I would like to apologize to everyone who has been patiently waiting for a post from me and have been emailing me with complaints. The truth is, for the past couple of weeks I have been working on me. It has been a long time since I have been fully focused on myself. The nature of my work has always been to improve the lives of other people. My joy was the happiness of others. My dreams were other peoples achievements and it took one meeting recently to let me know that I had forgotten about me.
The realization was shocking and it caught me off guard. But I have watchers, non-physical watchers, who care and love me and saw that I had given up on myself and lived my life vicariously through others. Every time I am geared to take a step into a new phase of my life, there comes a harder challenge than before. The last major challenge was a great thief disguised. My spiritual eyes saw him but my human emotions qualified what I saw. I berated myself for being victimized, but the end justified the means… I can accept that now.
So today, I want to teach you how to deal with you.
Step One – Realize
The first step to healing is realizing that there is a part (or whole) of you that needs it. All my life I had this childlike love for people, no matter what was done to me. Moments after hurt and pain, on impulse I would open my door if the one who caused me pain was in need. I had an intense feeling for human connection, no matter what I went through. The Aries astrology calls this naivety, but it was something I couldn’t help.
Every new person that attempted to come into my life was blocked. I felt angry, used, and taken advantage of when ever a new person wanted to come into my space. I found solace in loneliness.
My daughter berated this “new me” and I hated it. There was nothing wrong with me. Why couldn’t anyone see things from my perspective?
But in truth, it was me who couldn’t see. I did not realize that the childlike love I had for humanity had dissipated. All those years of hurt had finally caught up and this was my response.
Because I did not realize that something about me needed to be healed, this emotional “ailment” now took on a physical presence. My hands were now plagued with severe eczema. Painful, maddeningly itchy, red, angry and swollen.
That was me. In pain, angry, puffed with emotions of hurt.
Remember this: All physical illnesses are caused by the human because there is a spiritual problem. How have you changed? How have you swayed away from your destiny? What have you been doing too much or too little of? Have you been avoiding something? What are you afraid of?
Sickness and diseases are illusions. They are not real. It is only a message and the moment you realize it and find the source of the problem, it will cease to exist. Everything starts from within and many things are conjured. Even obeah can not manifest unless there is a “crack” or “space” that allows it to enter. That “crack” is created by things such as fear, worry, over indulgence, low self esteem, power-drunk, doubt, insecurities, jealousy (this is a big one – it is like a sponge with a lot of holes. It is able to absorb absolutely any negative ailment, whether spiritual or physical) etc.
I had a client who constantly complained of back pain. He could hardly stand or sit without wincing. The spirit told me that the pain manifested because too many people “leaned on him,” it said. He was well off and this made family, friends, and others immediately depend on him for financial help. He was very kind and found it difficult to say no. This manifested into back pain.
Step Two – Write
After realization, write everything you have realized has gone “wrong” about yourself or needs to be healed. Introspect and be honest with yourself. Here are some examples:
- I am jealous of my sister
- I am insecure
- I only date who can give me money
- I am angry all the time
- I feel unworthy
- I gossip about others
- I don’t believe in myself
- I am afraid of trying
(Note: It doesn’t have to be a list, it can be an essay or whatever you want it to be).
Anything you realize that is not conducive to your happiness and your spirit, write it, even if that thing gives you comfort. It’s time to release it. Whatever has changed about you or whatever that darkness is within you, introspect and write it.
This step is best done alone at night or early in the morning when all is quiet. For me, introspection is done through music, and for others it’s done through total silence. This step is important because it will help you find the source of the problem.
Step Three – Heal (Ritual)
In life everything is ritual. The word “ritual” creates fear within the unawake, but know that ritual is important to our rites of life.
After writing everything down, step three is to heal. Get a canister or pot. Pour about a handful of sea salt into the pot and then tear that paper up into pieces as fine as you can tear it, and drop it into the pot. Put a black piece of cloth into the pot and light everything on fire.
Watch everything burn, the cloth, the pieces of paper, the salt. When it all burns, empty the ashes into another piece of black cloth and tie it. Dig a hole anywhere you choose-
Caution! If your birth date (month, date, and year) adds up to the number 10 (1), do not dig the hole yourself. Let someone else dig the hole for you.
Spit into the hole 3 times (this represents your essence) and say:
“All that is behind me is behind me. I bury all negatives that does not need to be with me. May they never surface again.”
Drop the cloth with the ashes into the hole. Cover it with the dirt. Mash it to be sure it is buried properly. Sprinkle the ground with Jamaican White Rum or White Gin.
By digging the hole, you have disturbed something (a spirit, being, or some energy) so to compensate that “thing” you will give gin or white rum (with all things, respect is always due). If you do not have rum or gin, you are welcome to throw silver coins into the hole, but preferably the liquor.
What It All Means
The Pot/Canister: The pot is something that “holds” which is important to the burning process. It represents cohesiveness and something put together. It will do the job of containing all that you rid yourself of.
Sea salt: The sea is known as a cleanser. Anything the sea does not want, it spits it out. Anything that salt is apart of, that thing becomes alive. Salt also absorbs. It is a cleansing agent and aids in removing negative energy.
Fire: Fire purifies, destroys, and turns things into ashes and ash is synonymous with the ground. Burning that paper becomes like a “burial” or “funeral” for that negativity.
Your saliva: Your saliva is your essence. It represents you. Anything that is distasteful, most people spit it out. It is also indicative of a purge in this case.
All things in life are symbolic.
After this your healing has begun. Be watchful and be thankful.
Share this work with those you care about. Heal others with this recipe! If I can share it with you, you can share it with others. Begin this coming year with a new you.
NOTE: It is BEST to do this work before 2018, but it is okay to do it in January. The essence of this work is to shed yourself of all darkness and step into the new year with light.
“The truth sayer is everyone’s enemy” – Yoruba Proverb