Good day everyone, I pray all is well for anyone who reads this blog post and that you are all awake and conscious of our present lives. I woke up this morning in a rush to go out and buy some things I need and have been putting off for a long time. I do this at times, put stuff off and then one day rush to do them all at once.
I guess this is apart of my natural personality, and even though I become annoyed with myself at times for it, if truth be told I really love and enjoy every aspect of me, even the naive part, (I’m an Aries). Being naive for me is not being foolish although at times I can be, we all are, it’s about being trusting, too trusting.
Life has dealt me some terrible blows because of this personality trait, and it has taught me a lot from the experiences I went through because of this. I ask my self the question recently would I relive some of those awful times? When I trusted someone and they let me down, causing me shame, pain, tears and embarrassment (like what I told you all about de teefing man) and I truly want to say no. If I could erase even meeting this dranco, I would, yet who I have become because of what he and his counterparts did to me, if I were wise, my true answer would be that what I went through taught me a lot and made me stronger, so if that was the benefit of the hell I went through, then I would not change the experience at all.
I have become a new person, much wiser, (I feel) and even more content with my life. They, the ones who put “my enemy” through hell last year 2016, are left in the past while I have risen and have forged on ahead.
So many people are angry and filled with rage. So many carry the past with them, never learning from it, and have burdened their lives and anyone involved with them in this load. Ok, your mother did not love you while growing up. She will be the one with that burden ontop of her if she has a conscience and we all do. I am not dismissing this pain, after all my own only loved me up until I was eight years old, this is how I feel, she might not agree, but this is how she made me feel. The pain of being maltreated or unloved from family, especially your mother is very hard, but how long will you carry this pain? How long will you imprison yourself with what happened in the past? Yes the past affects your future, but really only if you allow it. I must admit there are times when I allow it to come to surface, and this is done when someone hurts me and all the bad things that I have been through suddenly comes flooding to the surface and I feel hot tears sting my eyes.
When this happens, little Obara (my youngest daughter, she is spiritually old) would look at me and say “stop it!” At this moment our roles reverse and I want her to comfort me, and she knows, but refuses because she knows that the tears are not from what I am experiencing at the moment but what that experience has dredged up from the past. So she stays akimbo, and tries her best to shake me back to the present, and while it may take a moment, (because sometimes wallowing in self pity feels so good and comforting) I will struggle to stop de cow bawling and return to my self. Slightly ashamed that I have not washed those memories out of my sub-conscious even though I teach people to lose them. I realize that there is a part of me that likes to hold on to the past, and when I get into my somber mood, I pull them up as comfort.
As comfort? I can hear you all thinking this as you read, but yes as comfort. Perhaps there is a part of me that knows the power of tears and that if I get really upset and bawl dung de place because of a bad memory, destruction can take the culprits. Well no more of that for this new year. We must heal ourselves from the past, as the Italians say “forget about it“.
We must move forward, and if bad things has happened to you on your journey, try your utmost best to deal and then heal from it, you must. This is for you and not the germs bukit them that has hurt or offended you. This year is the year of fulfillment, and until you have learned from your past experiences you will continue to re-live them.
If you find your self with the same kind of man every time you enter a new relationship, this means that there was something from the first one you needed to learn and did not, so you keep on picking him again and again. It is obvious he is not for you or there would not be any breakup, apply this for men also, if you keep getting the same type of women.
For the older people (or anyone) out there who have given up on relationships because “it just doesn’t work out” re-adjust your thoughts, and mentally explore the similarities in all the persons you have been with and find the common trait which did not make the relationship work. Sometimes the fault may even lie with you, so examine yourself also and give it a try again, but re-newed this time.
What you need to focus on now is your health and well being, because once this is with you, remember you are on a journey here in this realm, this life’s journey is bigger than you. Life is just for living, yes I do agree, but while living you must also accomplish. Accomplishing means to most people, wealth and power. For some it means a house, a family, a good job and a dog. For some it just means to exist in peace and no quarrel and for some it is to bring confusion anywhere they go (these people have their place in the world so we cannot cuss them). Whatever life means to anyone who thinks about it, there still remains the fact that whether you know it or not, we are all students here and also teachers and we must journey along through our destiny to be fulfilled.
On this journey we will meet the good, the bad, the ugly (me meet nuff ah dem deh) and the indifferent (oonuh neva know bout the indifferent don’t it?), they will all play a role in our lives. We must all remember to view them all as both students and teachers, because even the baby just born comes into our lives to bring us into another phase of it. This means we must push forward and leave the past (and by the past I mean not dwell on bad things from it, which can affect us spiritually, emotionally, mentally, from going forward).
2017 is the year of 10, which is really the number 1. This means we begin all over again and we make this journey alone. What do I mean? This year will remind us that all our decisions will be our own, we must take lessons from ourselves and allow ourselves to adhere to them. This year will teach us independence and also how to communicate with our own spirit, which most of us ignore. I hope you are conscious enough to get my message, but this is the year that you will (if confident and obedient enough) finally know who you are and perhaps what you will become. You will explore and be more creative, this is the time to let go, release and find yourself, but first leave the past behind.
I love you all,
PS: Blogger Prosperity, I hear a baby crying oooooo…….safe delivery my dear, please help me pray for Prosperity, as I am typing my spirit has tuned into her energy.
The spider that knows what it will gain sits waiting patiently in its web. The praying mantis is never tired waiting all day…….Yoruba Proverb.
All religion are valid as long as it teaches peace and love…Obara Meji