Good day Bloggers, Peepers, Sometimers and Newcomers. Just now I received an email from a peeper and the subject was “Thank you”. Upon reading the email, I became misty eyed, although I tried desperately to contain it, (mi just apply mi make up fi hit de road, didn’t want any mascara line down my face) but I could not. The other day I wrote a bare all post titled “Betrayal, A Very Heavy Load” but I never posted this. In the post, I told you guys everything I was going through. I was more vulnerable than I had ever been, (which is saying something because I am quite vulnerable on this blog, in my telling the tales of my life, using my experiences as a tool in teaching you all). This year has most especially been rough, and the enemies have the sharpest teeth I have ever felt in my life. They are even trying to take my life as I type, but God above men and all things. What makes it the most difficult, all who are doing this to me, have learnt from me, have benefited from me in many ways, and then there are the few who I have sheltered, clothed and fed. But let me teach you all something, and this is true metaphysics first told to me by my Godfather in tradition, and I now pass it to you: Anyone, who you feed, clothe or shelter will never rise above you; and let me also add my own: Once you are innocent, your defense is sure. When the enemy fights you, pray. Do not exact revenge, as long as you know you did not offend them, just pray, watch and wait. Let peace be still.
This Peeper emailed me for the first time and shared this with me (he also gave me permission to share it here). This email came at a time when I had not made a post in a while and have been seriously considering if I should even continue. Two weeks ago I cried almost every day. Mi mean de cry whey yuh bawl out fi yuh madda. I needed my mother. I wanted to suck my finger and be five again, I wanted to. I wanted not to bother with people anymore, to leave them alone. But Obara Meji (my Osun) came to me and I was told to calm down and that all would be well. They said they were aware of what I was going through, but I should not be sad. God was not asleep. I have been slowly trying to heal, and then this email came.
Hi Obara, I hope this message finds you well.
I am what you’d call a peeper. I come, I read, I learn. I’ve never thanked you for your information, today I must.
I had a pretty crazy nightmare last night which I had to force myself to wake up from to actually escape it. I was being attacked.
Laying there dazed in the dark, still reeling from the deep sleep that I had just woken myself from, i heard a terrific thud on my bedroom floor. My jacket/coat, which I keep on a hook on my bedroom door, within moments of me waking up just decided to crash to the floor for no reason at all. It scared me so I had to put the light on.
I’ve never had something happen in the physical world right after waking from a nightmare.
I then became very cold and shivery. It was then thar remembered your post and searched for it. I took my Jamaican white rum, called on my ancestors and then flashed the 4 corners of the room like you had said. I also spat/blew a little rum on the door. I then read psalm 91 aloud as you suggested and the coldness and shivers left me. This was around 2am or so. I stayed awake for hours afterwards as I was convinced I could hear someone on the staircase and walking around on the landing upstairs, outside my door. I was home alone. I didn’t leave my room all night. I eventually fell asleep an hour before my alarm clock went off. Rough night. Never had that happen before.
All that to say a big THANK YOU for your knowledge. I really feel it helped me there. I don’t know what I was battling but because of your posts I have been keeping white rum in my room all this time and I knew what to do with it because of you. And the psalm really calmed me. It was the first time I’d touched a Bible in years. So thank you. I know this is a random message but I felt I should thank you since you helped me. I pray you keep up the good work, I pray you’re healthy and happy and all is well with you.
My response to the Peeper:
Lawd God Peeper, tears deh ah mi eye dem. I have not posted for a while now, because enemies are fighting me hard. These are people who I have helped, a lot. You do not know what this email means to me. I wonder sometimes if I am delusional in doing a blog, writing everyday (I cannot type) sharing my whole life experiences before the world, I often times quarrel with God and beg him to release me from this what I am doing. But here comes this email, because I seriously am hurting, the objects have gathered against me and are seeking to devour my flesh. Thank you Peeper, this means my work is not in vain and as the prophet told me in the post titled The Message, God is indeed pleased with me. Stay blessed mi baby, Jah guide.
For all who my posts have helped, keep on your path. Do not let anyone discourage you.