There was a time when I thought I couldn’t speak about this. It even pained me to remember the feeling of anxiety attacks when they first began. I didn’t know what it was, I just knew how I felt. It was worrisome for me because during those times, I thought I was losing my mind.
I used to have feelings of anxiousness, heart palpitations, and hyperventilations, and felt like I wanted to just get up and start running.
But “run for what?” was the logic that spoke to me and kept me grounded.
I remember I would burst into tears at odd times and when ever I was around crowds, like going to the supermarkets, trains or buses, the feeling enhanced.
I had a crackhead friend named Debby (I had no idea she was on crack at the time, she seemed functional to me). She was a blessing in my life. I thank all that is Holy that Debby was around me because when I would ask her to follow me to the supermarket, she was always supportive of what might happen next.
The moment I would get to the supermarket doors, I would feel a force come at me so powerfully it almost knocked me over. My heart would start to race, I couldn’t breathe, I would stumble backwards, grab Debby and run to the parking lot.
I was shaking, I was nervous, my eyes were wild, and I would grab Debby with every strength I had. I did not know it then but that “force” that came at me was the collective life force, or energy, of every single person in that supermarket. The reason I had felt it was because I was being opened up spiritually, thus I was sensitive to energies . And this was the premise to me becoming who I am.
Debby would always stay with me, rub my arms soothingly, and tell me that everything will be OK.
There were times when I would just break down into tears and these miserable episodes began when I was a teenager. The anxiety began a little later outside of my teenage years and I I worried about my children because in the deep corner of my mind I did not know what would become of me.
The mistake I made was asking random people if they, too, had these feelings. Of course, some people being either ignorant or simply insensitive would tell me, “No, only mad people feel that way.” This only made me panic even more.
Anxiety and panic attacks turned into depression. And if you have ever been depressed, it is one of of the most awful feelings in the world. Much different from the anxiety and panic attacks that placed you there. I describe depression as being at the bottom of a very deep well where it is dark, and damp and lonely and scary. Looking up from the well you can see the sky and the sun and light and brightness… but how do you get there? Who will pull you up? Who will hear you?
This is how it felt for me. I felt completely detached from myself. I felt as though my body was one place, and my spirit was across the street from me, and we could not meet.
But little did I know…
When all of these episodes began, although they manifested in the physical realm and acted upon my mind, what was happening to me was that I was becoming awake.
I was being “born again” in a major way. This is why when ever I meet anyone who tells me that they are suffering from depression, anxiety attacks, or looming fear of something or the other (because fear is the base of all these things) I squint my eyes and look at these people deeply. I realize that all their chakras and third eyes are opening up – and trust me, it is a jarring experience.
When you are in the same space as certain non-physical beings, and there are different levels of spirits (ancestral spirits, spirit guides, pure light beings, dark beings, or even Higher Beings of Light), the frequency these beings carry is way beyond what we can handle in our realm.
Stand beside a gong and have someone hit the gong beside you. The sound that the gong will make will be loud and resonate far. But the noise will affect you that is standing within reach of this gong, and you will feel it all throughout your body. That is anxiety. That is panic attacks.
How does it affect you?
When the spirit of the grandmother that died enters your space, you will feel chills, hot or cold flashes, goose pimples, hairs standing on end, slightly anxious (depending on how high grandmother is in vibration from her world), and more.
Other spirits of light that may carry a higher vibration than the grandmother, whether they are benevolent or malevolent, the person will feel a looming feeling of fear. Fear of what, exactly? They won’t know. It doesn’t matter if the spirit is good or bad, it is the vibration we are focusing on. That looming feeling of fear then converts to anxiety, and the anxiousness then converts to panic attacks.
When ever any spirit comes from their world to our world, because this Earth is lower in vibration, when the Higher Being comes, if the person is not lifted in consciousness they will feel the presence of these entities in some unusual way.
Anxiety is the feeling one gets from the clash of their lower vibrational energy versus the higher vibrational energy of the non-physical being.
This happens when spirits enter our space or when we enter theirs.
When the person is not a practicing spiritualist or their vibration has not been risen (spiritual initiation), they will have not only the feelings described above but also a dull ache in the head and/or eye (most often the right eye, this is because the right side for most people is the more dominant side). The eye will feel intense tension as though someone is trying to pluck it out. There will also be a pressure at the back of the neck, the top of the head, or between the brows.
There are reasons for these particular areas.
Most people who go through these things are people who I refer to as sponges because they soak up the energies of other people and thus result in anxiety and panic attacks. Also, people who go through these things are spiritual people who need to get closer to their spirituality.
What ruins this, however, is becoming doped up on medication for anxiety or panic attacks, but this is for another post.
The next time you have a feeling of anxiousness or panic, know that something higher than yourself has entered your space. All you need to do is talk yourself down, and you will be fine.
I may do a class on these things to teach you the correct methods to use to overcome these feelings and how to avoid them altogether.
All truths goes through 3 stages: First it is ridiculed. Then it is violently opposed. Finally, it is accepted as self-evident. – Schoepenhouer
It’s that overwhelming, flooding, drowning panic. You can’t breathe. You think you’re breathing in water. And the tension in the neck. Yes, I get that. When these waves hit me, I try to meditate, but it is almost too late by then. The body has been taken over and you must ride the miserable wave until its end. Interestingly, my family have just been fighting and I texted my mother to tell her I could not breathe and she mentioned that I was probably receiving information on the ether and I think she’s right. I just wish that information was… Read more »
I am experiencing this. And I’m experiencing it after having a particular type of bath. I work in a very public place. Think of an airport or bus terminal. And I am fine on my way in but now that I’m here I am feeling so anxious and weak. Like I can’t walk. It’s almost paralyzing. I am literally sitting here taking deep breaths as I post this. I deliberately came to this post because I remember reading it before and at the time didnt understand it. And now I do. I’m wondering if the bath I took and where… Read more »
Hi, this is the first article I read after realizing the name of what I have been going through for the last 26 days, its called Panic Attacks. Its very similar to what you have described, I know that it is spiritual in nature as I am very spiritual and have been on a hunt to find my own spirituality. But I feel scared all the time now, scared of feeling scared, worried that I feel scared, sad that I feel scared. I am using meditation, smudging, crystals to stay and feel protected but honestly, nothing helps after a certain… Read more »
I just had a panic attacked that I have’nt had for a long time. I was fine then the phone rang it was my father we spoke for a short time maybe 3 – 5 minutes while talking my heart kept palpitating rapidly. Once i got of the phone it diminished and then stopped.
I must apologized for the post before i decided to not use Peggy which is my wifes name and use a fictitious name so I used Betty and was suppose to change it where i used her real name but i post it forgetting to make the correction. Upon being released from the hospital I went to see the Priest as i usually do on Sunday and told him what took place. He asked did my brother leave as i demanded I said yes. I told him the book was hidden from me and I told him all i’ve been… Read more »
Greetings, allow me to share some of my experience in my awakening. It begins shortly after my 1st wife made her transition. These were some of my loniest time but I began searching I felt and I knew I was in a battle the attacks became more intense and i was in panic mode at all times but my allys (my instinct & inner voice) told me to keep my composure and I will be fine. I must mention that while I was married i was hospitalized maybe once out of the 7 years we were together. Before my wife… Read more »
Finally, an answer to my experience. This blog is a blessing thank you Sister Obara for this gift. My experience began around 1993 when I was in the US Navy. I began thinking people was after me. The panic attacks, anxiety and fear would just happen and i felt like i could trust no one I would want to run but where would I go. One time I ran outside of my apartment. I ended up at the 7/11 I called 911 and they took me to the hospital. At that time I was stationed in California. I was diagnozed… Read more »
I think I’m going through this as well, having weird sensations and panick attacks out of the blue for no reason.
I live in a small island and don’t know places or people who could explain this to me.
Does anyone know any webpage that explains this and how to deal with it?
Love and light to you all.
This is happening to me. I thought I was stressed out.
I have come to the conclusion,personally so far that the remedy for spiritual attack & control is -go by your GUT feeling, if someone makes you feel uncomfortable, & prayer & being prayed over by the right people (with good intenetins ) I also believe we should pray for each other , any time we think to eg if a thought of a friend, relative, or even a stranger pops into your head, ask God to take all evil form their lives & keep them safe. Even pray for those that wish you harm as “they know not what they… Read more »
I know several people who have anxiety and panic attacks that I think are caused by this sort of issue, but I’ve had difficulty explaining what’s going on. Thank you for sharing this.
You’re most welcome.
Thank you for this! Lately, I’ve been going to therapy for my anxiety and panic attacks. I never thought that it could be related to something spiritual…
I remember my first anxiety attack happened when I was 14 years old. I ended up in the children’s hospital and luckily whatever took me over told my mother, “Mi nuh need nuh docta, mi need Jesus!” *sigh she took very good care of me.
Interestingly enough, I was looking for an explanation for the experience a year ago but found nothing. SO I THANK YOU TREMENDOUSLY FOR THIS! *kisses
I tell it to go back to where it came from , this usually works, also make sure you’re not doing anything spiritually wrong, or mixing with the wrong people etc
Interesting post Obara. While I am no psychiatrist I can safely say I have never had a panic attack. Feeling anxious sometime? Yes but not to the point where I have a panic attack. I believe I am one of those sponges you speak of, to some extent. See I generally feel anxious in crowded places no matter the size of the area/venue/building. However, there are places where I do feel more anxious than ever and those are places having a big party or banks. In fact, when it comes to those big parties, I need not actually go to… Read more »
Yes, yes. It is a rare thing to happen, actually, but this shows your heart. “Your heart” meaning your willingness to explore, analyze, less fearful than most, and your willingness to accept. So yes, you concluded the reasons well.
I read this post yesterday. And. I Cried. I Cried and I laughed at the same time. Like a mad person, in between difficult emotions. Because, Obara, this is the story of my life. I was so aware of tears streaming as I had the feeling of eureka, thinking and feeling ” I’m not alone and I’m not abnormal”. I suddenly felt free of the guilt, hurt and shame that I faced, and still at times continue to battle. I’ve studied psychology, and have knowledge of the many ‘illnesses/ disorders’, and had believed I would know what to do and… Read more »
Hi Shena, First of all, thank you for the compliment of referring to me as an “obeah woman” LOL. I giggled as I read that. However, I am that and more, of course. Don’t spread the word about the good part though, everyone must have a little bad in them, it equals balance (but shh on this part too lol). Thank you for sharing your journey! I so much appreciate it. I wish everyone would understand the importance of sharing their experiences, good or bad. It’s like passing the baton along in a relay so that our team can win… Read more »
I’m most fulfilled. I’ve had anxiety issues for a while now at times I feel as though I’m about to run crazy though I know the origin is rooted in deep fear of something I do not even know. At times in the dark I feel as though someone is close to me and I suddenly run out of the room. Thank you my newly found friend, Obara
I use to have anxiety attacks 2-3 years a back which lead to depression I use to cry a lot and wanted to scream. Now I don’t want to go out to interact with ppl and crave to be in my own space away from ppl. As I feel too overwhelmed mixing with ppl and their energy… thanks Obara for this message love and light ur way
Love and light Candy!
Obara, I am grateful that you have deemed it necessary to highlight an issue that is typically medicated or disregarded. In the middle of last year I noticed that my heart was constantly racing. At first I tried to ignore it but I couldn’t. Interestly, whenever I checked my heart rate, it showed up as being normal. As time went on, my breathing became strained and I would sigh constantly. I started paying attention to these symptoms and recognized that they occured whenever I was in the company of certain people or if I was doing something against my will.… Read more »
If you noticed you feel that way around certain ppl then they are most likely energy vampires. Some are aware but many are not aware. Some may be directly drawing the energy from you some may be possessed by a spirit that siphons your energy. I have made mention of this before on other topics but you tend ppl who are narcissists that are energy vampires as well as masochists. Re: Justification of spirit manifesting in such an overwhelming manner. Well as Obara mentioned it is not necessarily the spirits’ fault here. We live a in lower vibrational plane and… Read more »
I just noticed when I posted the above reply it said 4:44am my time.
Was that of any significance?
Yes! Your spirit approves of your comment. Have no doubt that non-physicals are on this blog all day and night and they “sign” many things that we all write here. 4:44 is them hailing you. It is also because you are helping another blogger. You are shining your Light and your spirits approve. I can’t explain to you how I know this, but trust me I do.
Ok, I see now. I have searched online about these angelic numbers all the time but apart from 1 particular sequence the explanations I get for the rest all seem abstract and 444 happens to be one of those that I don’t quite get. But your reply makes me more at ease Obara.
Very intriguing. Well done Mike!
Greetings Mike, In addition to there being energy vampires…I have also found that there are those who are genuinely “seeking” whether for help or guidance. At times, I can sense this and regulate it, this is, however, dependent on my state of being at that moment. We are spiritual beings, though at different vibrational levels, having a human experience – the aim is not to blame spirit per se but to seek a way for humans to manage/facilitate the interaction effectively which enables us to fulfil our purpose. It is so true that many have suffered because of the people… Read more »
Hi IB, I am with you on that sometimes our state of being at any given moment can affect our interactions, in this case clash of vibrations. I will not lie, it affects me too at times. The good thing though is that we are armed with the knowing of being more aware. That’s the beauty of Obara’s blog. I’ve learned a lot here. I could be wrong but I suspect Jamaica’s crime rate is partly a result of our high level of spirituality. We have the most churches per square mile and yet have such terrifying crime levels for… Read more »
Mike, Jamaica is a boiling pot of energy that overflows often with little or no aid from the church. I’m not sure if I’d call it a spiritual war but I guess that depends on the angle from which we are viewing things. Ever since colonization, Jamaica (wid di whole heap a energy from wi ancestors and the powers of the land) rejected spirituality. At times I wonder if the people are being punished. Where in Jamaica yuh hear about stable government? Right now I wonder if we still have the fake British independence or if we are now under… Read more »
Hahahaha!!! Well IB, my example about the churches are more a metaphorical representation of the vast belief systems held in the country. We have lots of churches per square mile just as much as we have vast amounts of personal beliefs. I do believe Jamaica is going through one helluva spiritual war on many levels. We are fighting amongst ourselves for our individual spirits are so strong and not kept in check. Then there are forces from outside either trying to control us for whatever purpose or straight out fear us and want to destroy us. It’s not just Jamaica… Read more »
Hi IB, Q1: The answer is written in within the post where I explained that it has to do with different frequencies and outer vibrations. Them coming into our space or we entering into their space where our vibratory levels are not the same, so it affects us in this way. Q2: Yes, it can, but just imagine being locked into a room with a heavy metal song on the record song on the record exchanger. So the drums are banging, the guitar is blazing, the singer is screaming as how rock music is – it’s like torture. So a… Read more »
Thank you Obara! The information you present on this blog enables us to have a clearer understanding of the complexities associated with embracing our spirituality. However, it is somewhat understandable when humans are reluctant to embrace the experience as to the same extent that the journey can be liberating, the possibility exists that things can go haywire. It really is important for us to adapt and I’m working on this. Life makes it easy for us to get caught up in a routine and because of this, grounding is lost and humans cease to function effectively. Instead of medication, we… Read more »
Good afternoon Obara Meji, Sometimes, I do experience myself feeling very cold unusually at night whenever i hear a bird making noise at night close to my house. Sometimes when am feeling very cold I start feeling like am having an out of body experience. It happens sometimes at past 11pm, 1am, 2am, 3am. I always believe that a witch or messenger is around my house whenever I start feeling this way. This experience started in 2017 or I would rather say I started noticing this feeling in 2017. And Of recent I experienced this feeling at 1am when a… Read more »
Thank you Christopher, you can email me, if you need to.
All I have to say is that this a Excellent Post Obara Meji and also Love the audio post too. THANK YOU for sharing and letting us know that we are not going crazy when we feel things around us or some type of pain in the body…I really enjoy when you break things down in your posts for everyone here to overstand what you are talking about. GOD Bless you and the information you give to us here to know….
You are welcome Elizabeth
My Gosh !! Me can’t believe this post- verbatim to what you wrote has been happening to me in the last 4 yrs- So noticeable it is that my wife has commented on it- Obviously I am going to have to reason with your off the air but It had gotten so bad I am like a hermit because I am wary of just mixing with people.
Blessed Love Sis-
Going to link you on this tomorrow- hope you not too busy
I’m here my friend, I’m here.
Sometimes I wonder if it is fear of people from all that I have been through that makes me have this anxiety these last couple of years but I dont think so because I am naturally fearless- I can’t explain how it developed but it has over the last 4-5 years. Currently I have a dull pain in my arm for the last 2 weeks but on that note I have developed these dull pain that moves from my shoulder, neck and lower back- I keep on saying it is my bed pillows but when the neck is hurting the… Read more »
When you call we will speak my dear
Thank you Obara. Am going to start to take notice of myself more often We never notice things until we. Are taught about it.
Anxiety is something you will definitely notice Majorie, not a fun feeling at all.
Thank you. Very timely and once again you have given me invaluable insight. Ase & Namaste