Yesterday someone insulted me, perhaps not even knowingly. It was none of you on this site, but somewhere else. I noted the insult and tried my best to qualify their actions so as not to judge them unfairly. I called my children, who I sometimes believe are my real parents and discussed it with them in hope of them telling me that I was wrong in my assumption and it was not an insult, but to my dismay they agreed and my heart cried with despair. The person who did this was and still is, someone that I cared and prayed for, and my prayers for them will continue, as I wish nobody no ill will. I was hurt, and whenever I am hurt like this it brings back to me memories of maltreatment of the wicked baby father, my sisters, my parents and other people I fell victim to through my naivety. I can be quite naive, despite knowing so much. My love and trust for people makes me vulnerable to the big bad wolves of life, and there are many. It took me a long time and I am still processing it, to realize that the world is filled with not so nice people. It hurts to know, but it is the truth.
As I sat alone in deep thought, I heard a ping on my phone and there was an email from Ty. In the email she thanked me for the blog and told me how much it has assisted her in more ways than one. I needed that!. I read it three times before I responded to her. I was so choked up by her timely email that I could only respond in a few words, telling her thanks and also telling her that someone spoke to her to send me that email. Thank you Ty, for the love and care you have shown to someone you have never met, It is a blessing having you here, I love you so much, I see you and your husband and children in my minds eye everyday. Since returning to blogging, I realize that all of you who are actively blogging with me daily, and the few who run in here and there are hand picked by God for a particular reason, We all knew each other from heaven or in another realm, that is my belief. You all inspire me!. MTH, is like mi cup ah tea in the mornings, If I don’t see her, I immediately call, text or email her. She is just magnificent, she once told me that sometimes she looks at the comments and see MTH only and she is embarrassed, but MTH, you do not know what you do for me everyday, MTH, I love you so much!
Sa-Fo is always here, even if she does not comment everyday due to work pressure, mi lickle spit fire, Ogun picney, lol, she is here always or if not she plays catch up, Love and light I send to you Sa-Fo. Kia Bubblez, all when I am sleeping you are blogging, by your self most time, but you try to make it here every day if that is not loyalty I do not know what is. Our sweet Nunu, you have been a peeper for a while and just buss whey wid we so, and have the chore of reading the blogs everyday to your brother who cannot find the time or access to read it himself, you are so appreciated and loved and you are so funny, Love and Light mama. Maniac, you in a class by your self, I do not have to tell you how much I love you, you know. Vanessa you run in and out but I feel your presence all the time, love and light ma! Cami, something bout you, lawd, so wise and such a beautiful spirit, but you ooze strength and I like that, welcome, love and light. Cas welcome, Yazzy yuh call me mommy O and I love it, Toy, Donna and all other, nuff love and appreciation I send to you. may your lives always have light, and may no weapon fall against you prosper. I thank you all! mi figet anybody??..oonuh memba mi please!
Ty, di sin ting come mama, thank you!
Ẹni tí ò bá mọ bí ẹgbẹ̀ rẹ̀ ṣe là, á sá àsákú. /
Whoever is unduly anxious about his peer’s relative success, will hustle himself to death….Yoruba Proverb!
[We can’t always evaluate our life by those of others]