I gave somebody a reading once, and as soon as I opened the oracle the words that came to me to tell her was: “the spirit says you feel like a bird perched upon a thin wire.”
I must admit that in that moment as the words came from my mouth, I had no idea what it meant. I did not know why the spirit would tell her that and I was somewhat puzzled by their use of language as immediately a small bird perched upon a high wire flashed through my mind. As I told her this, she seemed to understand what the spirit meant, but they did not allow me to be puzzled for too long. For they began to explain to her, through me, how she was feeling and the effect those feelings had on her life. When the reading was over and we hung up, she called me back not long after and told me thanks. She felt exactly like the spirit described she said, but had never placed an image to her feelings. She was so confused about “why” she was perturbed about life most of the time.
We all get to that place sometimes… a place where we can not figure out ourselves, our future, where we are in life and where we ought to be. The young lady told me that although she felt accomplished in her schooling and her profession, all things else was at a stand still for her. She was watching life pass by and she had no control of it. She felt clueless as how to fly off that wire she was metaphorically perched upon, but she knew she must.
I have often written about wanting to be childlike again; wanting to be under the care and protection of my mother. Life can be daunting at times and not everyone has the bravado it takes to forge on through. It’s like walking into a big empty old house with many doors, and the thought of pushing a door open makes you fret as to what may leap out. Life’s worry is certain, the unknown is the future and it is spirit all on its own. Many people are waiting for their life to begin. ‘Begin’ in way of whatever they had planned for themselves by “this age” or what society or family expects of them. Everybody needs somebody sometimes as the song says and this is very true. It doesn’t matter if you tell yourself different. No matter your accomplishments, there is always a need. A need for something else, something that is down deep inside and at times we may not even know what it is… it’s just a feeling, an inexplicable one.
In the case of the young lady I read, she wants a family. She wants her husband and children and she wonders everyday and every year as she gets older, if these things are meant for her at all, are they written in her destiny? She did not see it. She only saw a routine: go to work and go back home. Nothing in between. Not everyone is a social butterfly, there are some (like me now) who enjoys staying home, enjoying my own company and ( Gunsmoke’s Matt Dillon of course, so masculine). However, the young lady had become present in her life and had taken steps to spiritually remove any encumbrances which may be the hold up of what she was waiting on. So now she waits again… perched on that wire, in hopes that that spiritual step would offer her the way to fly.
I love spirits. They are so wise and caring, the ones I work with. They have such a wisdom with them, that they can give a message to a client and I will not understand it, but the client will. Genius! She told me that day that she was comforted by their words, because they had followed up the description with these words:
“…The time for the bird to finally fly off that wire without fear was near”.
Have any of you ever felt like you were just waiting for something? You may not even know what it is you’re waiting for, but somewhere within you, you know that the time for your enjoyment, the patience you have exuded in life, waiting on your creator, trying to be a good person, friend, companion, doing all you can to just wait upon your time to enjoy your life is coming. You cannot explain the feeling, no one told you this, you just feel it. You know that just around the corner, up the street a little, you will reap your just reward, another phase of your life is opening up. Have you ever felt that? I have.
As I am typing now, I am on my bed, positioned in a way that I can clearly see through my windows which are tall and many. Outside is dark and gloomy although it is just past noon. The dark clouds are spreading across the skies, it is about to rain again as it has been doing all month. Pretty soon, the vendors outside in the streets will begin to run for shelter and so will many others as huge drops of rain will pour down torrentially. What many will not see however is what I am seeing: a cleansing. It is like God passing through with a bucket and a mop, cleaning up. Spiritually making way for the sun to shine again, and it will. I had a talk with my young daughter today, it was a talk about dark and light, and I told her that of the two, I am not sure which is more powerful. They are both even in their power. Light heals and protects and darkness is always pregnant and so it creates and gives way for light to do its job. As the darkness covers the sky right in front of me as I write, getting ready to pour water from the clouds, some people will be receiving clearance, some deliverance and some will be receiving their judgement. God is nothing if not fair and nature is perfect.
I had another topic in mind, and also I have three more already post written that are in draft, but this young lady came to mind today and the message that she received. As funny as it sounds, I pondered on what she was told because it resonated with me. Like her, I often times have felt like that small bird perched on that high live wire, wondering what’s next. What should I do now? What gives from here? Being human is stressful, I should have opted to come in as a tree. Strong and in the woods somewhere. Watching all who pass by, when they pass by. People are often surprised when I tell them this. They are shocked that I am also affected by what they are affected by. I laugh at this, but I do understand them. After all, I am no ordinary human, but I live inside the human body and unfortunately this subjects me to human emotions and human qualities. I say unfortunately because the spirit which is truly me, knows better. Yet emotions is necessary for the human to function here in this chaotic world. We do not have this problem (emotions) in other realms. Things are what they are and are never muddled by sentiments, feelings and all that nonsense. You must admit, it is tiring, but life is sweet, so no complaints about it, and that tree that I wished I had come back as, could not go to Stone Love or wear long Brazilian hair, so there are perks to the human flesh and to life.
If you are like me or the young lady, “perched on that wire”, waiting, not knowing where to go, or what will happen. If you happen to look up and see the darkening of the sky, the threats of thunder or the spark of lightening, knowing that the rain will pour and pour and pour, rest assured that the time for you to fly steady and well is near. The rain will stop, the clouds will brighten, the thunder will silence and the lightening will retreat.
All will soon be well. I promise.