Once upon a time, I use to have horrible stomach aches. I would wake up in the mornings around 6 am and cry for my belly. I had no idea what was wrong with me.The pain was almost excruciating, and it never moved,the pain stayed one place, Like Queen Elizabeth’s royal guard dem, creating my own hell.
It was almost three times per week or more that this happened to me, and mostly during the mornings. I would drink tea, most Caribbean people associated belly ache/stomach pains with the dreaded gas ( nuff time ah heart attack de people dem ah have and Jamaican people bawl out “Ah Gas man, gi him some tea deh!). I would use some over the counter medications, but to no avail, de pain nuh budge like cheap weave hair caught in high winds.
Nothing helped. It had to leave by itself. This was many years ago, and I was awakened but not an initiate as yet. I still had a foot in the christian church/religion albeit on my way out. There was a church I use to attend, but because I was pulling away from Christianity, I had not gone there in a while, until one Good Friday, I went in time to catch the last part of the service, They had just finished Jumping (Poco.Zion revival church) so they were about to close the service and they were around the pool of the church. Yes, the Pastor had built a pool in the middle of the church, serving when invoked, what Jamaican people refer to as River Mumma, which we know as Osun the river deity.
When I walked in the Pastor, who I liked very much and who was very spiritually talented, looked at me and shook his head with a half smile on his face. He said nothing to me, but continued his closing prayer. In the middle off the prayer he paused and looked at me again, and then he smiled shook his head and continued to pray. Then he stopped and called out my name, he beckoned me to come over to him and chastised me for not coming to church as I should, he told me that I had a stomach that was troubling me and that if he followed his thoughts about me not coming to church he would not help me, but he was going to any way, and then he proceeded to get a glass which he took the water from the pool, in the glass he poured some Florida water and some flower petals and told me to drink, which I did. People mi belch fi bout one month straight (not bredda Curtis or Yazzy Granny belch dem ei nuh, caws mi dainty) some cute burps, but can I tell you all that the stomach problem left for about three years.
The pain returned again after the three years, and it came back with a bang! Nothing helped, and I decided that I would not go to the Doctor about it. I had never been to the doctor about it before and I told myself that I would not go. Now I know you all must be wondering why I was determined not to go check it out with a doctor, especially since it was persistent and I had been going through this for years and Here is why.
My belief, ever since I was a little girl and it got even more stronger as I grew and eventually became awakened. I believe that I am here on this earth plane by God’s will. I believe that I have a very strong mission here and while on my journey here although I expect to see or experience some not so good times (things cannot be good all the time, balance is needed for life to continue, so the good and bad have to co-exist), I convinced myself that I would not see any devastation, I knew that I would not see any bad thing in my life, that I would not be able to recover from, this I know for sure.
I knew that no sickness would take me away from my children or them from me, nothing would stop me from accomplishing my work upon this earth in this incarnation and I know that I would never see tragedy, or die untimely. I knew this and it stuck with me, so whenever I felt fear of anything(it is human to experience fear, but we should never allow it to linger around, but drive it wickedly away!)I remember that fear is an illusion created by me or the one who is experiencing it.
I calmed down when this very thought presented itself in my mind as a reminder, hence me praying to God, telling my creator that I will not go the doctor. I prayed and told God that I knew that my purpose on this earth was great and so he should send help for me and heal me of this stomach pains. I told God that I would not go to the doctor, and that I leave myself open to him to do as he wished. That was my prayer. I prayed and left the matter alone for my creator and my ancestors to deal with.
I had always dreamed of this white lady from I was a child growing up. I remember seeing a white form which looked like a huge cloud as a child, and as I grew this old white woman would come to me always dressed in white clothes, at times she was stern and other times she would be scolding, others loving and pleasant to me. I would see me combing her hair, or washing her if she were ill or not feeling well or just standing in front of her when she summoned me, as if summoned by my school principal/Head mistress.
The night I said that prayer, I saw her again in a dream. The white woman was in the hospital and I saw myself visiting her where she laid propped up among many pillows. I had a ice cream glass in my hands with what looked like some soft pink ice cream, something like a crumble was on top. In the dream I watched myself with her (as if I was one side watching all the happenings, so there were two of me there) as I approached her I chided her on giving the nurses problems, not wanting to eat, being a difficult patient. I handed her the glass for her to have the concoction there and she shushed me away almost annoyed, and told me that she did not want it, I should eat it instead of her, after trying to get her to eat and she resisting I ate it instead.
I woke up as I was half way eating it in the dream/vision, de belching began and I could feel my belly bubbling up nosily like acid in a shaken Pepsi cola bottle or a frothy overflowing pepsi can. It was 3 am in the morning and as I awoke, sitting up in my bed cutely burping (lol) my phone rang it was my mother. She told me she just had the strangest dream, she dreamed that I came and gave her some wine to drink and told her that it was for her stomach, she too had stomach problems. As I hung the phone up from her, it rang again, it was a former church sister of mine, an older woman, who told me the same thing my mother had just told me, she saw me in her dream and I told her that she should dink this wine, it would cure her stomach.
That night all three of us got healing. My stomach to this day have never pained me like that again. I have had upset stomach and felt even bloated since but nothing like de horse stallion pain whey mi use to get whey mek mi holla out “Mi bumbo!! like Beryl!, Gone was the pain, dem serious going into labor baby pains deh, I have never gotten again, I think God and I praise Orisha Osun, my ancestors, my guides and my Ori/my head.
I kept dreaming the woman from time to time, and it was after I received/initiated Osun that I have not seen her again, I did not need to I had crowned her on top of my head, Oore YeYe OOOo Osun oooooooo!!.
The woman was Orisha Osun unbeknownst to me (she can take any form she wish). I cried out to God and he heard me and so did she. This and more incidences made me realize that God truly interacts with human beings through his intermediaries, and that Prayer is vital to our survival here on this earth plane. Also that we have our guides and our head (inner consciousness), we must make use of it.
Throughout my life experiences I have learned that the less you have in life is the more you learn and develop that which is in you, that you had no idea was there, often times certain circumstances creates in you humility, and when in an humbled state you will get closer to the divine. Often times people pray and wish for money, and when they see others thriving, they ask their creator, “why not me my God?
Yet many (not all fall into these circumstances for said reasons, there are a lot of answers for life’s questions) have no idea, that their creator/the Universe can see tomorrow, and it knows that if this person suddenly becomes rich, the character would change despite how they feel deep down of helping others and being the best person with their new found wealth. Many who do not achieve the wealth desired in their earthly life, have no understanding that it is because there is a greater plan for them, or the universe is assisting their spiritual elevation therefore it will not allow money or material gain to soil them.
It is not every head that can carry wealth, wealth needs a strong head!. (please note that it is not every one who has money will lose their way, some are given great wealth by the universe because they can handle it and will do good with it as measured by the Universe), but this is for another topic, I tend to run away with topics, my apologies, but I have so much to share….Let me continue.
At the time of that prayer which led to my healing, I was alone with my children. I had no money, no job, no family (my family and I are not close) nothing. All I had was my faith, my belief in God and my ancestors. All that I thought I had was gone, so my faith was all I had and I made use of it. I knew deep within, that God would hear me and assist. I believed in God and I trusted my spirit, and if God did not come to my rescue then I was prepared to accept my fate. However my faith was stronger than anything else, and as a naive child, heart devoid of anything else than my petition to be healed, I said a very calm and short prayer and received solution that same night.
Necessity is the mother of invention, and olden days people who did not have modern technology had to make due with what they had. I use this example to say that when we are down and fallen at times feeling broken and are with out anything even support this is when our inner strength comes out, and we begin to contemplate, we begin to call upon or seek the assistance of a higher source. There are some who will just give up, but we, human beings are designed to fight, to survive against all odds.
Look at anything that challenges you as a lesson. Do not fight life, allow it to flow. If you receive a NO, and you try again and the same thing, leave it in prayer and ask for the revelation,look for the lesson. Everything has its season, the river flows in one direction and the Ocean has its time when it is calm and when it rises up. The sun rises every morning and return to its abode in the evening,leaving way for the moon to take his shift. Things are how they ought to be, the Universe makes no mistakes, yet often times we as humans create our own dire situations but circumstances can change due to fervent prayer coupled with faith .
Be prayerful, have faith and trust yourself . Introspect, self reflect and meditate. Sing, read and spend time with yourself every day. If you can do this, Life will begin to speak to you and you will understand and appreciate it better. Allow love and peace to enter your life, and when disappointment come learn from it, then pass on the knowledge, this is your responsibility as human beings, share knowledge from you own experiences. Do not Judge or condemn another, you never know the circumstances you may find yourself into one day. Reach for a fallen brother or sister, if they prove ungrateful, leave then to time, do not scandal them, or wish any bad upon them, if you do then what you did to help them will be removed from your spiritual journal as a star in your life’s journey. Be careful of gossip or speaking ill of a fellow being, to do so set you apart from your brothers and sisters upon this earth plane negatively no matter how much religion you are apart of, sow good seeds! Also as a gossiper the Universe will not be happy with you, know that every human have their head/ori (their greatest divinity) who will fight for them.
Watch your own life path, not another’s, we are all different in our ways and purposes. Do not get lost comparing your life to someone else, the person may be your spiritual junior or senior, but how are you to know. Concentrate on your own life. Be kind to animals and small children they are innocent and the Universe watches over them and protects them, respect your elders even the bad ones, let them go and pay for their own mistakes but let you never be found distressing them lest you be judged. Pray for everyone!
We have the ability to heal ourselves or to solve our problems if we put our minds seriously to whatever ails us. It may sound cliche, but believe me it is true. No condition is permanent, and Jamaican people have an adage which says “God does not give one more than what they can bare”, and this is true.
Allow your head to guide you, follow your head, pray and believe. The tools for our life’s survival is within us, programmed within the crevices of our minds. We need to unlock it, or know how to do so. The school which will come soon will teach you all the depths of these things. Be well in your spirit, know that you are never alone.
Ẹni sọ̀rọ̀ púpọ̀ yó ṣìsọ; àsọjù lo nmu ìyá ọba pe ara rẹ̀ ní ìyá ọ̀bọ. / Whoever talks excessively will misspeak; excessive talk is how the mother of the king (“ọba”) refers to herself as the mother of monkey (“ọ̀bọ”)…..Yoruba Proverb!
[Moderation is crucial.]
All religion are valid as long as it teaches peace and love…. Obara Meji!
There no disappointments in life, only lessons learned!….Obara Meji