyle here and I do believe it is essential to our growth and as Ty and Ye and Obara has said… It’s possibly essential to karma. I remember Obara telling you here that your daughter you keep dreaming is trying to come but your love for your mom in the spirit world blocks it, knowing that in order for her to come your mom has to go and you paid the Karmic debt. I LOVED IT!!! These things are amazing… And are inhaled with wisdom..

We thank you for the seed of strength and resiliency and forgiveness that you have sewn here and as we fertilize it with your past hurt and pain… We know that your love and forgiveness will bring forth many amazing opportunities in your life. We love and respect you very much here and we stand with you in our garden and transfer our love and light to your seed. ASE!!

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Thank you Mth, for sharing. This piece that you have written here makes me think of the story of your life in the form of a book. Seriously, you should think about it. Argh! Di likkle one dem ah grab fi mi. Mi will ketch up wid unno!! Large up Mth

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Mth, even at 10 you had the strength of a lion…your story was inspiring and I know that you are even stronger now…forgiveness is an esteemed power that only a few have the strength and courage to possess and use…I admire your use of the power of forgiveness…

I wish for you and your family only the best, you deserve it…

Ty
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Mth, mi pardy, large up up up….so happy you here…how u a manage wid di cold weather?

MTH
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Nunu mi gal, mi a read and a bwal..YU si how mi can multi-task? Happy New Year baby girl…

NuNu
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Lol yes mumz. I understand where yuh coming from tuh M. Yes it definitely isn’t a coincidence cause bredda C struggle wid it tuh. But mi haffi seh God bless Ty and Yw relationship fi true. It really pleasing to the heart. What a beautiful thing!

Ty
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Thank you all…

MTH
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Lawd Jezam piece…Yazzy Dazzy yu a di boss…Thank you for this garden where we will all come and plant or purge…When I read YW ‘secret’ mi sey kakafawt. No wonder we are all connected. We have ‘big jobs’ and seem so intelligent at times but we all have our own share of insecurities, weakness etc…

YW your secret connected with me as I have said it before, I think I was a prostitute in a previous life and Toy said she feels she was the same way too. Obara wants/wanted to be a madam…You think we all came together by chance? No we all have something to give each other to help each other heal…Oh how much better I feel, knowing the ties that bind are strong and real. Who would have thought sometime as weird as a Obeah Garden could bring out so much out of each of us….

Yazzy, my darling, thank you for this post. Much love and light…

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I am reading the comments and lawks unno mek mi bwal. YW I have loved you from even before you started blogging when Ty asked if you could blog with us. Now more than ever I respect you and love you so much….It was reading your comments that something ignited in me….

All those dreams I have been having about having a baby, it always included a partner. I now know that what have been missing in my life is having someone to stand by me. YW, I wish you could feel the love pouring out of me…

Yazzy & Ty, I salute you both for your strength. I dont want to write more on what you have posted as my emotions are too raw. It is a known fact that I mentioned I had my first child at 14 so I could never judge you. I feel we have connected on so many levels. We each had had our little cross to bear. Thanking God for Obara and this space…

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Mth, funny ting is that I do feel the love coming from you. This whole post is full of love. I thank you and all who are here with us mind and spirit (or just spirit) for sharing and caring. Only love can release karmic bonds…what a way to transcend…as a group….OM, here it is; fruition of your work….

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Happy New Year M!

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Happy New Year everyone. I wish you all love, health, all your dreams coming through. I wish that all who are searching for love will find it. Teach, nuff respect to you and mr. Hazel eyes. Ty & YW respect maxium. Nunu, Yazzy, Cami, Kia, 19, AMH, Cgoh, every peeper every blogger, up, up, up, way up and stay up (which means good things)….Love and light as usual mi fambily…

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Mth, large up babygirl!! Love you sweetie!! Happy New Year to you and big and little M and papa M!!

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Mi cut fi mi.down an it still long.Mi not even re-read fi mek corrections. Mi just edit an brave up miself and send it

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Howdy do to my favourite bloggers; My ES fambo!( Yw word) My name is Nunulita, coming to you all live and direct. This isn’t easy for me to write because I do not like to talk about myself and I don’t like showing emotions( mi bawl easy sure enough but I do not like others to see all of that). 2014 was a tentative year for me and before planting my positive seeds. I would like to let go of past perception of what it means to be a success. Going forward, I know it will take some time because there’s always a process to achieving/creating, I want to be build a more confident me. Self confidence or the lack thereof can make or break a person, absolutely nothing works without it and one can never receive anything positive without exercising self worth. This is the year I do not want to limit myself. This is the year of starting over from scratch. I won’t lie I am afraid but at least this time, thanks in part to the things I’ve learned on this blog and the support of you bloggers, I won’t feel so alone. Growing up I was taught about prayers, angels etc. but everything felt so generic. I knew about the spirit world because I did learn about heaven, there was no connection. Being here as taught me that it’s not crazy to think that we interact constantly with non physical beings with names and personalities. Reading about eg.Ty’s and Maniac’s interaction with their grandmothers is just so beautiful to me. There is always immediate support even if it’s not in a physical body.I didn’t quite understand that, now I do. We know that our world is shaped by our circumstances and what’s happening around us and success is defined for the most part by what we have accumulated and what we do(career) and how much we have financially and at times who we know. So I started out with a goal in mind,not quite concrete, but a goal none the less and got thwarted on the journey in the worst way. Instead of moving forward I seemed to be going backward and embarrassment and shame did me in and my sense of self worth plummeted. I had little more than the clothes on my back and I got to the point where I couldn’t even look people in the eye anymore. When you’re at the point of saying (with and without words) to certain people, “Please I’m begging you…” can be humbling yes but it also can be humiliating. I’ve never said this to anyone ever but i had reached a point where I couldn’t take the strain mentally and I my world became very dark. I turned to physically harming myself.I was a cutter. I want to be honest, I told myself it was practice for that final cut. However I knew deep down that I didn’t want to die I just needed a change. There I was with the razor blade in my hand bawling my eyes out and I prayed “If there’s anyone out there who can hear me,help me please!” My brother called me the next day and gave me a message he got for me in a dream. Some time after A lady in white and she wore a wrap on her head came to me in a dream and talked to me and she said her name is Vee. I also reached out to Obara Meji and subsequently found you guys. I don’t think all of that was a coincidence.
So now my perception on life on a whole is changing and I want to water my garden with hope and strength, light and laughter. I want to build compassion and empathy and give love because one can never give too much of that. Having the ability to choose can be a beautiful thing. We are stronger than our nasty circumstances and we all have to ask the question and make that decision, “what life will I choose to lead?”
I pray that we choose to lead fruitful lives and not just in terms of financial success. I pray that our obeah gardens and this is speaking to the garden of the mind as well blossom and yeild beautiful flowers and fruits and not be overun by weeds and pests. I know negative will come to challenge us and help us to learn but help us to surround ourselves with positive people and positive beings who will help us to till our soil and plant fruitful trees that we may find/develop and give the best of ourselves that we and other may enjoy for years to come

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Nunu my sis you have been like my twin here!! I love you on a different level. It’s like I know you personally but I know we’ve met in spirit.

Nunu it took me a while to respond to your post because it crippled me in a different kinda way!! I had to soak up allll that hurt! Nunu I love you. I love your brother and your mom. Nunu I’m so happy you cried out to the universe and petitioned to the elders to come to your rescue. NUNU!!!! I’m so very privileged to have you in my life. My sister and my friend! The thought of having not met you…. it took me sometime to get over that.

We judge you not. We just love and embrace you sis and we stand with you in our spiritual garden and we gather all your burdens you’ve dropped here and we carry your cross over this soil and we use it to fertilize our soil. We thank the universe that you were tested and tried but came out victorious.

I love how you made that success speech!!!! Sis I here for you from now!! Mi nuh cyah bout yuh pass… is di dutty darkness did a try yuh but your light was way too strong and bright.

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Man Yazzy yuh have up in my feelings right now. I do declare I do not like facing my feelings but as you said you have to just let some things out so we don’t have to walk around with it anymore. I love you too Yazz,I really do. A lot of what you guys face mi nuh tink mi coulda pass it a claat mi nah lie! That’s why when mi read Obara experiences and fi unoo own, mi respect unoo to the max. I draw from the strength and light you guys give. That’s why I say that I have to take courage and face life instead of cowering from it because unoo doing it. Yup respect to the max!!!

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Thank you NuNu. We are here with you and I personally have/do struggled with perceptions of success. Ultimately though, as you said, it takes us to the ideas of self worth and how we define ourselves and what is important to us (instead of what society dictates to us)…I applaud you for the growth that I have witnessed in you and marvel as you go through your metamorphosis becoming New New (sorry, couldn’t resist). Keep breaking down those social conforms and giving me the chance to reflect upon my self and attain greater enlightenment. 2015 ah guh rock!!!

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Thank you brother Yw. I appreciate that mi breddrin. Mi like the New New tuh,a serious ting! I was afraid of being honest with myself much less for writing it down for others to see but I admire the ES family’s strength and if you all can do it so can I.

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Hugs Nunulita….I love that name by the way….this is your year….you WILL be successful and have abundance…..you will manifest your dreams….and you have everyone of us to support you and lift you up…I pray for you daily…your ancestors are with you and they will never let devastation come to your doors…I sent love, light and healing to you my sweet sister…we here are only a few clicks away…come here and unload your worries…no judgements because we love you….

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Ty, I too am in Love with her name!!! Nunu ANYONE you need us… yuh link Obara privately and mek she know! Like seriously sis!

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Thank you Ty that means alot to me; I look forward to coming here. I appreciate and love you too

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My babygirl NUNU!!!!! I just don’t know what to say my sister!!!!!!!

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Nunu it’s ok! We all feel this way but yuh nah tek it back and we nah gi it back to yuh. A Obeah wi deh ya a wuk eenuh… wi need yuh sh*t fi mek fertiliza! Di negatives neva want wi gi know seh there is a place for it inna wi life but wi fin’ it out and it tink it have wi a way but tideh wi a show it seh we have di final say, abayyyy!!!

Hugs mi sis!! I respect you! You inspire me!

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Yazzy I feel weird about admitting to that but mi cyaan tek it back yah now

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Yazzy, thank you for our spiritual garden. Ty and Yw love and light. You two are such a beautiful couple. Nunu mi a wait fi read yours. I know it will be beautiful. I will be back later everyone. I am going to handle car business.

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Thank you for your kind words, Toy.

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Good morning Es fam! Thank you Yazz, Toy,Ty and Yw. This is a great and refreshing way to start the new year. Thanks again Yazz for the suggestion and Obara for the forum. I’ve written and rewritten mine on paper. I appreciate everyone’s honesty

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Happy New Year Nunu and Toy!! Love you both and thank you as well. We are all here for each other and big ups to our sweet Obara Meji for this forum that connected us all!

Nunu I’ve had to also write and rewrite and thank goodness it was first done on paper as I lost everything I typed up as soon as I was thru!! I appreciate every ones honesty and openness! Love you all!

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OK. Hi, I am Yw and my aim to become the best version of myself in this lifetime. I am and will be forever grateful to all on ES for their contribution in my spiritual development. I am thankful for those that I have disliked or have “wronged” me in the past because they too have helped me along my journey.
Hang on to your britches now… My secret is that I had a…porn addiction. Yes, friends it is true. What is that unsettling feeling going on in me? Did you all feel it before sharing? HA!! That is the fear of judgment that we are releasing…Now, to some that may not seem like a big secret but when the WHY of a behavior is explored that is when we start to discover things that may have or have been ailing us. I thank you again, Yazzy, for giving me the chance to face my fear of being judged…Love and light to all.

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Yw!!!! Our brother!!! And inspiration!!

Thank you sooo much for the seeds you have sewn here today!!! You are already the better version of yourself and the best is yet to come!!!

Yw!! I felt the sameeee way!!! It’s like omg!! What am I doing … Don’t let it out! But I was determined to just get that shit outta me and not to give it energy but to show it that it can no longer hold me hostage! All this time I thought I was being judged but how could I have been …. no one knew. But you are right Yw! The fear of being judged started messing me up but we did it!!!! We faced our fears and we put it behind us!! I felt so much better!!

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Yw, stay prayerful a fi wi year dis fi di taking!! Wi a elevate wi self spiritually!!

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Luther: “Love has truly been good to me…” So much love to start the year. How can I not be grateful? How can this start not motivate me to improve. Yazzy this is our (all on ES) year!!!

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Obara, my Obara Meji, wherefore art thou? hehehe, from last year I don’t hear from you. How yu does? Wha mi do yu? Yw, is suh yu really ah go start the 2015? Yes…Best to you OM and the entire ES fambo, crew, and fans!!!

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As I am surrounded by the light and love of you all and so I draw your collective energies….I now have the strength to plant my Obeah Garden….smoothies Yazzy.

My name is Ty….I was sanctioned a bastard by pastors and Christians alike because I was born out of wedlock…I was born into a very strong family but because my mother was not the one chosen for my dad, I was not accepted as I should…I struggled with abandonment issues all my life and so never felt worthy…when my parents then migrated and left me alone on my beautiful island alone at 15, my fears were realized…I however had to gather all the strength I had to go to school, study, and stay out of trouble…it was God, my guides, my Orishas, and my ancestors that brought me through unscathed…I now know why my grandmother chose to die when I was 7, so that she could watch over and protect me….iba grandma, the purest spirit I know, I love you….

I wanna plant a seed of love, forgiveness, understanding, enlightenment, hope, prosperity, freeness of spirit, and walking full on on fat hand love of God….

I too am human and have made many mistakes. I embrace my path and know that I will continue to work to be the best version of me…. My secret I have always wanted to just get off my chest that I had an abortion….I have struggled with feeling of guilt and regrets….the catholic and Christian up bringing made made lived thinking I was going to hell and that I would be continually punished…. I felt ashamed, weak, and evil…I felt like a murder…I know know better…it took a while and some days those feelings still resurface….I am not endorsing abortions and saying that all will be forgiven…but I can understand when you feel as if you have no other choice and do so…some of these were contracts written in our plans with others who needed to return to the earth realm for short periods of time to fulfill their wheel….

Olodumare, my creator and creator of the universe, I thank you…nothing happens without you and even though I had hard times, I never suffered devastation…I learnt many lessons and continue to do so…I am now better equipped to call on you, my ori, my egungun, my Orishas, my guides, and the universal forces…I thank you for my many reincarnations and strive to make this current journey count…I am ascending and want to be off the wheel of life…

I am grateful for you all my Esp family…I know my seeds to our Obeah garden will resonate and help to brighten another…I pray for the world, humans, my family, my spiritual family, and me….I am a little spot in the billions that inhabit this world but I am loved by the mighty God…

Thank you Yazzy, I love you! I send love and light from the every fiber of my being…I am grateful for you, even with these tears today… I love you Yazzy…I thank you!!

Fellow students of the Obara Meji Etheral Institute, may 2015 be your year…my your desires be manifested with no harm or devastation…May your obeah garden flourish…may your light shine brighter…May you love deeper..love unno

Ase!!!

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Our sweet sweeeeeeeeet Ty!!!!!! My sister!! Our sister!!!! I stand firmly with you and your husband and the seed you have sewn here today!!!!!! I am very proud of you!!! I love you so much and I know you not! You are the sweetest spirit here.

Ty!!!!! I cry out your name as I cry with you to the universe!! It was only here that I have learnt that when plagued with abandonment issues as children it for us we are set aside and are chosen and it was necessary for our spiritual development!

TY YOU ARE LOVED HERE!!!!!! We can’t explain or express how much but you are CELEBRATED HERE!!! as I stand in our Obeah Spiritual Garden with you and you hubby and the energy of all our ESP spirits here of you other brothers and sisters, send our love and our light to your secret and we know that the universe has taken control of this and has made it a positive light for you in your life and the lives of others here. We embrace you with warmth and love and acceptance and rejoice in the the wisdom of Olodumare and the Orishas and the spirits and elders and your beautiful grandmommy whom has blessed you with your twin flame, YW, and have shown you that LOVE heals and overcomes alllllll!!! You are blessed with two amazing babies that you can look into there eyes and see yourself and your egunguns. You are an amazing mommy and there are no questions asked! The love you and your hubby have was made in the heavens and gifted to you both and I am blessed to witness and feel such love. We respect you both here!!

I felt every emotion you expelled and your tears were need for the garden sis… And you will harvest what was sewn!! ASE!!! I love who you are in spirit! You are never alone! Forever I stand with you! ASE!!! Love you!! Love and light my Ty!!

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My lovely, beautiful wife…I am with you and stand by you more than you may ever know…I choose to say this publicly on ES because I cannot ignore your written words from fear of seeming sappy or fear of trying to seem more than I AM. Many times we (or maybe me) refrain from saying things to avoid a possible argument or to uphold privacy but positive thought patterning suggests that those moments are also opportunities to become closer…and what could be more rewarding than attaining that……that thought in my head of a level of closeness so deep and pure; so unrestrained that we feel truly uninhibited WITHIN each other. I AM with you always. These words are true by the laws of light and love and by the judgment of the divine spirit and consciousness of truth. Ase…

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Yw, mi swear you a di bess!! Cry Yw! Cry! Wi de ya fi hug yuh! Nu badi cyah judge yuh cah yuh a di real definition of a man as wi nuh care bout nubadi thought ps pan it otherwise. You are perfect for Ty.. And when you are this expressive you are becoming your best self! We embrace it and we embrace you! Yuh sista dem Obara and Cami soon come fi gi yuh more hugs! But cry Yw!! Afta yuh nuh owe De Laurence!!

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YAZZY, is cry yuh is gwen mek mi cry fi di New ‘Ear? Weh Obara? Weh Cami? Mi haffi hug somebody….aright…unno feel it… Hugs for Yazzy, OM, Cami, Ty, Mth, Toy, Kia B, Nuns, Cass, Maniac. Sa-Fo, Courtney, AMH, everybody, everybody…..mi ah get carried away now: hug fi Nile, Cgoh, ShawneyRob, 19, etc….is like Maddy, Maddy cry in here…

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Yw, thank you soooooo much for being such a MAN!! Ever since you walked in here we all fell in love with the strength of a man that you expel but the purity and kindness of a beautiful spirit. We love you for standing with your wife!! It’s the most beautiful thing in this life Yw!!! To be standing with her in flesh but also in spirit and as beautifully put as you have said it… ” a level of closeness so deep and pure; so unrestrained that we feel truly uninhibited within each other” I LOVE the indivuals you are… But I LOVE YOU BOTH MORE TOGETHER!!! The ying to the yang!!

Thank you for spiritually and mentally holding your wife, our Ty, thru this process… You are indeed who we have taken to be… And some!

Love you both!!! This Obeah Spiritual Garden would not be complete without a LOVE LIKE THIS!!! ASE!!!

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Hi my name is Toy7318. I want to thank Obara for giving us this platform, and sharing and dedicating so much of herself with us. I know she says will stop blogging at times. I hope she never does. The only way she stops blogging if she is on a book tour.

I want to sew seeds of knowledge to be able to be give my children the duplicate set of keys, so it shall be passed down from generation to generation.

Olodumare I come with much thanks that we all have made it through the year with health and strength. I pray that you continue to keep us peaceful when there is time of despair, because with you our orishas, ancestors, and spirit guides, we shall not fear. You have been with us and have always stood firm on our behalf. Obara and family I am glad that I was able to make it to 2015 with you all and hope to share many more New Year’s with my new found family. Much love Happy New Year to all of you. You all have the sweetest souls on the planet!

Ase!

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Ase!!

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Ase!!!

And so shall it be, from everlasting to everlasting…

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ASEE!!!!!!

Toy, I love the seed you have sewn here today and we stand with you and transfer our energy of love and light into your seed so that your children will obtain the knowledge that this duplicate set of keys will open up to them! We claim it into fruition and thank Olodumare and the spirits and all that is good that will ensure that this seed is harvested in its time! ASE!

We love you toy and thank you for gardening with us in Our Obeah Spiritual Garden! ASE!

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Yazzy my obeah garden coming…wid di clean, up bun out, altar, candles, and prayers today…I could not write mine but I will…plus your garden give me the courage to do mine…

Thank you Yazzy, our alchemist…

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Ty, thanks again m sweetie! Please take your time. I know mommy duties and the holidays are upon you and it’s no rush whatsoever! I LOVE how you spent your day with your hubby and the boys just a bun out and a clean and a pray and a do up di altar and alllll dese tingz! love it!!! That’s what it’s about right there Ty! I love it!

I’m happy I’ve given all of you the courage to go complete your Obeah Gardening as I was Obara Meji that I has given me the courage to even be present here and the platform to have my voice heard… Thank you sweet O!

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Obara you would be so proud fi see me wid mi bell…me, hubby and the kids ring in the new year literally ….we ring dat bell…lol…

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Wi proud a yuh and yuh fam Ty and Yw. We love how it’s done a one unit and that the household values are equally grounded. It’s beautiful

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Happy new year everyone!

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Happy New Year Ty and Yw!!!

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Happy New Year ES fam!

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Happy New year Nunu! Love you Chica!!

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HAPPY NEW YEAR MY SWEETIES!!!!

Lets kick off our OBEAH SPIRITUAL GARDEN!!

My name is Yazzy. I am absolutely grateful and privileged to be here. My entire life has been a roller coaster ride and had I not been led here by my amazingly strong ori I would not have learnt that a balance is needed in this life and that the innocence of a man’s heart and his soul is plagued by evil and that things aren’t always as they appear. I am known here as the straight jacket student that is always LMFAO or saying the most hilarious things but I wanna introduce a new side of me that has surfaced as a result of being here. It’s a more spiritual Yazzy. I am in love with the energy it feeds my mind, body, soul and spirit. I am in love with the way it forces me to discern. I am in love with the energy it pulls towards me as well as the energy I expel. I am in love with the eyes it allows me to “see” the beauty in and around me in the vast universe. I am in love with Olodumare. I am in love with the Orishas, my spiritual guides, my spiritual mentors, my spiritual family, my egunguns, my elders and my Ori. I AM FILLED WITH A LOVE I WILL NEVER BE ABLE TO EXPLAIN AND SUM THAT LOVE UP TO BE THE ALL – OLODUMARE. I have found my identity here thru my deity Obatala and I thank Esu for his brilliance in aligning that destiny. I thank Orunmilla for baring witness.

I wanna sew seeds of Health, Love, Courage, Honesty, Humility, Peace, Prosperity, Knowledge, Gratitude, Determination, Resiliency, Hope and Light. I wanna sew a seed towards our spiritual school. I wanna sew a seed towards a beautifully peaceful place I can call home. I wanna sew a seed towards the spiritual emancipation of my mind and the minds of those whom I hold dear. I wanna sew a seed for my ancestors, my spiritual guides, my Orishas, my spiritual mentors, and my deity so that their energy can be strengthened to assist me in this life and the lives of my children to come. I wanna sew a seed towards my child whom I wait upon to shower in my love and whose eyes I am eager to look into. I wanna sew a seed towards my husband whom I wait upon. I love and respect you and wait upon Orunmilla and Obatala to bless you and align us and our union. I wanna sew a seed for each of my ESP family and our silent bloggers who are here with us in spirit and who all congregate here for love, light, knowledge and humor which only great spirits can recognize. I wanna sew seeds to enforce that our lights will never dim. I wanna sew a seed for all whom are ill and weary. For all who are broken, betrayed, abused and forgotten, I wanna sew a seed for you all.

I have made many mistakes but these in particular have plagued me;
-Not trusting what I did not recognize at the time to be my ori.
-Allowing myself to be used by men that I knew were no good for my spirit but wanting to feel loved I defied my head.
-Not spending enough time with my granddaddy before he passed.
***I think I have them buried sooo deep they don’t wanna resurface***
-Blaming myself for the abuses of another towards me.
-Not allowing myself to let go of the pain and the hurt and crippling myself with it.
-Not allowing myself to be truly happy and thinking I don’t deserve it.
I have a secret I have always wanted to just get off my chest that I have hurt someone innocent. I was very young and knew it was wrong but to a certain extent. There’s no room for excuses but perhaps I only acted out what I was going thru or what was being done to me. I ask for their forgiveness and I also ask the universe to forgive me. My other secret which I realllllly have buried and will just go ahead and rip it out of me without fear of being judged for I neeeed it out!!! Is that I have been kidnapped four times and subsequently the last led to me being raped and those ordeals compiled with the sexual abuses of my father and brother have left me like an on again, off again, damaged goods for a long time. I have been a train wreck to myself sometimes. Though I am filled with so much love to give, I struggle with the fear of being in the presence of men and of being with them, intimately. I am constantly on edge and very awkward. I believe that as a result of my past sexual abuses I have struggled with not what I call promiscuity but rather salacious types of sex when I am in relationships. I read a post here by our sweet Obara where she explained that certain sexual acts can break and conquer the benevolence and strength of character we naturally have and that having someone sexually degrade us is actually also degrading our genuine spirit, and our guardian angel that we came here to earth with and that when we allow the flesh to do this we are inevitably killing our spirit and that we do that by allowing the acts of degradation to stop the evolution of our guardian angel.

Olodumare, here I have sewn my seeds into this OUR OBEAH SPIRITUAL GARDEN. You know my heart and my thoughts, you whom we cannot describe but whom we feel. You whom are with us always. You who are mighty and powerful and all knowing and forever present. You whom loves us unconditionally and have provided for us, the universe and all there in to look after us. You who allows the bad and the good to visit our lives so that we can experience your wonders, your knowledge, your glory, your presence and your love. We call upon your energy. We call upon the Orishas you strategically allowed to cared for us. We call upon our egunguns that you allow to continuously interact and protect us. We call upon our elders and all that is good that can see and feel our light and our energy and we pray that it is pulled from the benevolence we expel into the universe right now! We concentrate our love and light upon our Obeah Spiritual Garden and we thank you that we have garnered the bad to balance the good we sew. We claim fruition and harvest of each and every seed sewn here. We pull from our negative excretions its energy and we know that thru our powerful love, light and positive thoughts, we can and will manipulate and transfer that energy of our negatives and use it as a spiritual fertilizer for our soil here. We cry out in gratitude with complete open hearts and minds and in oneness and we are confident that our crying hearts are heard. We know that healing can never happen unless something is broken. Likewise, we know that we can’t understand love lest we have felt or seen hate and with that we are in awe of your profound wisdom Olodumare. You know all the cards and all the moves. You who knew we needed the darkness lot the night so that we could appreciate the light of the moon and that of the sun. You are with us even now. The spirits are with us even now. With these tears of love and gratitude we water our garden. We exhale the negatives of our past right now and we inhale the beauty of its lessons. We acknowledge your wisdom though we may not understand it!! We gather here not in vain but for a change. We gather here not in doubt but with hope that all we have sewn will be harvested and in your time!!

We thank you!!! We thank you!!! We thank you!!! ASEEEE!!!!!

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Thank you for sharing, Yazzy. Now everyone should understand why I call you Superstar…It takes a true strength, courage, and regard for you to share what you have just shared. I am in admiration of you…In fact, you have inspired me to share as well (in a different post, though) and others also, I’m sure. I ask that showers of love wash away any fear or negative thoughts on you and nourish your roots. I pray that rays of positive light bathe soul and nurture your spiritual growth and upliftment. 2015 is not another year, it is THE year and I thank you Yazzy for starting me out in such a way. Love and light for always……

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Yazzy Spazzy you brought tears to my eyes. That was so beautiful!

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Toy babygirl! Thank you my love! You are so beautiful … I love your spirit. So sweet!! Happy New Year!

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ase!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Yazzy…my sister…I love you and admire you…you are so strong and beautiful….I am happy to call you family…I respect you more than words can say….

I will always be here for you … Mi will reach fi ” bitch ” anytime…and I can fling a bottle or stone on target wid mi left or right hand…

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Ty, I love you so very much! When you speak to me I always dis stawt bawl uncontrollably. Ty yuh Obeah ‘TRANG! From mi lan here is you fuss greet mi and mi spirit dis instantly latch on to yuh. You have an amazing spirit. It’s very comforting and pure… I can’t describe it but yuh trang and talented babygirl!

Ty, thanks so much for your support and your kind words. Second to our sweetie Obara it was you who opened my eyes on Obeah and how beautiful it can be. You’ve been ever so honest and knowledgeable and just amazingly humble and sweet and if mi nuh see yuh ya fi a day mi bex! Yuh presence strong and is a staple here. Both you and you amazing hubby Yw!

Tank yuh fi always have “bitch” ready and willing! Yuh daddy did know bout! Kip di bakkle dem and di stone cah see a tinkin duppy deh guh try haunt mi weh night and wi might need dem tings deh fi di new year!

Happy New Year Ty and Yw and di lil ones!!

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No worries Yazzy you know seh wi nuh judge over here like that and di mumzy seh fi tell unoo seh in her spirit shi embrace all of you over here

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Thanks boo!! Tell Mumzy seh wi weh love har from white ganzy and two piece days when wi a travel love har and embrace har very strong and motherly spirit LONGTIME!!

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Wow Yazz, this was beautiful and honest thank you. I’ll stand in agreement with you that you’ll receive all you desire and I’m happy and grateful for all the knowledge and positivity that you’ve acquired. I was contemplating wether to let some of the things I’ve put into my blog stay but because you were honest, I’ll do the same. Love you chica!♥♥♥

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Happy New Year Cas!! Thanks so much!! Please take the time to reflect and guh garden! You’ve been missed here and should return!

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Nunu, my sis, thank you so much …I struggled for hours to complete my gardening and tore up a million times over and battled with myself on wether I wanted to be so vulnerable and honest but I got thru it ONLY when I visualized you all aligning your energies with mine.

I wanna take this time to shout out Obara Meji, whom, though we have shortly met (in this life), has been the most influential person in my life for the year 2014!! And while writing this piece was not easy… I thought of how you have been so raw and open and honest while blogging all these years!! I am confident you are a better person today because of what you’ve been thru and because of you deciding not to lay down and die but to get up and fight and live. You took to your blog and creates what you thought would just be an outlet and I am sure you never saw coming what has now arrived which is the fruit of the spirit … You’ve transferred so much of your love a d light and humore and talent into this space that it has become contagious and uncontainable! I love you not just because of what you do… But because of who you are! You have stood firm in your in your words that you walk in the light and I knew you did because your light it what I first saw when I first met you and everything played it self out, accordingly… Now you have brought a dramatic change into my life and my lifestyle and I thank Olodumare for your benevolence and I now see why you are chosen. It had to be you Obara… It had to be you!

I love! I love you! I love you! And I’m forever grateful our paths have crossed and mi nah let yuh guh!! Same can be said for all my ESP family here! Bwouy mek a stop it now before mi foods out wi garden wid tears!

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Happy New Year Cass!

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Wow! Yazz what you write today was beautiful!thank you for that.Going to do mine. I know it been a while.I just want to take the time to wish everyone Happy new years.obara Meji do not think I forget about you love you alway happy new years to you and your family’s.

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All the best for the New Year yah!!!

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ALLL the best Kia boo!!! It’s New Years!

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I’m writing my piece now and it mek mi feel funny in ma tummy

Yw
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Maybe you want to use the potty. Ah joke, ah joke. Is likkle fear dat, tek yuh time and go as far as you feel comfortable. Like Yazsters say: We are with you.

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My sweetie Nunu, if that’s how it makes you feel then you are doing something right! You’re touching on something that needs to get out! I felt the same way writing my piece and tore up several times. You can do it sis! I’m very proud of you. We need that feeling… Whatever it is you’re feeling in your tummy we need that energy to put it in the garden!! (((We are with you)))

I envisioned myself with you all and you giving me moral support and spiritual energy as I gardened… Even when I felt vulnerable I forgot about what the world would think and focused in the undenying love and support I had here and it got me thru… (((We are with you)))

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I like that rendition Ty. Thank you so very much.

Ty
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Happy New Years Obara!!!

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Good afternoon everyone. Good post Yazzy Dazzy. I will reflect and write mine.

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Prefect MTH, Happy New Year mi sweetie!! And thanks!

Yes plz tek di time fi reflect and write and mi know yuh always kip it real.

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Tidrah, big up Mth!!!

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Yazzy yaz 😀 thanks for ur post. I will complete it asap . Miss unno!! Obaraaaaaaaaaaa ♥

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Kia Hottaz tek yuh time love. I know you will.. Kisses

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Hellooooooooooo fambly i whole hearted agree with bredda YW…When I first came to ES I noted a bit of hurt and pain on all the Fambo. I THANK YOU. Now, I see a bit of healing on us all. I THANK YOU to all my ES family. We have begun a healing process while awakening. Mi a tear up. This was one hell of a year but i thank Olodumare, my ancestors, my family, my frens, my guides, n my Orishas. Yu all have helped me in many undescribable ways. I came here broken n torn, not knowing what i would learn on this journey. Obeah?! Reada ooman?! Orisha?! Poco jumping?! I couldnt even began to understand how i reached this blog but here i am learning not to fear all that ive been taught was wrong. Im learning it loving it n living it.
Wishing yu all a safe New Year when it comes. ♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥

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Kia cry it out babygirl! Happy New Year and be safe where you are and hurry back home to us! I too agree with Yw that we whom have found this outlet, first arrived broken and torn but with the constant flingin and dashing a di Obeah love and di Obeah light here…. Thought done on a small scale, never knew what would hit us. If i were not convinced before, I am convinced, on this day, the first og January, 2015, that Obeah can be an amazingly beautiful thing if as Obara has mentioned above, done with love and light and great positive intentions.

I will therefore be embracing this way of life more moving forward without fear of judgment as my spirit has connect with this lifestyle and tradition on a deeper level than I could have imagined! I have conformed to the ways of my legacy…. ASE!

Obara I think you for all you have taught us here and I will be utilizing the knowledge for good. Please continue to put your remarkable efforts and intentions in it for it has surely been paying off. I cant wait for our school to come!

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KIA-B, love and light, mi sister. May 2015 bring you all your hearts’ desire…

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Sweeties thank you so much for taking the time out to get our Obeah Spiritual Garden going for 2015.

I have some time to myself and will now use it to reflect and be thorough in my gardening process. There’s no need to rush. This will not be about numbers. Today is the last day of the year and we must demand some alone time to reflect upon the year and to give thanks for coming this far. This is a spiritual exercise which will require energy and light and we must give it our undivided attention and treat it with reverence (as we would our meditation or prayers or any spiritual act). Most importantly, lets be honest with our selves.

I can’t wait for us to begin! The format/ layout is above …

Love you all!

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Yazzy I will be back later. I post it when I come back or should I wait until 11:59 pm

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Toy, that’s ok my love. It can be done when you have time… No stress on the time… No deadline. It just requires your energy and love and light. So when you have an hour or even 30 mins to spare … Thanks love!

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My babygirl Obara!! Thank you soooo much! Good afternoon all my sweeties. I’m sorry I’m late. I was moving and sorting a few things out but I’m all situated now!

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I will Obara. I just have to take the time to reflect, so I don’t forget anything I want to jot down. Im at work now so my brain deh pon 10 lol. I do not have an altar as yet, any ideas on how I should begin to make one.

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Chinny318, I think this is our Queenie. A dis wi fi call yuh now sweetie?? Yuh tun chinny pan wi?? J/k

I’m very pleased you have decided to take some alone time to reflect so that you don’t miss anything. This is, afterall, a healing process for you and though we share openly, it’s geared to work on what are dealing with and what you have decided you don’t wanna deal with anymore. Thanks for the effort sweetie. Take your time…

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lol yes yazzy chinny318 is me. I was shopping in another tab and typed in another user name by accident lol. I will still go by Sea Queen on here, naah switch!!

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Big up Chinny….

Ty
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Welcome Chinny, we love having you here…love and light…

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Yazzy I love this! I had taken down my alter largely because I had gone away but I’m going to find a suitable place for it and place the affirmations on it

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Nunu boooo! Thanks so much sweetie. Get ya thoughts together and let’s do this!

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Mi mumma mi miss all a dat!!! All Yw drop een,mi not even did memba who name suh ( a joke mi deh mek breddrin).

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NuNu,nuh worry, mi deh ya fi di 2015 suh yuh naw go able fi figat mi. Get yuh pen an slip dem ready 😉

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Good Morning hunny buns!! I haven’t got to read the post in full as yet but from what I have glimpsed it seems like such a wonderful idea for the new year. Though I have not read the post in its entirety I just felt the need to comment on what spoke to me. I love it! Obara I will have to say it is very big of you to share the platform with your students, it shows what KIND of person you are. With sharing comes growth. And by sharing, our spiritual gardens are bound to grow! ASE!

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Large up SeaQueen honey!

Toy
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Hey Ty… Yw longtime no see

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Hey Toy, is time mi his giving NuNu fi rest her ‘and from writing out detention…but Mi think har hand well rested now heehee

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Morning Obara I have you are feeling better. Morning ES family. Yazzy I love this post

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Love and light Toy. Thank you sweetie.

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Positive seed for Yw: attain the highest level of spiritual enlightenment open to me so as to affect change in the world as is my obligation as a human being.
Work on for Yw: overcoming fears of…spiders…no,no joke..hmm…this is a tough one…work on understanding the concept forgiveness, it’s effects on karma, looking at circumstances of life as experiences… More specifically, giving 100 percent of me to those around me with no regard or fear of being hurt.

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Yw, thanks so much for sewing your positive seeds. I believe you have already begun to affect the world… You do it one person at a time and we can all attest to how you already done that here…. Keep on ya spiritual journey mi doops!

I love that you will be trying to work on the concept of forgiveness and its effects on Karma. We would love to hear more of your thoughts on this as it reveals itself to you. Thanks for being honest about your fears and we stand with you in assisting on their demise.

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SUPERSTAR Yazzy!! This is an amazing post…If I am correct, the alchemist transmutes energy from one form to another. Healing on this scale is the aim on a universal conscious level. As we (all who are open to this, whether blogger, peeper, friend, family, or foe) transcend our burdens of fear, bitterness, and the like we are simultaneously 1. becoming Magicians who create their reality 2. affecting the karmic cycle/becoming karmically responsible and 3. coming closer to embracing our true form or our spirit. LOVE to you and to the whole ES crew. Know that this is true and re will no longer be blue…..sorry…went off there for a it

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Yw, Happy New Year. I wanna take the time to thank you for your contribution here! I am so very excited to hear yuh seh yuh de ya back again for it alll started with you and your post dem and your way of thinking and your very strong Orunmilla presence and spirit. I love you and Ty and mi cyah stop seh how mi love and admire unuh union! It was a brilliantly joint flame of love and intelligence and humility!

Yw, when you speak…. I listen. Plz nuh mek di year stawt wi suh… Try deh ya regula! Yuh mek Teach very happy and Cami and Nunu get fi pass out slip cah yuh know nuh badi else nuh misbehave fi she pass out none and she need di likkle hexcitment man. Plz conjure up more of your brilliant thoughts and come dash it pan wi! Thanks in advance…

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Yazzy, I thank you for all your kind words and thoughts. I’ll keep it short here to post longer under your garden. Love and light, Superstar.

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Yw!!!! Large up wi Bredda!! Yuh know yuh Kingly presence is missed and always needed.

Yw
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Me been did ah miss Unno too… Big up superstar!!

Ty
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Nine, please come back…long time we no see you…

Ty
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Mi mean 19, Lawd, a so suh long I no see you, me forget di one…

Anyway, come back…we miss you…

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19 big up!! We know yuh well taken care of!!! Mi happy fi yuh boss!!! Happy New Year and gwaan hol’ some strong medz and hurry back!!

Ty
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Happy New Years to any peepers who see 2015 already…

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Happy New Years to all our peepers and I hope you will come forth this year and blog with us. Our family here are living testimonies of this amazingly knowledgeable and fun filled blog that our very own Obara Meji Chinn has created and we embrace you all upon your arrival!

This particular exercise, our Obeah Spiritual Gardening is nothing to fear but rather to release your fears and use it as energy to forge ahead. We love you all for your continuous peeping and hope we have been a blessing to anyone that needed to see a comment a certain comment or post to get them thru a situation or just to get them thru their day!

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Happy New Years Charles!!!

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Yes Happy New Years to Charles and Obara in Africa!

Ty
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Happy 2015 Obara !!!

Ty
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My obeah garden will have likkle candles, incense, ase, and bell ringing…..all pon my altar….lol

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Ty mi know seh when you and Yw ready fi so up unuh altar it tun up eenuh! Yes mami all a dat an more affi run your ting!

Ty
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This is a must do…

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Ty this is a must do sis! It’s very empowering…

Ty
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This is an amazing way to start 2015….

Yazzy you are an alchemist….what you have taught us here is to transfer energy and to create ….we love you…

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Awwwww that ms so much Ty!! I love you too! I thought this would be an amazing way for us to essentially “OBEAH” each other!

Ty
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Yaaaaaaaaazzzzzzzzzyyyyyyyyy……

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